Surviving Skye

I found peace this week.

Thanks to Beth_scarymua and Hailey Elizabeth for creating videos about Skye's case.

My parents visited. Intrusive thoughts. Update on Skye's case.

What's going on this week?

My meds are working, my parents are visiting, and I've taken a month off from therapy.

Are we ok? Yes.

A run down of the week and another update on Skye's case.

A brief interruption of therapy notes for an update on Skye's case.

If you were forced to be honest with yourself about something in your life, what would you need to change?

The polarity is wanting to talk about Skye's disappearance versus wanting to walk away from it all.

The origin of my anxiety. But not really, my anxiety is just a part of me, it's in every cell of my being. I just remember the first moments where I had no control over it. How it controlled me for most of my life. In this episode I talk about my first moments of fear and anxiety, prior to me even having the words for it. I put it on my trauma timeline cause that is how much it still sits with me. But its ok, I know what those feelings are now and I have helped that once little girl understand that she is going to be ok.

I'm being bold in taking a new direction in Surviving Skye. At least I think it's bold, if anything it will be me spilling my guts and being more vulnerable and transparent than I have ever been before. Since Skye has been missing for 15 years and there has been no new movement I have felt overwhelmed by the repetition of talking about the same stuff again and again. So I am going to pivot and I am going to talk about how I am surviving. And the best way I can think of is by talking to you about all the stuff I talk about when I go to therapy. Yep. All the shit that I should keep in my head. The ugly stuff that I am still working on year after year. My first experience with therapy started at 16 and its been a wild ride ever since. Good experiences and really fucking bad ones too. I'll tell you about it all, cause why not, I can't be the only one with some stories. I'm not the only one with trauma. So join me, or don't, it's your life and this isn't going to be easy listening. It's in the moment and unedited. This is where I will be and I'll be here for you too if you need someone. Thanks for hanging out with me.

I have taken some time away to focus on bettering myself. This has been a journey that I do want to continue but I have learned that I need to show up for myself first before I can achieve anything else. How would you like to see Surviving Skye evolve? Skye's disappearance is still very much my focus but the truth is its a cold case with very little (no) movement. In order to Survive the unknown we have to keep on moving. Not forgetting, just moving, moving creates disruptions, and disruptions create change, change can bring us answered and I'm on a journey that won't stop until I get the answered I'm looking for. So what do you think my next step should be?