No Love in War: a story of Christian nationalism

"This was a time when a lot of we girls were reading Christian historical romance novels, stories of young and virginal Puritan women, pioneers or Victorians, all whose beauty and unparalleled modesty and chastity eventually shamed and tamed some rogue of a man, all set against the golden backdrop of a more noble era when men and women, masters and slaves, all knew their place." This episode contains the final chapter in Section 3 of No Love in War.

"Our pastor, on the other hand, a true believer, was in it to win it. In 1993, speaking at the Biblical Worldview and Christian Education Conference, he disparaged democracy as “mob rule,” lauded the ideal dictatorship of a Christian state and declared religious pluralism a fantasy." This episode contains Chapter 24 of No Love in War.

"“She wouldn’t have done it that way if she really wanted to die.” I understood every ounce of her meaning, I watched as it bared its fangs, it bit me, it sank into my flesh, it drained me of all my blood." This episode contains Chapter 23 of No Love in War.

"My church was part of a network of churches across the country that held up men like Larry McDonald, like Rousas Rushdoony, like Greg Bahnsen, as demigods in the war to reinstate God’s law in the United States." This episode contains Chapter 22 of No Love in War.

"And then there is Rousas’s 1984 journal entry which refers to Arda’s “extensive fornication after the divorce,” a collection of words which I’ve lost no small amount of sleep over, reflecting on all the meaning they carry, all this focus on the physical, on women’s bodies and what we do with them, the constant objects of the male gaze." This episode contains Chapter 21 of No Love in War.

"In December, 1995, Reconstructionist Greg Bahnsen died at the age of 47, five years after his divorce was finalized, his wife having left him for the church youth minister." This episode contains Chapter 20 of No Love in War.

"Almost everything I know about the place of my birth I’ve found online, though I strongly suspect my brother and I were separated from our parents not long after being born." This episode, the first in Section 3, contains Chapter 19 of No Love in War.

"Only now, some final line had been crossed, some internal alarm set off, some awareness achieved that this is not just what people do." This episode contains Chapter 18, the final Chapter in Section 2 of No Love in War.

"This is the slavemaster's gospel." This episode contains Chapter 17 of No Love in War.

"Violence shaded all my church-school days, each moment in between was merely time spent in a holding pen." This episode contains Chapter 16 of No Love in War.