Matthew 11.28–30
There is within us all a very sacred place, a gift of stillness, light, and love central to our being. We could call it our heart or soul or the indwelling of Christ. It’s at once a point of utter nothingness, while also giving birth to all things in heaven and on earth. It’s a place capable of holding with infinite gentleness both incredible beauty and terrible pain. Against all reason, it’s the place God chooses to call home, and so it’s our home, too. It’s the place where Christ is born, and from where we share Christ’s love and compassion in the world. It’s God’s eternal Kingdom within us, our common inheritance as children of Light.
Very often, though, it seems so difficult to even visit this place, let alone claim our inheritance. We live our lives as if in a dream, where we’re separate from God and from all there is, and often we don’t even realize we’re dreaming. But then something happens, we start feeling restless, a part us senses our perpetual slumber, and we desire something more: to awaken to God’s Loving Presence, and dwell in that sacred place. And our Beloved God is encouraging us all the time, tirelessly offering this generous gift. Unfortunately, we tend to slumber deeply, but there is a way of being more receptive to this gift, and it’s truly very, very simple.
It may even be hard to believe that so simple a thing can help us enjoy this gift of peace and joy in the eternal life of each moment. How simple? Well, I can sum it up in just one word: rest.
Now, the kind rest I’m talking about is a bit subtler then, say, taking a break from doing stuff, although it could include that. Of this particular kind of rest, Julian of Norwich writes: “For He is the Very Rest. / God wishes to be known, / And it pleases Him that / We rest in Him; / For all that is beneath Him / Will never satisfy us. / Therefore no soul is rested / Til it is emptied of all things / That are made. / When, for love of Him, / It is emptied, / The soul can / Receive His deep rest.”
Julian’s message on this deep rest is timely in this season of Lent, with our focus on readying ourselves for participation in Jesus’ resurrection through our baptism in Christ, a process of dying to self or self-emptying. This kind of rest, the kind Jesus offers us by taking his yoke and learning from him, is a rest we experience at the core of who we are, in the very depths of our being. But this begs the question, why aren’t our souls resting in the first place? Why all the restless weariness and heavy burdens? Well, the question of “why” is probably best left to our Beloved Holy One, but it seems to me that in the first place we were resting, in our first naiveté of the garden of Eden before taking that fateful bite out of the apple.
And then, suddenly, we think we know everything, distinguishing good from evil, this from that, and it might seem to work for us for a while. But then the restlessness sets in, and there’s a nagging feeling, perhaps not so much in words, that there’s something we’ve forgotten. The most important spiritual truths always feel like remembering, like a restoration of something lost. Remembering to receive God’s deep rest is like waking up from our slumber and noticing that peace and joy beyond our understanding are already here, and have been the entire time.
Staying asleep, though, can be very attractive, because in our dreams we’re in total control. We imagine we control things like our safety, our worth, and whatever goes into the self-image we present to the world. This makes the dream of separation and sin deceptively alluring, and it’s why we so resist be roused by God’s invitation.
Still, there is eternal peace and joy on the line. Who wouldn’t want to relinquish the illusion of control if this pearl of great price is at stake. Why would anyone resist the call to rest in this beautiful, sacred place within us filled with nothing except Christ’s light and love. Well, there is one small catch, one tiny detail [...]