“The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.”— Psalms 34:18 (NIV)
Healing is messy — but God is close to the mess.
That’s not just a line I wrote for this devotional; it’s something I’ve lived.
There were seasons in my life where I believed my relationship with God depended on perfection — that my prayers had to be polished, my Bible worn with use, and my emotions neatly contained. I thought faith required performance. But what I’ve learned, especially in my wilderness seasons, is that God doesn’t meet us in our performance.He meets us in our pain.
🕊 When the Mess Met Mercy
There were moments when I was sure I’d disappointed God — when I was lost in grief, shame, and cycles I couldn’t seem to break. But those were the moments He sought me out most clearly.
When I felt broken, He sat with me.When I isolated myself, He sent people who saw me.When I thought I’d ruined it all, He whispered, “You’re still mine.”
“I saw God sit down with me. I saw Him call me to greater heights… remind me of how much He loves me and how much all of this is working in my favor.” transcript_2025-10-23T14_08_15.…
That’s what healing looked like for me — not a straight path or clean slate, but a slow, sacred reconstruction.
💔 Healing Isn’t Pretty
We love to glamorize healing. We post about it. We talk about “soft seasons” and “boundaries.” But the real healing — the deep, God-ordained kind — isn’t cute. It’s not linear. It’s tears on the bathroom floor. It’s losing friends. It’s confronting truths about yourself you once avoided.
And yet, it’s in that chaos that God draws closest.
He doesn’t flinch at the mess. He sits in it with you — holding your heart steady while He rebuilds what broke.
“Your mess is the space in which God will seek you.” transcript_2025-10-23T14_08_15.…
That truth saved me.
Because it means I don’t have to earn God’s proximity — I just have to be honest enough to stay where I am.
🌱 Healing Means Asking New Questions
For years, I wrestled with questions like:“Was I not enough?”“Why didn’t they choose me?”“Why didn’t they change?”
But the more I grew, the more my questions changed.
Now, I ask:“What hurt them?”“How can I forgive them?”“How can I be part of their healing?”
That shift didn’t come from therapy or self-help books — it came from sitting with God in silence long enough to realize that healing isn’t about getting answers. It’s about being made whole.
🕯 Trusting God’s Distance
One of the most healing revelations I’ve ever had was this:When God feels far away, it’s often because He trusts me.
Like a parent removing the training wheels, He knows I’m ready. He’s not punishing me with silence — He’s preparing me for strength.
“There are so many points in my life where I thought God had abandoned me. And I am realizing those are the moments that God trusted me so much with what He had called me to.” transcript_2025-10-23T14_08_15.…
That perspective shift healed the ache of waiting. It helped me see that even when God steps back, He never steps out.
💭 Reflection: Write a Prayer for the Parts That Still Hurt
In this episode, I challenged listeners to write a prayer for the parts of themselves that still hurt.Here’s mine:
“God, I thank You that I am loved. That I am capable of loving even in my brokenness.I thank You for trusting me enough to let me walk through healing without needing to be perfect.I thank You that my brokenness is not a barrier but a bridge — a way for others to see Your grace.”
🌤 Final Thought
Healing the wounds — especially the ones no one sees — requires courage. But it’s not a solo process. God doesn’t wait for you to come clean before He comes close.
He meets you right there — in the questions, in the quiet, in the chaos.
So, take a deep breath.You don’t have to have it all together.You just have to be willing to be seen.
“The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.”
He’s near, friend — always near.
🎧 Listen: Rooted & Rising: Healing the Wounds (Day 3)Scripture: Psalm 34:18Prompt: Write a prayer for the parts of you that still hurt.Follow: @iamnoahlove | #RootedAndRising #FaithAndFocus #HealingJourney
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