Continuing the episode, I talk about the deep low I went through after Toronto. The stories behind the texts on Instagram. I was in a really bad place — hurt, empty, and alone. But, as life always shows, light finds its way back in. I share how I navigated those dark days, what helps me handling moments like these, how I pull myself out, and how I reached a place where I now can leave Whistler in peace and with a full heart.The next chapter is just around the corner.

In this episode, I open up about what happened after Montreal and why I unexpectedly disappeared for a month.

I share the stories behind the texts I posted on Instagram – the moments of experiencing my soul is dying, no longer recognizing myself, and feeling an emptiness so deep it hurt.

In this final episode of the series, I talk about my work at the Formula One Grand Prix and the warning signs my body sent me after pushing beyond my limits the days before. At the end of the episode, there’s a short clip sharing how it felt being back in Whistler and what I’m planning to do next — which I’ll record in the upcoming episode.

In this episode, I talk about how and why I pushed beyond my limits while already running on empty-and what it led to. I found myself in situations that felt written out of a movie, while being in survival mode at the same time, doubting myself and feeling deeply unhappy with who I was. Between risking opportunities and inner conflicts, I kept going while already feeling exhausted… until I found myself completely alone in an extreme situation, reaching emotional exhaustion, physical overload, and mental overwhelm. This is a story about pushing too far, feeling drained, overwhelmed, and disconnected from myself.

In this episode, I’m sharing the story of how a single question triggered and awakened one of my quiet dreams —

about 72 surreal, crazy, and intense hours, pushing myself to the edge and living moments that felt like a movie.

In the first chapter of my Montreal Series, I reflect on what I already sensed in the previous episode. Things are becoming clearer. From realizing what Whistler truly does to me — how I feel here — to finally accepting it. I went to Montreal without a plan, going with the flow, just following my intuition. But then, my body sent clear signals, and suddenly, I found myself in a mission much bigger than I ever expected.

In this episode, I will talk about the strong feeling of knowing something will happen — about being in a transformation I can’t yet see, but deeply feel. About longing for a feeling for a long time, and now living that longing. About being emotionally drained and tired in a community that performs, but does not breathe. About people, depth, and a sense of belonging.

In this episode, I will go even deeper as deep, present myself emotionally fully naked and ask Chat GPT to go deeper than before. Please listen with compassion—and maybe take this as an invitation to reflect on your own truths too.“Chat GPT,Today, something different.I want to uncover the masks I‘m currently wearing, the roles I‘m playing and the illusions I‘m believing.Please guide me through this process by asking me 10 reflective questions one at a time to help me recognise the stories I‘m telling myself.After I answer the 10th question, please step into the role of my higher self and analyse my responses, identify the top negative patterns present in my life and the top positive patterns I can embrace and grow.Be direct and truthful, tough love is welcome:)Provide me with daily affirmations to support my growth, actionable steps to change my behaviours and embody my authentic self and a message of encouragement from my higher self to celebrate how far I‘ve come from my journey:)”

In this episode, I will go as deep as I could ever go and present myself emotionally fully naked. No filters – just the truth. I asked Chat GPT to “uncover the masks,” to deep dive and analyze my behavior patterns, the deepest lies I’m telling myself, and the illusions I’m believing. Please listen with compassion—and maybe take this as an invitation to reflect on your own truths too.

“Chat GPT,

Today, something different.

I want to uncover the masks I‘m currently wearing, the roles I‘m playing and the illusions I‘m believing.

Please guide me through this process by asking me 10 reflective questions one at a time to help me recognise the stories I‘m telling myself.

After I answer the 10th question, please step into the role of my higher self and analyse my responses, identify the top negative patterns present in my life and the top positive patterns I can embrace and grow.

Be direct and truthful, tough love is welcome:)

Provide me with daily affirmations to support my growth, actionable steps to change my behaviours and embody my authentic self and a message of encouragement from my higher self to celebrate how far I‘ve come from my journey:)”

(Re upload from 19th of June)

In this second part of our episode about love, I’m sharing my sister’s love story and explaining why my standards are so high.

Additionally, I’m going to answer the questions I asked Christian myself and share some more texts I wrote about love during my travels

(Part of the video didn’t record because the camera turned off- but the audio is still there)