Really Unsure

Happy episode 20! To celebrate this mini moment I have updated my cover art & started an Instagram page — @reallyunsure.thepod — you can now interact with me there, see visual aids from the pod, etc etc. Anyway, todays episode is about organizing your life! I walk through a mind map exercise that I like to do when I’m feeling really unsure or lost with myself to figure out what I want in the next chapter of my life or just to check in and see what’s important to me at this phase of life. I added a visual aid to support this episode on IG, so check that out if you’re a visual learner :)

I really dislike when people reduce you to your job, you are not your job, your job is a channel of income. On this episode I share a story of how I failed at practicing this when my dentist was telling me to follow my dreams. Yes this episode is all over the place. Yes this is how my brain functions 24/7.

Fair warning… this is an emotional episode for me. I took a few weeks off recording because I haven’t been in the headspace nor have I had the energy to record an episode. But today I thought I’d try recording (because it usually GIVES me energy and is something I like doing) and I ended up with a LOT of emotion. I didn’t want to listen back to it because of exactly that, so I hope it sounds ok haha. But I dig into why the fact that just because a seemingly “good” life might be goals for someone else, it might not be what you want for YOUR life. And that’s ok. I think there’s so much judgement out there like “you have such a good life you should be grateful.” And I think just because someone wants to change their life doesn’t mean they’re not grateful, they’re probably scared sh!fleas to make the change.. but something feels off and I think it’s brave to honor a change that your soul is screaming for. It’s just so hard to sometimes actually take action on.

In this episode I not only test out: a mic, fancy intros, and also try out recording it visually for YouTube, but I also chat on why people say “enjoy the process.” What does that mean and what could that mean for you? Do you need to rethink your side hustle? Why are you striving for the things your striving for and what’s it driven by? By passion? By $? By opportunity? Or truly by passion? As always it’s v raw. Plus a little bonus nugget if you stay until the end!

A chat on getting stuck in burnout or unwanted routines, living to work versus working to live, are you even living the lifestyle you want & have you ever asked yourself what kind of lifestyle DO I want?? + more.

I recorded this in my car after a truly magical moment of affirmation, visualization, guidance, and clarity. I wanted to share the little steps I took to get there in case it helps anyone else get a clear message as well.

Thoughts on the following note from my journal: Surround yourself with influences/people who inspire you and who you want to aspire to be similar to…Who share a lifestyle similar to what you want your life to be like. We grow up surrounded not necessarily by what we want for ourselves, so we need to take it upon ourselves to find those touch points of inspiration and example for ourselves. If we are around people who we can see have made it for themselves, we’re more likely to make it for ourselves. Easier to do once you’ve seen it IRL instead of only in imagination.

This was not my best episode, but I’m publishing anyway because what a metaphor for life — you can’t win em all. I chat/ramble about a lot here including the following: like attracts like/law of attraction, loneliness when you’re vulnerable or starting something new, creating more of what you want more of, not knowing what I’m doing or saying or or or or…

Chatting about those control experiments people are doing where they have two jars of rice (or plants, etc) and one jar takes in negative words/stress and the other jar takes in positive affirmations and joy… the results of the jars and how it compares to our lives.

Listen to me change my own mind on this topic. Coming in strong with years of hating on the expression “how you do one thing is how you do everything” and by spending 14 min really thinking about it, giving examples and talking it through, I change my own mind. With that, this episode kinda turned into a metaphor for a deeper meaning — let’s listen to each other more, be open to conversation, be open to changing your mind or accepting that there might be more than one “right way” of doing life… let’s be patient and kind with each other and not get caught up in being right.