Welcome back to the beautiful mess that is the Shitshow Sisterhood. In this episode, we’re kicking off a regular segment called Coffee + Chaos, where we throw out the rulebook and keep it raw, unfiltered, and fucking real.

This time? We’re getting up off the goddamn office floor. We’re leaving the trauma dump behind (for now), and we’re choosing connection, conversation, and chaos.

I sit down with my two best friends, Rindy and Stephanie, for an unhinged round of Spill the Tea. Think icebreakers, but way more fun and just a little bit inappropriate. From our favorite emojis to, yep, our body counts... nothing was off limits. It’s messy. It’s hilarious. It’s vulnerable. And it’s a reminder that sometimes the best medicine is laughter with your ride-or-dies.

🔊 In This Episode:

• Real-life shit that we have all experienced
• Honest AF friendship and the power of sharing your shit
• Hilarious questions. Even more hilarious answers.

💥 Wanna Share Your Story? This season, I’m passing the mic to real women with real stories. If you’ve survived some shit and you’re ready to talk about it, apply to be on a future episode. No influencers. No gurus. Just the badass, everyday warriors who’ve walked through hell and came out feral.

👉 Apply here: https://forms.gle/w6a7ior9cpc2M9ih8

✨ If you loved this episode, do me a favor:

• Screenshot and share it to your stories
• Tag @feralhealingco so I can hype you up
• Leave a review if you’re feeling generous Let’s grow this sisterhood together—one shitshow at a time.

#RawRealUnapologetic #ShitshowSisterhood #CoffeeAndChaos

Whew. This one’s personal.

In this final episode of Season 1, I’m pulling back the curtain and letting you in on where I’ve been, why I hit pause, and how I’ve been rewriting the story I’ve been telling myself — about this podcast, my purpose, and who the hell I really am.

If you’ve ever felt like you were falling behind, starting and stopping, or ghosting your own dreams… this one’s for you.

We talk about the pressure to be consistent, the lies our anxiety feeds us, and what it means to actually show up from a place of authenticity — even if it’s imperfect as fuck.

I’m sharing what’s coming in Season 2 (spoiler: more sisterhood, more stories, and a lot more Human Design), plus the new ways you can be part of this wild healing ride with me.

Because we’re not just surviving the shitshow anymore. We’re rewriting it.

🔥 In This Episode:

• Why I took a break from recording — and why that was not failure
• How I learned to rewrite the story I was telling myself
• My evolving relationship with healing, truth-telling, and showing up
• A sneak peek at what Season 2 is bringing (interviews! HD! sisterhood!)
• How to connect deeper with the Shitshow Sisterhood community

💻 Resources & Links:

🖤 Join the Facebook Group: → https://www.facebook.com/groups/shitshowsisterhood

Get support, share your story, and find your people. We’re in this together.

🖤 Visit the Podcast Hub: → www.feralhealingco.squarespace.com Catch up on all episodes + read the blog-style breakdowns for deeper reflection.

✨ Want to Support the Show?

• Follow & subscribe wherever you listen
• Leave a review (it helps so much, truly)
• Share this episode with a friend who’s rewriting their story

Let’s be real — life is a mess. But together, we’re learning to make magic from the wreckage. Thanks for being here, sister.

In this episode, I’m sharing the hardest boundary I’ve ever had to set - telling my sister that, for the sake of my mental health and the well-being of the child that we share, I could not have her in my life anymore.

This isn’t just a story about the fucked up shit that family does to us. It’s about the pain, the betrayal, and the power it takes to finally choose yourself.

From the 17 times she left my life over a decade (yes, I counted!) to the final straw that made me say enough is enough, I walk you through the messy, emotional journey that brought me to FINALLY choosing me.

If you’ve ever struggled to set a boundary with your family and actually stick with it- this episode is for you. I’m here to remind you that you don’t owe anyone access to you just because they share your DNA.

Let this episode be the permission you need to start setting boundaries like a badass.

Let's Connect:

Follow me on Facebook: @JenniferLevins and @theferalhealingcompany

Follow me on Instagram: @theferalhealingcompany

In this raw and unfiltered episode, I share the story of the day my world shattered—the day my dad died. I open up about how the grief, trauma, and total emotional collapse that followed forced me to completely rethink what self-care really means.

Spoiler: it’s not wine and bubble baths.

If you’re going through hell, barely holding it together, or tired of pretending you’re fine when you’re falling apart then this one’s for you.

In this episode, I talk about:

• The moment I realized I was just fucking done.
• Why grief and trauma demand more than superficial “self-care”
• What radical self-care actually looks like
• How to do your own Self-Care Audit
• Make your “Fuck Off List”

Resources & Links:

• Follow me on Instagram: @theferalhealingcompany
• Learn more about my work: www.shitshowsisterhood.squarespace.com
• Join the sisterhood newsletter for real talk & tools: www.shitshowsisterhood.squarespace.com

If this episode means something to you, share it with your favorite badass women and tag me. Let’s normalize real healing together!

This week’s episode is a real-life “storytime” straight from the pages of my book: Surviving The Shitshow: A Badass Guide To Thriving When Your World Is Fucked-Up.

Have you ever asked the Universe for healing… and then got hit with exactly what you needed (but weren’t ready for)? Yeah… that’s what happened to me during my Level 2 Reiki attunement with the legendary William Lee Rand.

In this episode, I will share:

• The powerful attunement experience that cracked open buried childhood trauma
• The "safety" wound that quietly, but FIRECLY shaped my adult life
• Why I still sleep on the edge of the bed (spoiler: it goes way back)
• How intentional healing will give you exactly what you need—even if it’s not what you expected

TRIGGER WARNING:

This one gets deep. I’m talking childhood trauma, domestic violence, homelessness in this episode. If this feels too heavy today, give yourself permission to skip it. I’ll catch you on the next one!

If you do decide to stick around, I hope this episode reminds you that you have a choice in what you heal and when. You can ask for a helping hand in your healing. And when you do, be ready—because the Universe is listening.

If this episode speaks to you, please share it with a fellow badass who might need it. We’re creeping up on 300 downloads and it’s all because of you showing up, sharing, and supporting this messy, powerful community!

ARE YOU READY TO HAVE YOUR STORY BE HEARD?

Starting this July, I will be inviting some amazing badass women to join the sisterhood and share their healing journey with our community. Want to be one of them? Apply today at:

https://shitshowsisterhood.squarespace.com/contact

Let's Connect:

Website: www.shitshowsisterhood.squarespace.com

Instagram: @jenniferlevins39

TikTok: @jenniferlevins39

Facebook: @JenniferLevins

Don’t forget to subscribe so you don’t miss what’s coming next!

Welcome back to the Shitshow Sisterhood!

In this episode, we’re diving deep into the messy, exhausting reality of living in survival mode and what it takes to break free of it.

After trauma, chaos, or constant stress, survival mode kicks in to keep us alive. It’s not bad, but sometimes it is necessary. But what happens when staying in survival mode becomes your entire way of life? Spoiler alert: It slowly destroys you.

In this raw and real conversation, I share my personal stories of living a life in survival mode and how it trapped emotion inside of my body. I'll also share the method that I used to finally crack open enough to start healing.

We’re talking about:

• The truth about the 4 survival responses: fight, flight, freeze, and fawn
• How stuck survival mode creates chronic anxiety, depression, and emotional burnout
• What happens when your body holds on to trapped emotions (and how it manifests physically in the body)
• Signs you’re stuck in survival mode (even if you “look fine” to the outside world)
• How to start shifting from survival to actual fucking living

If you’ve ever thought:

“Why am I still anxious when nothing’s wrong anymore?” “Why can’t I just relax?” “Why do I feel numb and exhausted all the time?” this episode is for you.

You’re not broken. You’re surviving. And you’re not alone.

Connect with Shitshow Sisterhood:

• Website: www.shitshowsisterhood.squarespace.com (find the form that we discuss at the end of the episode here!)
• Instagram: @jenniferlevins39
• TikTok:@jenniferlevins39

Loved this episode? Leave a review, share it with a someone who needs it, and make sure to subscribe so you don’t miss the next round of messy, raw, unapologetic healing.

Thanks for being part of the Shitshow Sisterhood. I'm so glad you’re here!

In this episode of Shitshow Sisterhood, I’m diving deep into a concept that came to me while doing something super glamorous—washing a mountain of dirty-ass dishes.

This episode is called Eat The Fucking Frog, and if you’ve ever avoided doing the hardest part of your healing journey, this one’s for you.

I talk about where the idea came from (big shout out to The Minimal Mom (Dawn Madson) and her YouTube video that sparked inspiration —and how the “frog” represents those ugly, uncomfortable tasks we’d rather ignore. For me, this idea lined up perfectly with the emotional frogs I’ve been avoiding in my own healing.

This episode is all about recognizing those “frog moments,” the ones that keep showing up until we finally face them. I walk you through how to identify your frogs and why getting that big one out of the way makes everything else feel a little lighter.

If you’re ready to stop dancing around your biggest shitshow, this episode is your big fat permission slip to eat the fucking frog already.

Let’s do this together. Tune in, let's get real, and let’s start clearing our fucking plate.

You’re not crazy. Your pain is real. And it’s time to call it by it's fucking name.

In today's episode share a story I’ve kept locked up for years—about the abuse that made me feel like I was fucking crazy, and about the moment I took my power back. But this isn’t just trauma porn. This is about healing through validation. I’ll walk you through step one of the most powerful tool in my Shitshow Survival Plan: called the "Own Your Shitshow" exercise. Because if you can’t name it, you can’t heal it.

Tune in to learn how facing the truth of your story head-on is the first step in finally feeling seen, heard, and fucking free.

If this episode resonates with you, please help us grow by sharing it on your social media. The more we share the more we can reach those who truly need this medicine in their lives.

TRIGGER WARNING:

In this episode, I will be sharing a story of childhood abuse and domestic violence. If this might be triggering for you, please skip this episode. No hard feelings, I promise!

Want more? Check out my website at: www.shitshowsisterhood.squarespace.com (http://www.shitshowsisterhood.squares...) There you will find blogposts and resources that dive a bit deeper into the nature of healing from trauma.

Sometimes healing starts with heartbreak. In this raw, unfiltered episode, I share the story I didn’t plan to tell—how my sister ghosted me after a major health scare and left my world spinning. I walk you through the grief, the rage, the reckoning, and ultimately the healing that followed. This was the catalyst for my book, my podcast, and my unapologetic journey back to myself. If you’ve ever been abandoned by someone you love, this one’s for you. It’s messy. It’s real. And it just might help you take your power back.

If this episode resonates with you, please help us grow by sharing it on your social media!

TRIGGER WARNING:

In this episode we will be diving deep into the nature of ghosting, why people do it, and the gut-wrenching toll it takes on those left behind. f this might be triggering for you, please skip this episode. No hard feelings, promise!

Want more? Check out the "Welcome To The Shitshow" Blog at: www.shitshowsisterhood.squarespace.com

Want to follow my authorship journey? Find me on TikTok: @jenniferlevins39

Today is our starting point! This podcast has been a year and a half in the making. It has been 18 months of "maybe one day"s and today we are throwing caution to the wind and just doing the damn thing! This is your permission slip love to create a life you love and just go for it.

Disclaimer:

We cuss like A LOT around here! We also talk about some REALLY hard things on this podcast. Listener discretion is advised.

But, if you are here for raw. real stories about surviving the shitshow that life throws at us sometimes, well then let's get started!

Please share this with someone that you feel may benefit from it.

I'd love to connect with you!