Randomness Inside My Head episodes:

• May 23, 2022Closure

  And I realized that having a closure didn’t

  Always mean giving away forgiveness.

  ...more

  

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• May 23, 2022Yours, Always

  My heart almost burst

  For you, Darling, with such yearning

  No words could explain. At that

  Moment, at that very second,

  I came to realize how I was

  Accidentally, undoubtedly, and

  Crazily in love with you. My heart

  Was on my sleeve and throat,

  Given to you on a silver platter.

  ...more

  

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• May 23, 2022Excuse (2)

  Because regardless what kind of

  Person you were and what kind of

  Relationship we had, you were still

  My friend. You didn’t only lean on me,

  I did lean on you, too, and entrust

  You with a big portion of my life and

  My stories. With a hoarse voice I

  Would say to you on that graveyard,

  Where the soil had been hardened by

  The time I had spent procrastinating to

  Visit you: “How could you leave

  And break my heart like that?"

  ...more

  

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• May 20, 2022Excuse

  You know that people are like flowers,

  They bloom in a second and wither

  In the next, nothing is eternal. Even

  The strongest bond ever exists they

  Say, between a mother and her

  Children might be terminated by

  Death or illness or simply by the

  Clash of personalities. Nothing

  Lasts forever, the time changes

  According to weather and seasons.

  ...more

  

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• May 20, 2022Aku Ingin Terpejam Sampai Pagi Menjelang

  Biarkan aku terbaring lelah dengan

  Pikiran yang terhenti sementara, dan

  Mata yang terpejam rapat, meskipun

  Aku tahu dalam beberapa menit lagi

  Ayam jantan di dunia paralel dimana

  Tetangga-tetanggaku adalah para

  Peternak sederhana yang ramah dan

  Perhatian, bukan mereka yang berdiam

  Di dalam rumah besar gedongan yang

  Hanya keluar karena rasa penasaran:

  “Ibu, gimana ceritanya bisa kena Covid?”,

  Akan berkokok nyaring, beradu suara

  Dengan ayam jantan lain seakan-akan

  Mereka sedang berkompetisi dalam

  Kejuaraan untuk grup-grup vokal.

  ...more

  

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• May 20, 2022Best Way

  To walk

  Together when asked, to stop

  Walking and sit together when

  The journey gets too tiring. To

  Ask how the other person’s

  Been doing, expecting no reply,

  Expecting not the same degree

  Of kindness, just give and give

  Like the river gives away itself

  To become streams which will

  Affect everybody’s lives.

  ...more

  

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• May 19, 2022I Will Look For My Own God

  But money knows allegiance,

  And poverty has no part in it.

  On that stage rises a man who

  Speaks about faith and love,

  About being compassionate

  Towards mankind. On that stage

  The same man calculates

  The thousands, millions, and

  Billions of money to put rocks

  And bricks together, erecting poles,

  And sticking layers of concrete,

  For the sake of his god.

  ...more

  

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• May 19, 2022Aku Akan Mencari Tuhanku Sendiri

  Tiada faedah dari enam puluh

  Enam buku yang kaubaca, batinku,

  Jika kau tak mengamalkan yang

  Kau gadang-gadang sebagai iman

  Dan kasih itu. Omong kosong besar

  Semua pengakuanmu sebagai kaum

  Terpilih, kaum kesayangan tuhanmu.

  Ya, hanya tuhanmu yang memperhatikan

  Hanya kaummu, padahal kau mengaku

  Sebagai pembawa berita baik bagi

  Dunia, tak peduli asal suku bangsa,

  Warna kulit dan mata.

  ...more

  

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• May 19, 2022Fake

  Guess what, we can see

  Beneath your rakish stand and vulgar

  Insistence on how intelligent and

  Worthy of praise you think you

  Are, while you’re not. We can

  See the gaps in your understanding,

  The inability to absorb and fathom

  And get to the bottom of issues

  And problems and just… things.

  ...more

  

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• May 16, 2022What A Year of Podcasting Means

  A short note for a year of journey from a grateful heart.

  ...more

  

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