Even though I was still way behind the curve, it was WILD! All I had to do was show up, hang on for the ride... and LEARN! These guys were awesome, and it was proof of how important it is to have good people around you! What kind of people do you have around you?

The POWER of those songs, IN THAT ENVIRONMENT, musically AND lyrically, along with the way they were delivered to everyone there that night, FLUNG me into a controlled chaos as bodies moved, shook, swayed, and convulsed while their music kept filling and filling my soul until, at the end... their beautiful, calming, compassionate sincerity gently set me onto the "shore..." completely unharmed! And in the far reaches of my mind, Perry Farrell's voice... it's still echoing... 

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s8ul0-_fXdw       Ocean Size - Jane's Addiction (Studio Version)

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lVIev94s7Mo     Ocean Size - Jane's Addiction (Official Video)

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mQpJXQYhlTY  Ocean Size - Jane's Addiction (Live in Sydney)

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hIUwxSFFxo4    Mountain Song - Jane's Addiction (Studio Version)

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mm2Z9Mr9Ilw  Mountain Song - Jane's Addiction( Live)

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pKz5cUfd1is      Pigs In Zen - Jane's Addiction (Studio Version)

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bfcJ4h7Lczs     Pigs In Zen - Janes Addiction (Live) 

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1CpRCc4Jre8   Ted, Just Admit It - Jane's Addiction (Studio Version) 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WCJ943fLMrM  Ted, Just Admit It - Jane's Addiction (Live)

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QEIlgOnvGEs    Ted, Just Admit It  Jane's Addiction (Live) 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QEIlgOnvGEs   Pink Floyd  - Echoes 

 Background music created and arranged By Bishop Freesh using Garage band.

So… as I’m standing there all by myself in the corner of the patio, HE… this guy who I’ve never met before IN MY LIFE, slowly raises one arm… index finger pointing right at me, and he looks DEAD into my eyes! At this moment I’m frozen, my pulse is racing, my muscles are tightened, and with the seriousness of a Supreme Court Judge, as if it were MY SENTANCE, he says, “And you’re goin’!” 

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=auLBLk4ibAk  -  "Tom Sawyer" - RUSH

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sJt9zXtOBAY  -  "Tom Sawyer" LIVE - RUSH (Exit Stage Left Version) 

 ***ADITIONAL SONGS*** 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Gscw5l_roo  - "Simultaneous" - Puscifer 

Not only does the monologue in the beginning of this song remind me of of my friend, the entire song does. 

 "See our better nature blossom."                      

 "Find a way through, around, or over..."

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When I caught up to her in the parking lot she stared at me in stoic silence waiting for me to say something... but I didn't, I didn't say one word, because everything that I wanted to say was in the note that I held in my outstretched hand... 

 “Words! Mere words! How terrible they were! How clear, and vivid, and cruel! One could not escape from them. And yet what a subtle magic there was in them. They seemed to be able to give a plastic form to formless things, and to have a music of their own as sweet of that as of viol or lute. Mere words! Was there anything so real as words?”  - Oscar Wilde 

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cb2bJNr3OhM   "Alone Again - Dokken 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WnMfG_GbvjY   "Alone Again" Live - Dokken

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o2gH1ykMQRs  "Alone Again" Live at Kosei Nenkin Hall, Tokyo,  Japan 1995

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Backing out of her driveway, the last few notes from Billy Duffy"s guitar receded into the speakers as The Cult's, "Big Neon Glitter" came to a quick end. A few seconds of hiss from the tape deck... Then, that sinister riff and high-pitched lead pushed back out of those same speakers as their title track, "Love" mocked me... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qcv-Ah2q3ag     Love - The Cult 

 "On Monday morning you can't wake up Still dreaming of what could've been, Something good has gone and left you, It's another tear, one more denial." - Screaming Trees What does one say? I mean, "Sorry" just doesn't cut it in a situation like this.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JMNfTrLG380    Sworn and Broken - Screaming Trees 

 ***Additional Songs***

 I had a roommate. One day he was playing this CD, and I kid you not, immediately after I heard this song, without saying a word,  I literally left, went straight to the store... and bought a copy... It spoke so strongly to me, I just had to have it. This song definitely captures the way I was feeling that day.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4IZ077a4ATk     Ode to a Life - Mary's Danish  

In the 90's I saw this video on MTV. I just loved the "vibe" and the "feel" of it! Now, from time to time it comes up while I'm "shuffling." Recently, while putting notes together for this "episode," I went back to watch the video, and seeing it again with the knowledge of him passing earlier this year, I got chills.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PE5f561Y1x4     Nearly Lost You - Screaming Trees \

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9aQhpcEjj5g       Nearly Lost You (Acoustic) Screaming Trees

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Innocente; Italian, I believe, for innocent:

When talking about living one’s truth and living one’s life, I believe that as human I should be given the absolute freedom to live that truth the way I want to, and that’s exactly what I did during this time in my life. However, it took me a long time and a lot of suffering to realize that freedom to "perform action" does not mean freedom from the consequences of that action. Speaking for only myself, I personally believe that in all things there is a right way to do something, and a wrong way. A right way to “perform” Carpe Diem… and a wrong way. I was performing Carpe Diem the wrong way.

"I just said, 'Up yours, baby!'"     

 "Watch your mouth, man."

      "I can say any damn thing I want! 

These two separate quotes were taken from the song, "Electric Head, Pt.2 (The Ecstasy) White Zombie Astro Creep: 2000 Songs of Love, Destruction, and Other Synthetic Delusions of the Electric Head.

"Time is envious and running away, now let's live it up while we may." - Dee Snyder Tomorrow's No Concern

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They say that love is likened to a drug... but what happens when drugs are likened to love? The lines can get blurry... and so can the "lines." 

Just because we avoid disaster or don't get caught doesn't mean we should continue, or even double-down on the behavior...  I should've stopped... period. When you're young, you think nothing can happen to you, I was no different. I wanted to experience... everything... weather it was good for me or not.  In this video I talk about seeing the warnings... but blatantly ignoring them.

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NOTHING! That's what I know.

Yeah, I may have been listening to the music, going to concerts, thinking that I knew something. I didn't know, WHAT I DIDN'T KNOW.

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In this video I talk about one of the few trips I took to California with "California Kid," and how teenage recklessness and curiosity led to more and more danger. These situations CAN be a teacher, but they can also teach us things about ourselves that we didn't want to know. As the title of this song is "You're Gonna Get Yours," I was eventually going to get what was coming to me... the only question was when?

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