Talking ‘Bout My Evolution

I talk about progress on the house and all the ups and downs of my weekend.  

I talk about how I woke up feeling alert, refreshed and energized and how nice it is to accomplish things before heading off to work.

I talk about how to navigate fulfilling requests from others when I'm so focused on myself right now and also how I was spontaneously activating my heart chakra yesterday, but didn't really realize it until this morning  It's nice to know that my body and mind know what to do even when I'm running around like a chicken with my head cut off.  The bottom line with obligations/requests at this time in my life: be honest about saying no and own it.  (Which I did and all was well.)

I talk about how my helpers aren't showing up and/or calling to let me know and how frustrating putting this house together is on my own.  It's kind of a downer episode.  You have been warned.

I talk about how my tuning fork practice is going.  I really enjoy using it and have definitely noticed results.  I look forward to the day I look more like Eileen McKusick's fork-toned body, however.  While I've seen improvement in the texture of my skin and in definition and tone in certain parts of my body, it's not uniform or consistent throughout the body.  Maybe if I hadn't have eaten so many sweets this winter....

I talk about how I am trying to reign in my feelings of being in over my head with the house.  I am trying to look at the progress I'm making and look for solutions to the problems I'm currently facing.  Prioritizing is important.  For example, the painting is too much, so I'm going to start looking for a painter to help me.

I talk about how I listened to Dr. Brian Weiss' "Past Life Regression" lecture on Hay House Audio and I found it really intriguing.  He stumbled into working with his clients' past lives to cure their current ailments.  I also discuss how Eileen McKusick has discovered two streams of past life energy that flow through each person's biofield.  One can often heal themselves by acknowledging past life trauma, and let's face it, life before today was pretty brutal.  I think the whole subject is fascinating and would like to do another deep-dive clearing to suss out some of my other past lives in which things went awry -- maybe I can heal my neck and shoulder discomfort once and for all.

I talk about how there were setbacks last night in Franny's room with painting.  Again, I'm trying not to focus on the problems, but rather on the solutions.  I also talk about how it will be such a relief to be away from Lim and the constant pounding overhead, but how I don't want to say my life will be better when....  I don't want to use excuses for why my life looks the way it does.  Wherever you go, there you are.   I'm trying to find the positive in the present despite the challenges of living in my apt. building.

I talk about how in an effort to save $15 and because I already own two measuring tapes (even though they are at Bill's house), I have wasted most of my "house" time all week buying things that don't fit.  And then I'll have to return it all and, thus, waste more time.  I'm trying to forgive myself for not seeing the forest for the trees, but this week just hasn't been a good one for me and the house.

I talk about how nearly everything I've purchased for the house lately has been the wrong size, doesn't fit or work and I'm becoming very frustrated.  Everything can be returned, but the sink stuff is bulky and a pain in the butt to get out of the house, back into the car and over to the store again.  Aaaargh!