The Brilliant Mind

In this profoundly honest and poetic prayer, Zakia reflects on the sacred simplicity of being alive. Letting go of control, plans, and even the search for purpose, she surrenders to the present moment—where joy, suffering, and divine presence coexist. This episode is a raw meditation on experiencing life beyond the mind, where synchronicity, silence, and subtle miracles become the guiding force. For anyone walking a spiritual path of surrender, this is a moving reminder that sometimes, being is more powerful than doing.

In this raw, intimate reflection, Zakia opens her heart in prayer, sharing a sacred moment of connection with God. She speaks candidly about fear, faith, and the long journey of returning to divine truth after years of searching through self-analysis, meditation, and coping mechanisms. This episode explores what it means to walk with God through the quiet moments, the inner battles, and the radical clarity that follows spiritual awakening. For anyone who has ever felt lost in their mind and found peace only in surrender, this is a deeply moving reminder that the journey back to God is the journey back to self.

In this soft, stream-of-consciousness reflection, Zakia shares a quiet moment in New York—an 80° day that stirs memories of Florida’s skies and the soul-deep peace that warmth can bring. But as always, the weather is only the doorway.

This episode moves through the subtle layers of the human experience: fear that arises unconsciously, the pull of old conditioning, and the delicate recalibration of the nervous system after spiritual awakening. Zakia explores the difference between the conscious and unconscious mind, and how thoughts born from fear can seem like truth until clarity begins to grow.

There’s no resolution here—just presence. Just the raw noticing of how life moves, how healing unfolds, and how trust is built in the unknown. It’s about seeing fear, recognizing doubt, and choosing peace anyway.

If you're in a season of change, or simply learning how to be, this is a soft place to land.

In this intimate solo episode, Zakia opens up about what life looks like after a spiritual awakening — not the peak experience, but the quiet integration that follows. She reflects on the unexpected return of simple, grounding activities like talk therapy, creativity, and sitting in nature — not as practices to fix or become anything, but as expressions of a deep, abiding presence.

Zakia speaks honestly about the shift from effortful meditation to effortless being, and how healing the personal identity has allowed her to feel life — and love — more directly. She explores the difference between psychological suffering and embodied emotion, and shares how this transformation has changed the way she shows up in relationships, especially with her partner.

“I’m learning to walk again. I’m learning to breathe again.” The truth is, there’s no rule for how to “do life” after awakening. When you find presence that stays- Everything else now — creativity, love, money, service — can come from that ground.

So yes, take your time. Let this voice keep unfolding. And Live in the Moment — you are already home.

This episode is a gentle invitation to trust the intelligence of life, to meet each moment as it is, and to realize that awakening doesn’t end in silence — it begins in the heart of ordinary living.

If this resonates with you, reach out and share your reflections. I am looking for people who are on this journey. 

Healing your past wounds changes in ways you don't know. 

Like in fights or arguments where you used to let yourself go, pursue, be enticed. 

There's something that doesn't participate anymore. 

This is a transmission, not a lesson. It invites direct experience over explanation. The speaker is pointing beyond mind, beyond self, into the infinite silence of what is—and into the mystery of being God, as God, in God’s play.

A profound spiritual monologue exploring the nature of existence, mind, illusion, awakening, and ultimately God-realization. It’s poetic, nonlinear, and philosophically dense—less of a structured teaching and more of a stream-of-consciousness spiritual expression.

🕸️ The Core Thread: Connection

• Connection is the central theme and motivation behind all desires, struggles, and suffering.
• It is not just emotional or relational, but existential—the desire to reunite with the divine, the truth, the whole.

🧠 The Mind as Illusion

• The mind does not know and cannot know reality.
• It generates confusion and illusion, creating a false sense of self and understanding.
• Thoughts appear spontaneously—there is no thinker.
• The belief that "you" are thinking is the central illusion.
• True seeing comes only with distance from thought.

🌌 The Nature of Reality

• Reality is not comprehensible. It lies beyond thought, beyond language, beyond perception.
• What we call “here” is everywhere. What we see is only the mind’s interpretation.
• To grasp truth, you must abandon all mental constructs: time, identity, knowledge, desire, even perception.

✨ The Divine and the Awakening

• Awakening is the realization that you are God.
• Not metaphorically, but experientially. Not as ego inflation, but as ego dissolution.
• The divine reveals itself in silent presence, in everyday moments, like watching a tree or hearing the wind.
• The divine rejoices in itself, through you, through everything.

🌿 The Shift: From Illusion to Experience

• Spiritual realization isn't about learning something new, but waking up from what you thought was true.
• When the mind subsides, clarity is no longer intellectual—it’s embodied.
• The senses open up: leaves, trees, light—everything becomes divine phenomena.

🌀 The Human Self After Awakening

• After awakening, the human self continues to act, but in ways beyond personal control or preference.
• Even confusion, rebellion, or contradiction is part of God’s unfolding.
• Personal identity becomes meaningless, behavior no longer needs tracking.
• Everything, even what appears “unspiritual,” is still God expressing itself.

☀️ Nonduality & Oneness

• There is only one—God, existence, the divine.
• All beings are not just from God; they are God in equal measure.
• There is no hierarchy, no true separation—just the illusion of it.

🔄 Delusion and Divine Play

• Suffering arises from a deluded “I” that seeks to change others or the world.
• This “I” is part of God’s divine spell—a necessary illusion.
• Even after awakening, one remains in the play—but now with awareness of its divine nature.

💫 Final Understanding

• True understanding is not intellectual—it is unspeakable, unimaginable, uncontainable.
• Science seeks limits, but the divine has none. It is the

In this deeply raw and empowering episode, Zakia opens up about her lifelong journey from emotional struggle and dissociation to presence, purpose, and power. She reflects on the early pain of losing her father, the invisible burden of absorbing her mother’s emotions, and years spent chasing happiness without understanding why it felt so unreachable. After discovering the roots of her suffering—fear, disconnection, and the belief that she wasn’t enough—Zakia shares the profound transformation that began in her mid-thirties. Through healing, presence, and spiritual awakening, she reclaimed her truth and now stands in full authority. This episode is a rallying call for anyone who feels lost, unseen, or stuck in fear. Zakia reminds you: joy is your birthright, power is your nature, and now is the time to step fully into who you were born to be.

Back for another ride- full circle. One and the same with full healing- isn't that what full healing is? A true okayness with the dark? An okayness with BEING the dark?

 The dark no longer considered, the dark-

In this episode of The Brilliant Mind, Zakia reflects on a group meeting after years of navigating identity dissolution alone. It is the first time she is in the company of those who have an understanding or at least know how unexplainable this process is. She feels energized after the meeting, but also wonders if she made it alone until this point because of her deep need for acceptance, approval and to be understood by others- all things she had to let go of and be conpletely alone on this journey. 

She shares insights on the nature of the self, the mind’s need for control, and the deep surrender that comes with embracing the unknown. Through personal stories of transformation, misunderstandings, and letting go of the need to be understood, this episode explores the freedom that arises when beliefs and identities dissolve.

There is only one thing that allowed her to trust and stand alone. 

Tune in to find out what that is- and for a raw and introspective conversation on the nature of awakening, the end of internal conflict, and what it means to settle into the unknown.