Todays show is about ascension, People come into your life for a reason, season, or lifetime. Apparently I gave this speech at my sisters wedding. In a time when there are 6 planets in retrograde this notion is important. Venus and Athena are responsible for love and all its trauma. This week I was noticing my own toxic behavior and addictions flaring up. Something was triggering me but it had not revealed itself yet. When it did I literally looked at the sky and said,"Yall really trying to kill me".

There are 5 planets in retrograde currently. They signify death,truth,transformation,war,and love. Now is NOT the time to be telling tall tales. You will be found out. All of the "love of your life" types will resurface. I should know...access DENIED. A retrograde manifests as an opportunity to look like the same stupid MF you were before. Resist the urge. The reason this show is so important to me is that we literally DIE from lies. Everything from HIV status to partners divulging our love life to keeping violence out of it. Now is not the time to have your cake and eat it too. Everyone is allowed their slice of pie and piece of cake. Karmic debts will be paid until late June. I hope you are ready.

It was a very humbling 7 days for me. The anniversary of my mother's death, my business is still blossoming, my real friends and family showed up for me. I am truly looked after and blessed. I had a chance to glance at my first book. A fun fact is that I NEVER read my books once published. There were cringeworthy moments. I was so angry back then. The book was released 2 months before my mother's death. There are many things I forgot about this week. There are many incidents I will NEVER forget in life. Who was there, who was not, and who will ascend with me on this journey. I am thankful for it all.

I see cuffing season has ended and yall are still confused. We are in quarantine. There is no reason anybody should be telling yall they don't have time. Unless they are blessed to still have their job THEY ARE NOT DOING ANYTHING. A lot of people who thought they were "the only one" are finding out otherwise. We scoff at anyone who says they are in a POLY relationship. YET...when you are dating and LYING about it that is what we are doing...SHARING. Please do not think I am with it, I am not. BUT I have been on the side, in the middle, the main, the wife, the dummy and the last man standing. Usually to the same man. Hence why I DO NOT believe in side chicks. I only acknowledge mistress. The wife is on paper. Your relationship isn't. Do better. Here are the rules.

Rarely do we see people having a hard time. People usually post their wins not their losses. We find ways to blame everyone else for things that could have easily been avoided. OR we blame ourselves and forgive the person with the transgression BUT never forgive ourselves. We also find ways to blame all parties involved when there shouldn't have been a party at all. NOT everyone sins the same. NOT everyone loves the same. NOT everyone gives a reason why they left. NOT everyone is loyal to the soil. If we can just take the piece that was supposed to teach us we could raise our vibration. We CHOOSE to sit in our mess and act like we are blessed. That is a lot of the reason people don't help you. You look like you got it all figured out. We need to start showing people that we DO NOT have it all figured out. In this time of pandemic, everyone needs to do their job in this life. If you don't know what your job is, you likely aren't doing it.

When words fail me I listen to music. Silence is often NEVER misunderstood. The vibes in the world are extremely low. I can't do anything about the outside world. I CAN do something about MY world. Music raises vibrations. It can also be used to chant or summon. We all should know that Lucifer ruled music. When we listen to different music it puts us in a different mood. We memorize every word and hook. Tonight you will hear a few of my fave old school jams and WHAT nostalgic moment I remember. I am thankful for the little things as always.

Last week I didn't do a show because I didn't have a message or a word for yall. What is happening in the world is surreal. Chuch is supposed to be about yall NOT me. One of my IG sisters stated I should do a show about healing, coping with loss and the healthy and unhealthy ways. She mentioned I should speak on how men and women's coping mechanisms are different. I will not have any of my good brothers on the show today. I do not like to speak for men. Everyone is saying what we should be doing during this time. In actuality what the EARTH is doing is healing. Recalibrating. We have taken for granted a myriad of things. They were taken away. When we recover from this we can see what was a luxury and what was a necessity this whole time.TIME is a luxury some people cannot afford. Use it wisely.

Here we are. In the middle of a pandemic. Folk still can't get right. Why are we talking to people we hate? Why are we reaching out to people that do NOT give a damn about you? Why do we care if they are ok or not? Did they call to check up on you, or did they call to see if you are still stupid? A lot of you come to me to help you mentally rid yourself of people that do you wrong. Yall will sit there and beg the God's to do harm to these people and then when it is happening....you feel bad? WHY? The tongue is mightier than the sword. A lot of your exes are sitting in what they manifested....raggediness. DO NOT  break pattern and interrupt their karma. At that point it becomes YOUR karma too. Let them ROT. You keep doing you. This is a time to be kind in humanity. It is NOT time to be kind to those that treated you inhumanely. The difference between a mortal and a God is grace and mercy. I have no mercy to those that watched me suffer or caused the suffering. I have grace for people in positions that can't help themselves or babies. To everyone else...we grown. If you did not sow a friendship or relationship with me, good luck out there. NOW is not the time to be apologetic. I can't eat that apology during a pandemic. Give it to a beotch that cares

Welp we got through that new moon last night. Chiron and Lillith conjunct. Chiron is the wounded healer. Lillith was the first woman Adam tried and she said NAW. Aries is the God of war, we are in Aries season. In essence, we have a war between your mama and your daddy trauma right now. We have unhealed things that are pushing to the surface for the first time TOGETHER in many years. We must unpack it during this pandemic and heal it. Perhaps that's why the Gods made us all sit the phuck down for a couple months.

This has been a dystopia like week for all of us. We are located in upstate N.Y. Our Canadian border is shut down. I saw that coming. Most of the places I know are shut down indefinitely. Others are shut down for a month or so. A lot of people were worried before any of this happened. I was not. When businesses started shutting down and we got word my company was included, I still didn't worry. I have 4 other jobs that I created myself. My family is healthy. We have been living below our means for over a decade. Some of you worship 1 God. It is disrespectful to doubt him. That is what fear is....doubt. Faith requires you to trust when you cannot see.