No Lions Here

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  • 99. Shame, Guilt & Healing: The Hidden Battles of Sex Addiction

    In this episode, I open up about my journey through recovery from sex addiction—what it’s really like to hit a milestone and still wrestle with shame, guilt, and emotional weight. I talk honestly about the struggles of staying grounded during vacations, the power of authentic connection, and how different sex addiction recovery can feel compared to other paths.This conversation is a personal one. I dive into what it means to show up as my true self, how I’m navigating big feelings, and why being present with the people I love has become more important than ever. I also share some thoughts on career, personal growth, and the ongoing work of healing.If you’ve ever felt like you’re alone in your recovery or unsure how to talk about it, this one's for you. Let's get real—no shame, no hiding.


    Keep coming back. It works if you work it, and you are worth it!


    If you are anyone you know is struggling with sex or porn addiction go visit beginagaininstitute.com for more information or call 720-776-9076


    If there are any topics that you would like to hear me discuss, connect, or interesting in becoming a client please reach out to [email protected].

    51 min
  • 98. Fighting Shame, Facing Urges: My Sobriety Story

    In this episode, I open up about what it’s been like hitting one year of sobriety from sex addiction. It’s a milestone I’m proud of—but if I’m being real, it’s also been messy, uncomfortable, and full of self-doubt. I talk about how shame still creeps in, how hard it can be to manage urges and thoughts, and how much work it takes to keep showing up for myself and others.I share how dating has played a role in my healing, the tools I rely on to stay grounded, and why facing my fears and taking action—even when I don’t feel ready—has been a game-changer. I also get into the pressure of expectations, the weight of financial insecurity, and how I’ve been trying to find gratitude in the chaos.Service work and helping others in recovery have kept me going when I wanted to shut down, and I hope that by being vulnerable here, someone else feels a little less alone. Thanks for walking this journey with me.Keep coming back. It works if you work it, and you are worth it!If you are anyone you know is struggling with sex or porn addiction go visit beginagaininstitute.com for more information or call 720-776-9076If there are any topics that you would like to hear me discuss, connect, or interesting in becoming a client please reach out to [email protected].

    49 min
  • 97. The Science of Addiction and the Power of Recovery with Jakob

    In this episode, I sit down with my friend and fellow recovery advocate Jakob Miller for a deep dive into the complexities of addiction. We explore the science behind it, break down the disease model, and talk about why it’s so important to recognize symptoms early and develop real coping strategies. Jakob brings powerful insight into the role trauma plays in addiction and how the condition progresses over time if left unaddressed. We also get into the importance of emotional health, community support, and learning to actually feel your feelings instead of running from them. This one’s raw, honest, and full of insight for anyone navigating recovery—or supporting someone who is.

    Keep coming back. It works if you work it, and you are worth it!

    If you are anyone you know is struggling with sex or porn addiction go visit beginagaininstitute.com for more information or call 720-776-9076

    If there are any topics that you would like to hear me discuss, connect, or interesting in becoming a client please reach out to [email protected].

    1 hr 5 min
  • 96. Facing Fear: The Quiet Work of Recovery with Ricky

    In this episode of No Lions Here, I sit down with my friend Ricky to dive deep into something that touches every part of the recovery journey—fear.We talk about how fear shows up in our lives, how it holds us back, and what it takes to move through it. From the fear of failure and rejection to the fear of intimacy and change, we explore how these hidden emotions shape our behavior and mindset in recovery.This conversation is raw and real. Ricky and I open up about the power of trust, the role of spirituality, and why sharing our fears with others is essential for healing. I reflect on the struggle of balancing expectations, navigating relationships in sobriety, and learning how to voice my needs without guilt or shame.We also touch on:The importance of quiet moments and reflectionHow faith and patience help us face the unknownThe challenge of making amends and showing up emotionallyThe value of self-worth, emotional intimacy, and self-careWhat it really means to take responsibility and grow with graceAt the heart of it all, this episode is about learning to sit with uncomfortable feelings, practicing humility, and building a life grounded in connection, courage, and purpose.If you’re in recovery—or just trying to better understand yourself—this one's for you.🙏 Thanks for being here.🎧 Don't forget to like, subscribe, and share if this resonates.🦁 No Lions Here is about healing through honesty.Keep coming back. It works if you work it, and you are worth it!If you are anyone you know is struggling with sex or porn addiction go visit beginagaininstitute.com for more information or call 720-776-9076If there are any topics that you would like to hear me discuss, connect, or interesting in becoming a client please reach out to [email protected].

    2 hr 20 min
  • 95. From Rock Bottom to Recovery Leader with Jakob Miller

    In this episode, I sit down with Jakob to talk about recovery, purpose, and what it really takes to build something that helps people heal.Jakob shares his journey from working as a behavioral health tech to becoming the Executive Director of the Illinois Recovery Center. He opens up about the challenges of opening a treatment facility, the pressure of leadership, and the power of having a team rooted in recovery.We talk about peer support, the emotional weight of relapse, and the difference between just “getting clean” and truly living in recovery. Jakob brings honesty, humility, and a ton of insight from his years in the addiction treatment field.I also share parts of my own story—going from a cook to a recovery support technician—and why I believe long-term recovery depends on three core things: honesty, fellowship, and abstinence.If you’ve ever been curious about what it takes to stay clean, help others do the same, or build a recovery community from the ground up, this conversation is for you.

    Keep coming back. It works if you work it, and you are worth it!

    If you are anyone you know is struggling with sex or porn addiction go visit beginagaininstitute.com for more information or call 720-776-9076


    If there are any topics that you would like to hear me discuss, connect, or interesting in becoming a client please reach out to [email protected].

    58 min
  • 94. Moving In, Messy Feelings & Making It Work

    In this episode, I get real about where I’m at in my recovery journey. I share some big life updates—like launching my new coaching services and navigating the ups and downs of moving in with my girlfriend. Spoiler: introducing our dogs to each other was way more emotional than I expected.I open up about the anxiety, guilt, and fear that come with change, and how I’m learning (still learning!) to let go of control and lean into uncertainty. I talk about bonding with my partner and her daughter, the importance of co-regulation and communication in relationships, and what it really means to show up for the people I love.This one’s all about growth, self-worth, and taking risks—even when it’s scary. I'm beyond grateful for where I’m at today and for the community that keeps showing up for me. Thanks for being part of the journey.Keep coming back. It works if you work it, and you are worth it!

    If you are anyone you know is struggling with sex or porn addiction go visit beginagaininstitute.com for more information or call 720-776-9076.

    If there are any topics that you would like to hear me discuss, connect, or interesting in becoming a client please reach out to [email protected].

    47 min
  • 93. Living Intentionally: Coaching, Courage & Recovery with Traci

    What does it really take to heal from addiction and step into your purpose? In this powerful episode, Alex sits down with Traci Matheu-Trost, a passionate life coach and advocate for recovery, to unpack the real work of healing—emotionally, spiritually, and practically.Together, they dive into:🌱 The connection between addiction and unresolved trauma🧠 How championing your inner child leads to lasting change💬 Why honest communication and vulnerability are non-negotiable in the healing process🔥 The daily habits that foster intentional living and long-term recovery🛠️ Practical tools to shift your mindset, care for yourself, and avoid burnout—especially for those in helping professionsTraci also shares her unique perspective from working with families of addicts and reminds us that sobriety is not just possible—it's a miracle worth fighting for.Whether you're in recovery, supporting someone who is, or just seeking a more intentional life, this conversation will leave you feeling seen, inspired, and empowered.Keep coming back. It works if you work it and you are worth it!If you are interesting in learning more about what Traci offers she can me reached at [email protected].

    If you are anyone you know is struggling with sex or porn addiction go visit beginagaininstitute.com for more information or call 720-776-9076

    1 hr 6 min
  • 92. The 4 Pillars of Recovery: How I Rebuilt My Life

    In this episode, I open up about my journey of recovery from sex addiction, diving into the challenges of financial insecurity and how they’ve been intertwined with my addiction. I break down the four pillars that have been essential in my recovery—willingness, connection, honesty, and spirituality—and share real, personal experiences of what it means to invest in relationships, self-care, and a healthier mindset. I also talk about navigating urges, rewriting the narratives we tell ourselves, and the power of community support. If you're on your own recovery journey or just looking for hope, this episode is for you. Let’s talk about what it really means to invest in yourself and your healing.


    Keep coming back. It works if you work it, and you are worth it!If you are anyone you know is struggling with sex or porn addiction go visit beginagaininstitute.com for more information or call 720-776-9076As always if there are any topics that you would like to hear me discuss please reach out [email protected]

    56 min
  • 91. Reflections on Recovery: Growth, Love, and Lessons from 2024

    In this episode, I take a deep dive into my recovery journey and everything 2024 has thrown my way—the challenges, the growth, and the lessons that reshaped me. I open up about the struggles of dating while in recovery, the emotional work that goes into building healthy relationships, and why mental health remains a top priority.I also reflect on a major milestone: earning my certification as a Peer Recovery Specialist. From stepping into the recovery industry to finding purpose in my career, I share the ups and downs of working in a treatment center, the importance of vulnerability and accountability, and the personal breakthroughs that continue to shape me.This episode is all about growth—setting goals, pushing through the tough moments, and embracing what’s next, including future education and the impact I hope to make. If you’re on a recovery journey or just navigating life’s challenges, I think you’ll relate to this one.Keep coming back. It works if you work it, and you are worth it!

    If you are anyone you know is struggling with sex or porn addiction go visit beginagaininstitute.com for more information or call 720-776-9076

    As always if there are any topics that you would like to hear me discuss please reach out [email protected]

    1 hr 3 min

About No Lions Here

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My name is Big Panda and I’m a recovering sex and cocaine addict.