Today we talk about how a lack of personal safety as little boys taught us how to be drunk, angry, impotent men. It’s about bullying and Bukowski and desperation and an inability to show love for ourselves and accept love from others. Usual shit. 

Show notes:

John's book Theatre Kids: A True Tale of Off-Off Broadway.

Swamp Dogg's record.

In this episode:

01:24 - Keep on trying

06:06 - Curtains up, Beard ASMR, Daily Carry Bros

08:57 - Military & Theatre

15:20 - Meeting via Maxim, the Black Table

21:20 - Bonding over 'party fouls'

23:16 - The Email and the party

26:21 - The language of toxic masculinity

30:19 - Calling from the wreckage, John's advice to A.J.

36:46 - The little old lady

40:26 - Confronting fear in early sobriety

47:51 - Jane Fonda's Toxic Masculinity Observation

51:12 - Shakespeare on Masculinity, Back to Buk'

55:48 - Kid Stardust on the Porter House

1:00:22 - Trying to feel safe and loved

1:03:33 - Live from the boxing gym, losing fights, mano a wall

1:07:14 - Anger as an indicator

1:09:43 - Revenge fantasies

1:11:56 - How to become a villain

1:18:56 - Schoolyard: 1 Bukoski: 0, Swamp does CCR