#004 The Fear - "When a mother conceives her child she also conceives The Fear". How loss can shape your life and cause you to be STUCK in your grief. This feels so BIG because it is and the pain of pregnancy loss is very real. The Fear presents when we realise that there is so much in life that is not in our control. This loss brings The Fear front and centre and not knowing how to deal with the darkness that surrounds this pain causes the darkness to visit other areas of our lives. 

Being a Mama is hard! Being a Mama with empty arms and a broken heart is enough to crush even the strongest person. This loss is still kept in the darkness and bringing it out into the light takes strength at a time when the world feels against us.

But this Fear can strengthen us and move us forward when we are able to reframe it. When we are able to see the gift rather than the burden of this. There is no silver lining in miscarriage, there are no lessons to learn from this actual loss. But we can learn about ourselves in this time and delve into our emotions and how they present. They give us amazing insight into areas where we may need to work on and through, areas that we have masked so carefully in the past but that we can not any longer. 

 Welcome to episode four The Fear. Come with me as I explore The Fear and the journey of reframing our pain.

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#003 Sitting with your feelings- Sitting still while your world is crashing is hard. It is painful and overwhelming but so so necessary to heal. We are taught to keep going, to SOLDIER ON. But this pain is unlike most pains. Your grief is yours and it is real. You are grieving for not just your loss on that day but the loss of all the days that you will never have. 

We can not live in a world with trigger warnings and being constantly on edge is exhausting. Sitting still and surrendering to the emotions even the ones you thought you had dealt with is confronting but trauma takes work to heal. Changing your thinking to see that this time is necessary because being stuck here, carrying this load forever, is unsustainable.

In learning to sit with these feelings we honour them and allow them to pass without repressing them or shutting them down. We can not avoid this loss for it is everywhere. It is part of us and although they are not here with us they still live on inside of us. In sitting with these feelings other traumas present, honouring them as well helps you to be in the world with those that so desperately need you. 

Miscarriage is a pain like no other because you lose part of yourself, you lose an innocent to the darkness. You see yourself in true light and that can be scary. This episode is raw and hard to do emotionally. Welcome to episode three Sitting with your feelings. Come with me as I navigate the journey of stillness and surrender.

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#002 Broken- The feeling of broken is a feeling that is so hard to explain. It creates a divide between you and others making it harder to connect. In this episode, we discuss the feeling of broken and finding a way to live after an unthinkable loss. For how do we continue when at the very core we feel broken? How do continue to fill from a broken cup.

There is something very fundamentally wrong with a society that can put people into space but can not explain WHY a mother loses her child and if that loss happens repeatedly what is to be concluded from that. The word keep spinning even as you are trying to catch your breath and that can make the pain of losing a much wanted baby unbearable.

Trauma has its way of unravelling you even when you are at your best and when you are barely holding on the weight of this loss can leave you broken. We instinctively move inwards away from the pain as that is what we have been taught but how do you move inwards when your pain comes from inside? How do you reconcile that you created life but death is what you are left with now. 

Come with me as I bare my pain that still lives with me, even now. As we explore Broken through the eyes of this still Broken Mama living between the Two words of life and pain. Welcome to episode two and I hope that find some healing here. There can be healing even when you are Broken.

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#001 Navigating Grief and Trauma- The trauma you feel after pregnancy loss can seem endless and it can uncover past trauma that you thought had been dealt with. In this episode, we discuss navigating the endless journey of grief and loss. Pregnancy Loss like all loss takes time to heal from but in a world that never stops, it is hard to process it fully. It is often made more difficult as you are grieving this loss alone. 

As a Loss Mama, you navigate each day unsure of what triggers you will encounter. This magnifies your pain when there is already so much pain in your life. Navigating grief is uncomfortable and it can be isolating. I felt unable to describe all the feelings that I felt and I was sure that if I started I may never stop.

Talking about grief and loss honestly despite the pain is hard. Shining a light on the journey is difficult but so worthwhile. If these words encourage one mama in the midst of her grief that there is light then speaking these words despite the pain will be worth it. 

So come with me as we Navigate this Journey of Grief and Loss through the eyes of One Mama living between the Two Worlds of grief and life. Welcome to episode one and I hope that you find some words that bring comfort to you on this journey. 

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A Trailer to give a preview to what One Mama between Two Worlds is all about. I am here to navigate the grief and pain of pregnancy loss with you. I feel your pain and I can understand part of it but your loss is yours and the way you experience it is unique to you. I understand not feeling safe anywhere because of triggers and memories of all that couldn't be and I just want to say I AM SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS! I am sorry that you are experiencing this and I truly wish that NO woman ever had to feel this soul-destroying pain. If you take one thing from this One Mama it is that you did not deserve this and it is not your fault. Please be kind on yourself and love yourself the way you would your most beloved friend. 

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Our Introductory episode UNSPEAKABLE is available here

https://www.buzzsprout.com/1151057/4485860-unspeakable-one-mama-between-two-worlds.mp3?blob_id=17628029&download=true

#000 Unspeakable - Darkness before the light. Pregnancy loss is a loss like no other, it is a loss for the now but it is also the loss of the forever. In this episode, we dive into the back story of why One Mama between Two Worlds came to light. It is painful talking about miscarriage even when there is so much happiness in your life. My pain forced me to push that energy into something and I had a choice to CREATE OR DESTROY, I chose to create.

Talking about loss and life honestly and openly is the only way we can bring it out of the shadows. Because all pain and trauma comes out whether we want it to or not. Being a Loss Mama was never in my plan and navigating this journey has brought me to my knees, the pain of this loss was so big and for me was so very dark. 

So come with me as we explore UNSPEAKABLE our introductory episode on One Mama between Two Worlds. We would love you to hear from you and you can contact us 

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