The 4th Dimension with Toby C

Toby and Sandy D. take a calm, objective look at Sandy’s earliest efforts to overcome the “bondage of self.”  Was it possible that Sandy was transmuting shame by his material achievement and superlative exceptionalism? Was it possible that Sandy was still slowly dying inside and concealed this secret through his relationship with alcohol?  It is possible that despite all the social acceptance and material success, Sandy was never able to be his true authentic self – rejecting himself as never being quite “satisfied.” Discover how Sandy’s demons of fear and emotional insecurity prevented him from opening himself up to a God of his understand as expressed through the recovery group – a fellowship that his pedigree peers might reject.  Let us hit a few more bumps in the road of early recovery and learn from them.

Marie only thought her Ghost story was “him”. “He” was the problem – her ghost that kept popping up and keeping her in a prison of fear. He was evil. He was her onion of misery. But upon a calm, objective look back Toby and Marie discover that he and it was not her ghost story! Her demons handed her into the hands of disappointment and compulsive denial running from something she could not see before – but she sure can now… the subtleties of Satan…  

Vicky’s “normal” growing up was not so normal. Not only did she ignore and deny the shame revealed through its ugly reality, but her family of origin default setting consistently put her in defective abusive relationships with predators – the type that feed on the emotionally weak and vulnerable.   Are people evil or do people allow themselves to be a channel of evil? You decide!!! 

Every AA meeting is an assurance that God will restore us to sanity. The only problem is something in the meeting DOES NOT want us to rightly relate ourselves to Him.  Ahhh, yes, …. Selfishness, self-centeredness – that we think is the root of our problems. Bruce and Toby discuss the insanity and the demons that reside within the rooms of all kinships of common suffering. 

By now, in his mid-20’s, Austin’s ghost stories take place in some of the half dozen rehabs and hospitals he’s failed. Only SATAN would have placed his vice smack dab back in the lap of his agony – subjecting his fragile recovery to unfair judgement and speculation.  One sober living roommate predicted his own death, and another even erected an alter to Lucifer. Is this what God desires for us? Is this a test? You decide! 

By now, in his mid-20’s, Austin’s ghost stories take place in some of the half dozen rehabs and hospitals he’s failed. Only SATAN would have placed his vice smack dab back in the lap of his agony – subjecting his fragile recovery to unfair judgement and speculation.  One sober living roommate predicted his own death, and another even erected an alter to Lucifer. Is this what God desires for us? Is this a test? You decide!