Today on my walk I talk about getting a diagnosis. I recall receiving a diagnosis at 18 and then another significant diagnosis at the age of 50, both connected.

Today I speak about the fear of missing out, the fear of going out and current limitations in my life. My symptoms have brought limitations and I'm scared of pushing myself too much in case I slow down my recovery. 

It not surprising that I'm preoccupied with my return to work this week. I'm feeling tired and that is to be expected. I've a lot to think about at the moment. Coping with a new work routine alongside personal issues related to selling the house. I have to make decisions and I'm finding that difficult. I'm going back and forth.

Today I talked about my return to work this week. I’m wondering whether I returned to work too. My first day back didn’t quite go to plan.

Today I talk about the fear of making mistakes. I have some reflections on being a trainee teacher many years ago. I think have some anxiety about this because of ongoing symptoms and how they impact on how I do my daily job. I also accidentally discovered a strategy I can use to remember what I read in books.

I give a report back on how my first day back at work went yesterday. Today after listening to a podcast I reflect on future planning and the importance of making sure it doesn't stop you from living your life today.

Today I'm returning to work following a two-month break following my most recent viral meningitis flare-up. I talk about being in control or not.

Today I talk about my plans for returning to work tomorrow. I'll be meal prepping and batch cooking so that I don't have this to do during the week. This is how I keep to healthier eating and not be tempted to grab unhealthy convenience unhealthy food.

Today I reflect on the reasons why I want to help women in a similar position to me who worry about the lack of financial stability when you have a chronic illness.