There is no escaping trauma. You can’t love trauma away. Today I share some difficult news, and start a new, different chapter in my life, and in my healing ❤️‍🩹

Some days, some weeks are just shit. But things grow in shit! In this episode I talk about my shitty week in these dark, post sugar over-load days of January. I talk about how honesty, and the willingness to lean in when things get hard is the key to finding the passage out of the dark. ❤️

In this episode I touch base with some new personal thoughts on trauma injury, and discuss where I am at on the path to recovery. 💔🏋️‍♀️🤕

In this short episode I contemplate my lurking anger towards the “other” woman, even though she is long gone. A psychological ghost that haunts me.

I talk about how I am on the anniversary of my break-up.

As we enter into the darkest days of the year, and approach the one-year marker of the Rupture in my relationship, I contemplate the deliberate re-visiting I am doing. Maybe it is some awkward shadow-work, maybe I am cleaning out the dark corners, but for whatever reason, I need to go there over and over

After a “big, juicy fight” this week, and a lot of long, sleepless nights, I am finally coming out of the grip that my trauma-wound fear had on me. I am learning to separate fearful thoughts from reality. With that, comes the realization that trust has nothing to do with passive healing and everything to do with being intentional and honest.

In this episode I ruminate on where I am a year after the rupture in my relationship, and get real about how surprised I am at how slow and gross this process can be, EVEN when love comes back…hopefully to stay this time.

Today I try to put my thumb on how it feels to be almost 50 and living a life that has not ended up the way I had planned. I am learning to sit in discomfort and the unknown. Hanging out with my guilt and fear a little…

In this episode I speak about how we need to acknowledge the darkness and our destructive patterns in order to move forward to restoration