Rainbow Baby

We’ve got big news on our rainbow baby journey…we’re starting IVF (In Vitro Fertilization)! And for the first time, my husband Hunter is on the podcast!

We talk about our our feelings and expectations with starting IVF (In Vitro Fertilization), our extensive test results and diagnosis, what the IVF process will look like for us, and we go in-depth about how grief and recurrent pregnancy loss has effected our relationship.

We also play a question game created by Hunter’s favorite musician, Brian Eno, which resulted in some juicy conversation.

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Photographer Devin Travieso is a husband and father of two daughters, including a rainbow baby.

In this episode Devin speaks openly and honestly about what it was like to go through two back to back miscarriages with his wife, Johanna, and the hardships of repeat pregnancy loss. He also goes into detail about grief and pregnancy after loss from a father’s perspective and offers insight and guidance for other grieving fathers, who are unfortunately often overlooked. Devin emphasizes the importance of seeking connection during times of struggle and darkness and chooses to “love with both feet in.”

Devin has shared about his family’s losses on Instagram and also posts beautiful photos of his family along with the images he shoots professionally. I’m so grateful to be able to share his story with you and I know his perspective as a loss dad will provide important insight for other fathers and mothers alike.

See Devin’s work at photographywayfarer.com

To connect with me visit taylorashleybates.com and find me on Instagram @taylorashleybates

And please share this podcast with anyone you know who is walking through life after pregnancy loss whether they are trying to conceive, currently pregnant, or parenting after loss.

The latest update on our journey trying to conceive including our first visit to a fertility clinic after multiple chemical pregnancies, a miscarriage, and a stillbirth.

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Artist Sarah Fox has made poignantly beautiful work during and after her three miscarriages and continues to make art about her adopted rainbow baby, William.

This episode tells the story of Sarah’s three miscarriages, including her baby Finn, who she lost at the end of her first trimester of pregnancy. She talks about the difficulty of handling depression and anxiety while being off prescription medications during pregnancy after loss as well as the testing she went through to try to find the cause of her miscarriages. Sarah shares how she and her husband finally made the decision to adopt their son, William, through a private adoption and what that process was like.

As a heads up, Sarah does share physical details of her miscarriage in this episode. I think it’s so important to talk about considering that one in four pregnancies ends in loss and so many women walk through that experience alone and in the dark about what to expect.

Sarah speaks candidly and is such a joy to talk with. She is able to find beauty in her pain and darkness and is such a bright person. I know her story will have an impact.

See Sarah’s work at sarahfoxart.com

To connect with me visit taylorashleybates.com and find me on Instagram @taylorashleybates

And please share this podcast with anyone you know who is walking through life after pregnancy loss whether they are trying to conceive, currently pregnant, or parenting after loss.

This episode tells the story of my miscarriage that happened 11 months after the stillbirth of my son Ellis.

I talk about my experience of pregnancy after loss and the emotions it brought up for me and I also go into detail about what my doctors visits were like, my unexpected visit to the emergency room, what it was like to miscarry with the aide of prescription medication, and my surprising reactions in the weeks following.

If any of this might be triggering for you, feel free to skip this episode. My intention is not to cause you anxiety or heartache, but to offer encouragement to those of you out there with a similar experience and to help you feel less alone.

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In this episode I interview Amber Meegan, who founded the Shine On Run for pregnancy and Infant Loss in San Antonio, Texas. After losing her twin boys, Amber discovered that running gave her a sense of renewed strength and healing. This inspired her to create a remembrance run supporting other loss moms as well as their families and friends and also celebrating rainbow babies. Amber has three rainbow babies and talks about her story of loss, pregnancy after loss, and parenting after loss.

I hope my conversation with Amber is a light to you wherever you are on your journey. Amber’s had ten years to reflect on the loss of her twins and has a true gift for putting words to her experience of grief and healing. Her bright and grounded spirit is a balm to my own grief.

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Learn more about the Shine On Remembrance Run: For Pregnancy and Infant Loss

Connect with Amber on Instagram @shineonrun

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In this episode I tell the beginning of my story of trying to conceive after loss and how that journey has evolved. I talk about my frustrations and how trying to conceive makes me feel like I’m losing my mind sometimes. I also share the best piece of advice I’ve gotten for this challenging season of life.

I hope this episode is meaningful for you. If you’d like to connect with me, you can visit taylorashleybates.com and also find me on Instagram @taylorashleybates.

Please share this podcast with anyone you know who is walking through life after pregnancy loss—whether they are trying to conceive, currently pregnant, or parenting after loss.

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This episode tells the story of my first son Ellis’ stillbirth and why rainbows have become so special to us—the inspiration behind the Rainbow Baby Podcast.

I share my experience of stillbirth at 31 weeks, how we honored Ellis after his death, the darkness of grief and symbols of hope, and a two-minute guided meditation at the end of the episode.

Visit taylorashleybates.com for show notes and a full transcript of this episode. Find me on Instagram @taylorashleybates

A Rainbow Baby is defined as a baby born subsequent to a miscarriage, stillbirth, or the death of an infant from natural causes.

This podcast follows host, Taylor Bates, through her journey of becoming pregnant again after her son, Ellis, was stillborn in May 2018.

Also included are honest and hopeful conversations with others sharing their own Rainbow Baby stories including trying to conceive after loss, pregnancy, recurrent loss, adoption, and parenting after loss.

To learn more and connect with me, visit taylorashleybates.com

Find me on Instagram @taylorashleybates