The Brilliant Mind

I very easily could have continued with life as I had been doing. This journey that I went on- I was meant to take- to understand the underworld. 

Revisiting the specific journey of awakening as it happened here- from the beginning until now. 

The Change that occurred, although I didn't know it, was the answer to a lifelong prayer. 

I had been experiencing the egoic play for a few days after visiting a family friend's house.. A powerful technique that broke me free of it, was going back to the very moment before I behaved the way my ego was fearing, and experiencing myself in those moments and realizing it was a conscious choice I made to behave in that way... Further confirming- it is all just the ego's play....But something in me was believing in the ego- that I WAS the ego- a totally separate energy in the body it seems- the one with this specific personality- Are we really it though?

In later stages of awakening, when you've done the healing to see clearly and not become emotionally hijacked in triggering situations, you develop preference for the kinds of emotions you would like to experience (and therefore the kinds of experiences you would like to have with people that limit negative emotions). 

Since you are deeper into feeling any emotion, and more awake during all emotions, of course there will be a preference when you are no longer reacting- like any area in life where there is more space, more luxury, you decide. 

It's unfigure-outable- i think that's the point- both the relief that comes from not knowing, even when you're healing, and the confusion that comes from not knowing. Ultimately, not knowing brings a certain amount of peace. And the more you deepen into unknowing, sadness, grief, loneliness, disappear. Within a few weeks, the sadness and confusion apparent in this recording disappeared. 

Read after listening:

This was about a month ago- this recording. 

I think I've figured it out- it's just an energy difference- which is why i was seeing this over and over- an energetic state that I've deepened in since. 

I think what happened was when I asked my mom about if the delivery guy could come inside- the energetic state I was in, was not as confident as the one I've deepened into currently. It is not really what we say but how we say it- and the how really is the energy- i don't know if it would have changed the decision or the outcome- the energy seems to be in its own category and it's tricky to know any other difference- other than the way we feel and our inner experience. 

I had come across Abraham Hicks's teachings before- but this was the first time I experienced them. 

Hope you are all well and alive as ever. 

Sending lots of love. Leave a comment if this resonates with you. Have you ever dissolved your limitations around money and experienced a flow of it into your life? 

The most clever mechanism of the human mind is built out 

This thing in our head- what is our relationship to it in terms of behavior? 

A Return to Ordinary Life, but with underlying presence. This time not working for peace- it does not always follow meditation. 

The peace comes and energy moves out without a known pattern. Every day is just what it is. This stabilization has no trend. 

In real time, it is the essence of life- the utter unknown. 

But there are some changes-

How Deeply We Feel Emotion

How Much We Maintain Our Peace in Our Interactions