TalKin with Topher

This is my story about graduating high school. What drove me to graduating. How I picked up the pieces and made it happen. I was flunking out, but my Families negativity drove me forward.       

Negativity cab be used as fuel for positive things. I now instead of getting to upset, cause if I am real about this unsubscribes and negative comments do sting. Now I just use it to keep moving forward and it also shows me I am doing this right. The reason I feel this way is because they are trying to bring you to their level. Instead of that happening I just keep moving forward and do what I am doing because I know what i am trying to do is positive and could help people struggling like I did and still do through this crazy life. 

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I talk about how I felt after surgery. How the anesthesia messed with me for days. I don't think people share this experience enough. That's why I wanted share mine with you.

Schedules and routines, what ever you want to call them. I feel like its the most important thing to me. That's why through all of this it has not changed one iota. Now when I can start running or get back on the mats I feel like like I have made it easier on myself.

Recovery is so important as well. I find all of these subjects to be important but recovery is I feel is ignored. After an injury or a surgery like mine. I have to take my recovery very seriously. The reason I feel that way is even though I still cant do the things I want to as soon as I am heal and the time passes, I wont have to stop doing what I love for a long time. So my thoughts are: all good things in time.

I never thought like this before. This is from lots of work on myself and being off alcohol. Its defiantly the best I have ever been!

I take you along on a trip to my covid-19 test.

I talk about how all of this has change me for the better.

I take you through my surgery. From the waiting room til after surgery.

This is the complete remodel of the computer room to podcast studio. Hope you enjoy the edit never done this type of editing before.

I realized this week that organization and cleaning is my meditation. When I organize and clean all of a sudden I can think clearly and get the stuff I was stuck on done. I have O.C.D. and Anal Retentiveness and I know that I am not alone on this. So I always wondered why all guys are labeled messy people. I believe we need to change this and realize that women are just as messy or sometimes even messier than men.

Remembering that I work at a small business when I need time off or anything I do at work. This is because I have a big box store mentality and almost none of those rules apply to me today. This has been a tough change for me. Having employees to cover or help get stuff done is a benefit I do not have. So I need to work on this and deal with any challenges that may come my way.

I had my camera shut down on me causing recording issues and an editing nightmare. After some hard work I put the Podcast together.

Starting new things is hard. Yet I find after doing something for a long period of time harder to stop. That is why I will make sure to keep the schedule some what close to what I was already doing. So that I lose the routine.

I was running and saw something I thought was funny.

Trying to keep my dogs downstairs after they break the banister.

Through my life I have always had anger. I always thought it was the drinking that made it worse. Turns out its just me and this is how I manage my anger issues. I believe that no matter who we are if you want to try something new then just do it. You may or may not be good at it but, you will never find out if you don't try. I always strive to learn something new every day. That is why I like the saying "If your not learning your dead". (ethan_nell on Insta Gram) is where I found this mountain bike video so follow him his shit is crazy!

Whats going on with me this week. Preparing for surgery. Sometimes I think life was easier when I was drinking. Then I realize how much I benefit from not. But I will tell you that my brain likes to try to convince me that it was and it can be again. Life challenges are hard but easier to deal with than  the trouble that comes with drinking.

Use my email to contact me and get advise.

[email protected] 

I am also on:

talkinwithtopher (I.G.)

@_conderman (Twitter)

cconderman (SnapChat)

When I was 14 I really wanted this new Comp game. I stole blank checks from my neighbors and forged their signature and bought the game. Listen to the story to find out how it ends.

My first DUI happened in 1999 and this is a short story on how it happened. The roads are crazier now than ever. Its like everyone forgot how to drive and in a rush to get no where. I'm vulnerable just like everyone else. I have problems in life just like any other human today, and sometimes it shows.