Talking ‘Bout My Evolution

I talk about how I'm seriously considering cancelling my KBB Accelerator Club coaching now that I'm working full-time.  I don't have time to listen to the replays and all the calls take place at 1pm my time while I am at work.  The coaches and Dean can post things while they are at work, because this is their job.  By the time I get home I am tired and lately I haven't heard them saying anything really new anyone.  I think I'm done with the whole thing.  Maybe I'll wait it out until the KBB World Summit is over.  Maybe not....

I talk about how I fared during the second week at work.  The learning curve is steep and I've started during an "easy" period.  I'm happy I'm starting now vs. when things are hectic.  I am starting to feel slightly more comfortable at this job.  Everyone seems nice and I like the office itself.  I applied to work here full-time, so we'll see how that turns out.

I talk about how as soon as I've returned to the "real" world, I've reverted back into some behaviors that no longer serve me -- like complaining, eating too much, feeling like my life is over, being ungrateful, etc.  I don't like it and plan to do better.

I talk about how I've been doing a lot of complaining lately about a pretty amazing development and how I would prefer to be grateful instead.  If the universe put a job in my lap, then that's what I'm meant to do for now.  Stop worrying about it.

I talk about how working full-time is pretty overwhelming and how I'm having a tough time adjusting to the early mornings and full days of information overload.

I talk about what ignorance means according to Meggan Waterson's analysis of the passage re: ignorance in the Gospel of Mary Magdalene.  I discuss how it doesn't use the standard meaning of ignorance (or at least how I think of ignorance).  Then I talk about how hard it is when you don't even know what you don't know.  I believe I have discussed this before, but how DO you ask a question about something that you don't even know exists?

I talk about some strange behaviors coming from my son Henry.  He's been lying to me for at least a month about buying me a birthday present and the lies got bigger and more outlandish and I had no idea he was caught in this web of stupidity until I finally got access to the bank accounts online.  Once I could see what he'd REALLY spent his money on, the whole charade blew up in his face.

I talk about how I am stumped about spending gobs of money energetically every day.  Luckily my friend suggested I start giving the money away and now it's easy to spend.  Why didn't I think of that sooner?

I talk about my first day of work and my nerves surrounding waking up, showing up and absorbing all the information.

 I talk about how Caroline Myss, like Ken Wilber, also has a 7-layer levels/structures hierarchy that she uses to describe peoples consciousness and spiritual evolution.  Her levels are similar, but different.  So many behaviors that I currently exhibit are included in her first level that it shook me a little bit and made me realize that I have some more evolving to do.