Where's all the food?? Five for FUEL and thinking about our bodies' needs can be such a deep topic that leads us into much bigger personal work. Aaaaaand sometimes this deeper dive can also be a way to avoid talking about our actual behavior around food. This week we are spending some time looking more directly at the eating part of this work.

Sometimes figuring out what and when to eat does NOT feel intuitive- how do we deal with this? And what about the powerful urge to THROW AWAY THE SWEETS??

The familiar "friend" of depletion and deprivation, numbing out, the beauty of hitting rock bottom, and drinking a gallon of water a day (and feeling MORE thirsty!?)

Needing to sometimes override tuning in about the deeper stuff, brains that feel like New York City traffic, the expectation that we need to feel great every day to be good educators, and a LOT of excitement about sprouts.

The 'blinders' of basic regulation that get in the way of self care, the earth shaking power of PTSD and pain, waiting for the next article to define our collective pandemic experience, and — is Courtney building a habit?

The tricky 'rewards' we feel when we deprive ourselves, pain as a whispering (and then screaming) messenger, and— what if you reject diet culture's pressure to reinvent yourself, but also don't want a New Year with an entirely Old You?

Thinking about true nourishment, living on fumes, searching for embodiment, and bravely peering into the crater of loss and grief.

New Year, same us. Sickness and non-negotiable rest, non-diet goals that still manage to creep into diet culture, the magic of habit evidence, and signing up for triathlons... like NBD.

Being re-introduced to your brain after 8 hours of sleep, trying to stay excited about supporting our bodies outside of diet culture's values, trouble accepting early 'bedtime windows' because we are not farmers.

Facing information about our bodies even when we're scared of it, the preciousness of health, appreciating your own brain, and forgetting to wear underwear to doctor's appointments.