Let us look at consciousness not as something we decide with—but something we see from.

In this episode, we draw a crucial distinction between consciousness and conscience—between awareness itself and the impulse to judge, analyze, discern, and decide. We are gonna slow everything down and return to the place before meaning, before hierarchy, before right and wrong.

This is an episode about seeing before dissecting. Perceiving before directing. Sensing before deciding.

We examine how our culture overvalues logic, productivity, and discernment—often at the expense of our ability to feel, imagine, and stay present. When there’s too much pressure to interpret, perform, or be correct, we lose access to sensation itself. We become disoriented. Senseless. Ashamed.

And shame, as we explore here, is not just emotional pain—it is corrosive to consciousness. It erodes our will to live, our capacity for joy, our ability to be seen or to see clearly. It turns life-affirming experiences into punishment and teaches us—quietly, relentlessly—that our very existence is a problem.

In contrast, pure consciousness is shameless. Not un-shamed. Not defiant. Simply without shame.

Sensitive people, by nature, are often oriented toward this state—bold, expressive, curious, emotionally alive—not because they’re rebellious, but because they don’t instinctively perceive what they’re “supposed” to be embarrassed by. This episode reframes sensitivity, imagination, vulnerability, and softness as legitimate modes of knowing—facets of consciousness experiencing itself.

We talk about:

• Consciousness vs. conscience (and why confusing them costs us our vitality)
• How shame pollutes perception and fragments the relationship between instinct and action
• Why meaning is a filter—and how filters bias what we see
• Shameless living as a return to life’s natural momentum
• Reclaiming what you’ve been shamed out of: joy, curiosity, play, sensuality, emotion, imagination
• Why validating your subjective experience isn’t about “truth,” but about legitimizing your own awareness

At its core, this episode is an invitation to stay close to the unpolluted wellspring—to sense from where life actually begins. To stop pre-emptively apologizing for existing. To let “I’d rather be dead than this” soften into “I’d rather live.”

Because consciousness has only one orientation: toward life.

And reclaiming that is freedom.

Sensitivity & Imagination explores imagination as the fertile ground where identity, meaning, and transformation begin.

In this episode, we examine sensitivity as a domain of perception, vulnerability, and energy—where possibilities remain fluid before they harden into fixed forms. Imagination is not an escape from reality, but the bridge between inner experience and lived life: the space where meaning is shaped, tested, softened, and released.

We look at how identity forms through perception, how unprocessed experiences loop until they are acknowledged, and how discernment emerges through expanded awareness rather than judgment. By learning to work with imagination as a soft-form space, we gain more freedom in how we relate to pain, creativity, responsibility, and choice.

This episode invites you to live through sensitivity rather than in opposition to it—using imagination as a tool for integration, embodiment, and deeper engagement with reality.

Welcome back to SENSI - a week late, and not as intended. This re-exploration of vulnerability and its relationship to sensitivity kept slipping through my grasp and took an unintended direction.

Listen to explore how:

• vulnerability and sensitivity are the same thing,
• how we can create a concept and relationship with the former to aid in a positive expression of our strengths,
• our interaction with (physically) bracing and how it is pivotal in our ability to take rupture to rapture,
• as well as how we take form back to energy!

Enjoy! <3

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Vulnerability + Volition: Taking the Lead of Your Own Life

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Welcome back to the second and final part of SENSITIVITY and ENERGY. This episode we go deeper into what we established in part one - energy and form - by discussing meaning. "Meaning is how we seal form" I repeat, and learning how to slip into and expand those moments and our understanding of them is the game. That is where our power lies to influence the momentum of meanings we experience, alter the direction of our lives.

This episode gets into self-trust: what it looks like, how it feels, why it is important, and give a personal example from Shae's life -- namely, how and why this podcast came to be.

Enjoy!

Recorded on October 26th, 2025

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Welcome to the first full episode of season two! We are starting at the beginning.

To unwind the convoluted stories, relationships, and identity we have (been stuck with), we are taking it down to energy. We are looking inside of those monuments we have erected and excavating ourselves from the burden of them.

In this episode, we talk about the difference between energy and form, what energy feels like (how as a sensitive person you have access to so much of it!), the utility of forms, and how to use both to our advantage (and authentically).

Recorded October 7th, 2025.

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Welcome back! This intro episode picks up where we left off last season, with rupture, and pairs it with its counterpart, rapture.

In this episode we recap last seasons journey and set forth what this season is about. We discuss why we fear rupture and begin to familiarize ourselves with the rapture in our experiences that we all want, highlight rapture with an example from Inside Out 2, get into how SENSI originated, and propose the of an archetype for sensitivity. The stereotype is played out, and now we are getting into the steeze: Sensitivity as an incredible resource that fuels our lives.

Throughout this season we will get into practical, specific, and actionable ways that sensitivity is and can be THE resource that makes or breaks our lives.

Thank you for being here <3

Recorded on September 24th, 2025

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The finale of season one is upon us and in it we discuss rupture: Energy, generated. Energy that wants to go somewhere. Energy that HAS to go somewhere.

Our emotions are energy and this energy informs our behaviours. This energy underlies confusion, misunderstanding, ill-timed and ill-expressed behaviours as well as fuels transformation.

What we do with it matters. It is worth experiencing because “only by experiencing a thing can we make sense of it.”

Now we have explored the stereotype and we are done discussing it – and also done living it (and thank God because I am over it. I hope you are too. <3)

Recorded July 27, 2024.

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(TW) Now that the concept of sensitivity has been explored in its own right, let's visit oversensitivity and see what is left.

Trigger warning because self-harm and death are mentioned again.

Recorded May 31, 2024.

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In the previous episode, we begin to play with the idea of our self-image and sense of self, what undermines it and how we can build it into a space where the stereotype is a non-issue. In this episode, I continue with this idea.

Recorded April 28, 2024.

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I open the episode referring to the third episode about’ erecting a monument to our feelings’… this episode does not exist. It was removed because I raaaambled the most ramble I’ve ever rambled and never got to the point. Don’t worry, I discuss it in depth enough in this episode.

This episode and the next "SENSITIVITY and A SENSE OF SELF" were recorded as one so this one is deeply discussing our sense of self, how to build it, and how this glorification or preservation of our emotional states undermines our self.

In the last episode, I discussed how holding grudges has served a purpose. In this one, I clarify how it holds us back and how through processing our experiences, the emotion(al experience) “integrates into our being and this emotion or experience gets better gets more beautiful, more useful and easier to carry.”

Recorded April 28, 2024.

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