NO - this life I am living was kind of an inspired ah-ha about 2 or 3 years ago. I realized kind of all at once, that the life I was pushing to create was no longer feeling good. I no longer felt the pull toward being a movie or Broadway star. I wanted something totally different and foreign to me.

There’s a difference because this is true to me. The dream I tried to force to create was the one that I wanted when I was 17, and I just kept clinging to and pushing it until I turned 30. I started working with you a few years before this epiphany, and I think it’s through the work I did with you in ELU that taught me how to open up to what I truly, deeply, and honestly wanted.

I learned how to become the person who was worthy of getting everything she ever wanted, and by learning that worthiness, I was open and available for the truth to come in. The truth is, “You want something else.”

It was by getting general, not more specific, that opened me up to the ah-ha. By owning that what I REALLY wanted was a loving, fun, abundant life and letting go of the specifics of what I thought SHOULD make that up, my brain was available to accept the new life I am living now. How fun to think I spent the first 2.5 years with you opening up to more, and it only took another 2.5 years to get everything I decided I wanted.

Micromanaging my manifesting. AKA Not trusting and working in the “How”

Using money to numb, instead of feeling my feelings

Not applying my manifesting techniques to my everyday life

Celebrate everything you can

What you focus on, you get more of. Well, celebration is like a BIG focus. So find more stuff to celebrate! Especially when you see or hear about someone else getting what you want or 

Awareness is key to change

By bringing your awareness to your everyday thoughts, actions, and words, you automatically bring control and power to them. You can notice a thought or a story and stop it immediately or decide after that you are writing a new story.

Feel your feelings

Learn how to feel your feelings without words and judgment. Setting a scheduled time to feel them has been so helpful for me. Back when I was leaving a nanny job, I knew I’d need lots of space to feel my feelings, so I had a standing daily appointment with myself to feel my feelings after work.

How powerful I truly am

Seeing things magically appear for me when I want or need them

I have more money now unemployed than I did when I first started with you, and I had over 3 jobs.