Almost a year after losing my brother, we received the call that charges had finally been filed. Sitting in a courtroom, facing the person responsible, became the moment that pulled me backward into everything we hadn’t yet said out loud.

I didn’t choose independence—I needed it. In this episode, I talk about how hyper-independence formed as protection, the loneliness that came with it, and the quiet work of learning how to receive support.

Do you find your body living in the past and your mind racing toward the future? In this episode, I explore trauma, mindfulness, and the search for small moments of calm — the sunsets, pauses, and reflections that gently bring us back to the present.

In this episode, I talk about what it feels like to finally slow down, reconnect with old friends, and realize how much the idea of “family” has evolved for me. From pushing people away to finding comfort in the families I’ve been welcomed into, this is a conversation about stability, safety, and learning to let love stay — even when it feels unfamiliar.

A look at how trauma shows up in the body at night, why sleep feels unsafe, and what my insomnia has been trying to tell me.

A reflection on driving through the redwoods to visit my dad in Pelican Bay State Prison, and how those moments shaped my childhood.

Ever notice how dating or everyday life can bring out old patterns you thought you’d healed? In this episode, I unpack what maladaptive schemas are, how they show up in real life, and why getting triggered doesn’t mean you’re broken — it means you’re human.

Growing up, my brother was told to be “the man of the house.” He stepped into that role too soon — fighting for us, feeding us, protecting me. This isn’t about the day my brother passed away. This episode explores the guilt, grief, and love that still lives in that space.

In this episode, I talk about turning 31 and what aging really means beyond the number. When you think about age—are you counting the years you’ve lived, or the versions of yourself you’ve survived?

This week, I unpack how early trauma shaped my nervous system and how I’m slowly rewriting those patterns through movement, travel, and mindful living. It’s not just about leaving home—it’s about coming back to yourself.