Talking ‘Bout My Evolution

I talk about how I woke up on the wrong side of the bed and how I don't want to begin my day by complaining (which I did), but by focusing on all the good things going on in my life.  So I do my best to flip the switch and see everything that's going well instead of poorly.

I talk about how I always seem to fill up that "extra" time I might have by overestimating how long something will take to do or by losing something.  I seem to run late or just on time most days.  Today my extra time was eaten up by not realizing I had left my keys in the door overnight.

I also talk about how my mom and my coach spontaneously reached out to talk to me and how nice that was.  On the other hand, my conversation with my parents reminded me of how judgmental they can be and how I really don't want to talk to them about the house and its issues or progress.  

N.B.  I later discovered that my Mom did NOT call me out of the blue, but thought she was returning my phone call.  I can't think of when I called her last and left a message, but I must have. 

I talk about how everything I'm doing, including the house, seems to be taking longer than anticipated.  I got up early to work and I'm still late, because I left my keys in the door overnight.  

I also talk about this webinar series I've been listening to that's hosted by Mike Dooley and how it's very simplistic.  The messages are good, but he repeats them over and over.  I don't know how he got an hour out his tips, let alone three sessions or a book.  His message is the same as everyone else's -- you can make your dreams come true -- which is great, but his style isn't for me.

I talk about Eileen McKusick and riff on her Electric Body, Electric Health  book thinking about how you can create change in your body and your environment simply by using your mind.  Eileen says you don't need tuning forks to move energy around.  I think about music and a positive outlook as being chief in my tools for improving my life.  I also talk about how I've raised my kids to be kind, courteous and helpful and how those qualities are not always at the top of people's desirable characteristics for their kids, but they are for me.  I think if many more people could operate from a place of kindness and helpfulness, we could all create so much more brightness in the world that would be far-reaching.  Idealistic, I know.

I talk about how I bought this steam mop that an acquaintance was raving about and I finally received it and it was a total bust.  It was a thoroughly used and wrung out piece of crap (pun intended).  I wouldn't spend $5 on it at a house sale.  And it didn't work AT ALL!  I was so pissed!  So I ordered a bigger and better one and am hoping for the best.

I also discussed how I have been craving sweets so badly and wanting to chew on something all the time.  I was so distracted by it yesterday that I decided to tap on it to see if I could stop the madness.  I tapped on the points for about 7 minutes and definitely moved some energy.  I didn't have any major revelations until today (which I didn't talk about in this podcast, but will tomorrow, I think. I realized I have been "chomping at the bit" to get some stuff happening in the new house.)  The tapping took away the intense desire to chew, which was a blessing.  Tapping is such a useful tool and I often forget to use it.

I talk about how I spent the weekend working on the bathroom in the new house and learning how to tear out old linoleum.  I learned that there is a hard way and an easy way and I'm grateful that I only lost a couple hours doing things the difficult way.  I did a great job of beating up my body by not doing a little research first.

I talk about all the changes Anchor has made to its site and how it's now encouraging me to post in more places and get a Wordpress site going.  I thought I could tie Talking 'Bout My Evolution with my Focusing on the Light website, but I couldn't  However, Anchor/Wordpress went ahead and published EVERY podcast episode for me, which was a nice surprise.

I also talk about how I finally got to spend some time with actual human beings that I like last week, not that I don't like my coworkers, but they aren't my friends.  Being with my friends made me feel hopeful and human again.  I am looking forward to more contact with others in the coming months.

I talk about how I moved quite a bit of stuff over the weekend -- extra books, extraneous things on my shelves, things from closets -- and how these couple of carloads actually made a dent in what the apartment looks like.  I have been so worried about moving all my things, but I am actually making pretty good progress already, which is really encouraging.  My goal is to always take something with me when I leave the apartment.  So far, so good.

I talk about how I finally got to see a couple friends of mine after not having seen them since last August.  It was so good to see them and really made me happy.  I loved catching up with them and relaxing with them as we brainstormed design ideas about the new house, talked about our kids and laughed at the dog.  Having this connection really made my week.

I talk about how the closing was kind of a downer -- the notary was really low-vibe.  Afterwards I felt like everything was anticlimactic and kind of flat.  I left work early and picked up Franny to buy some sage (so we could smudge and bless the house), tourmaline and selenite (to protect the house).  We had a fun afternoon running around, which lifted my mood.  Later that night when I finally got the keys and went inside my new house, I didn't know what to feel except overwhelmed.