When the party was over, there were plenty of volunteers for dishes and clean-up, and the house was returned to normal quite quickly. Mark was pleasantly surprised. He had intended to stay and help Sandra with the dishes, but instead he found himself leaving an already-tidy house behind and taking a walk with her. The September weather had turned cool, and they wore sweatshirts and walked along briskly.
“I’m glad you were there tonight, Mark,” said Sandra. “I’d have invited you myself, of course, only it was Lois’ special celebration, and it was hers to do. But I’m glad she did. It seems like you’ve won her approval—which, as you can tell, counts for a lot in this community.”
“Well, I’m not sure about approval,” said Mark. At least she didn’t feed me to the worms. But, yes: I’m glad I could be there tonight. It was fun to get to know Lois a little better—and all your friends too. I thought you and I were going to get stuck with a million dirty dishes, but everybody really pitched in at the end there. You know you have a great circle of friends when you don’t get stuck doing all the dishes.”
They walked along for a while in silence. Mark made a few lighthearted comments about the evening, but Sandra seemed be in a pensive mood. Finally she said, “You know, it was a great occasion and everything … but now that the croning is over, I’m feeling sort of sad. Or … nostalgic, I guess. I think it’s because the ceremony made me think of my old teacher, the Lady Corinne, who is on the other side now. She’d have loved to be a part of tonight, to welcome Lois into the circle of crones. And it made me feel … well, more aware of the passage of time. Things change, people age, the wheel turns… “
They walked along in silence for a while. Finally, Mark said, “I think that’s a normal way to be feeling, Sandra. Not just funerals, but happy events too, can make people feel like that. For my part, I always feel sort of solemn at graduations—they make me think of my own college days, and a couple of professors who are now gone.
“You know the book I gave to Lois tonight? It’s quite full of that kind of thing. It’s partly about dealing with the inevitability of change and death. And it’s quite insistent that there’s a still better adventure on the other side. At one point, for instance, there’s this cloud who says:
Look’st thou on my youth,
And fearest thou because I vanish and am seen no more,
Nothing remains? O maid, I tell thee, when I pass away,
It is to tenfold life, to love, to peace, and raptures holy.”
“Huh,” said Sandra. “Lois seemed mighty pleased with your gift. I’ll have to read it.”
“Anyway,” Mark continued, “I bet your teacher Corinne, wherever she is, is very proud of you tonight. Of the way you’re helping your circle to thrive. I’m sorry she’s gone—from what you’ve told me about her, I wish I could’ve met her.”
“Yes, you’d have enjoyed each other. Like you, she was always spouting odd bits of poetry.” She took his hand. “Thanks.”
Mark stopped walking and put his arms around her. The young moon was up, and by its light he could see that she was smiling, though a tear glinted on her cheek. “Time and change aren’t all bad, anyway,” he said. “For instance, take these last two months, now. My life has changed a lot—and I’m glad. What I’m saying is, I’m glad you’re in it—you, and all your strange friends—but especially you.”
She pressed her face against his chest, and he stroked her head; and so they stood in the sidewalk, in the dark, in the moonlight, for a long time, and no one disturbed them.
Two weeks later, Sandra drove over to City Hall with Mark, trying not to be nervous about the second reading.