SELFWIFE

Will I ever not get sick to my stomach about marketing my work? Other topics discussed: Anxiety! Alcohol! Contrast! Leaving my phone outside overnight and having deep realizations! Just listen to the episode. -

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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show

artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music

topics discussed:

getting an agent in LA

auditioning

the commercial i booked

being called a blank canvas

BEING a blank canvas

unlearning being a blank canvas

allowing new (old) inspiration in

thoughts on

tori amos

stop making sense

tom waits

catching up with the world -

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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show

artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music

Topics Discussed:

Making my first Happy List at age 31

New therapist

Creating small avenues to joy

Being a reformed pick me

The impact of your primary caretakers putting your needs last

What we can learn from narcissists

Changing my phone number two days before my birthday

Eating the earth

My changing tastebuds

Not dieting, but teaching myself about food

Being in the beginning stages of holding the boundaries I’ve developed

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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show

artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music

On episode 24 of SELFWIFE, I'm joined by my lifelong friend Coleen who grew up in the same very small, very strange, very fundamentalist Christian church that I did. In this ep we remember the good, the bad and the embarrassing - like performing at the local mall in a kids' Christian choir called "SOOL" but pronounced "soul" ☹️-

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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show

artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music

a term i've coined for a phenomenon i've noticed that tricks vulnerable people into remaining in dangerous situations-

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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show

artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music

Diary episode - on:

loss, lessons, deconstruction, building standards late in life, getting better at boundaries, not knowing what's next, sitting in the pain and through it all - prioritizing oneself, telling the stories of my life, cutting family off and the rocky path that is escaping abuse when it's all you've known. -

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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show

artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music

Day after day, we watch mass death and destruction in the name of religion. Tale as old as time. Islam, Judaism and Christianity are the three, main, Abrahamic Religions and that got me thinking, what would I think of this ~Abraham~ dude if I read about him now, years after I've left the faith, deconstructed my cult-like attachment to it, and educated myself about world religions and the existential human need for belief? That's what I'm exploring in this episode-- reading Genesis as a former Jesus girl who was born into an extreme sect of the faith and has been educating herself out of it for 13+ years. (The Bible is FUNNY, folks. Really silly stuff in here, def was easier to accept as a kid.)-

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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show

artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music

as Israeli airstrikes continue to surge in Gaza, i'm seeing jokes about a new draft pop up all over the internet and i wondered all day about what that would look like these days. then i took the opportunity to ask my dad, who served in Vietnam as a Seabee from '68 to '71, what it was like being drafted as a teenager into a war he didn't believe in. he actually maintains that he *wasn't* drafted because he enlisted just before 18 so he could choose which branch he wanted to serve in. way to take the reigns, dad. i have a clearer picture of who he was when he was young and of his tender heart. he talks about "the buddy system", the guys with a death wish who tried to be macho, and he calls himself a "wheeler dealer." oh and he cries and so do i.

i hope you get something from this episode 𓇢𓆸

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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show

artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music

9 different things i've been practicing every day, for a little over a year now, to regulate and heal my nervous system 𖤣.𖥧.𖡼.⚘-

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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show

artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music

more James Dobson intel and related realizations / the time my mom threatened to kill my cat for biting her / the time my mom tried to humiliate me out of being suicidal / men like Ru****l Br**d and why they are so dangerous / an abuser revokes their right to privacy, it's your story now ♡ -

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SELFWIFE is produced, hosted, edited and mixed by Ani Easton Baker. Show

artwork by Jesse Case. Intro song: "ASMR Falling Forever" MM Music