The Deep by Zoe Marshall

Last week we spoke to Krystal about the elder who had abused all the girls in the family including her mum. Today we speak to Krystal's mum. Dani was sexually abused from as early as she can remember. And her own mother put her in that situation. Delivering her to the family paedophile on a weekly basis. It is harrowing. But this is also a story of an incredibly strong woman who did better and is breaking the cycle of generational trauma.

Content warning: this episode discusses child sexual abuse. Support resources are listed below.

• Act For Kids to prevent and treat child abuse and neglect www.actforkids.com.au
• Blue Knot Foundation for female adult survivors of child sexual abuse. 1300 657380 or www.blueknot.org.au
• Samsn for male adult survivors of child sexual abuse. 1800 472676 or [email protected]
• For free and confidential advice about alcohol and other drugs, call the National Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline 1800 250 015.

Follow Krystal on Instagram @_krystalwilson_ and @shewhodaresoffical and visit her website www.krystalwilson.com

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Credits:

• Joanne Helder - Producer
• Caleb Jacobs - Music
• Tash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic Partner

Please DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.

The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging.

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An elder of a family abused every single little girl for generations. The victims are many and their responses are just as varied. Krystal's mum was one of the last to be abused. But the trauma has been passed down and this family are now in the process of healing.

Content warning: this episode discusses child sexual abuse. Support resources are listed below.

• Act For Kids to prevent and treat child abuse and neglect www.actforkids.com.au
• Blue Knot Foundation for female adult survivors of child sexual abuse. 1300 657380 or www.blueknot.org.au
• Samsn for male adult survivors of child sexual abuse. 1800 472676 or [email protected]

Follow Krystal on Instagram @_krystalwilson_ and @shewhodaresoffical and visit her website www.krystalwilson.com

Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.

Credits:

• Joanne Helder - Producer
• Caleb Jacobs - Music
• Tash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic Partner

Please DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.

The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging.

Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Jasmin was raised as a Christian and saved herself for marriage. But her wedding night was not the beautiful moment she had imagined. Jasmin suffers from Vaginismus - an involuntary tightening of her vaginal muscles that makes sex extremely painful, if not virtually impossible. This is such a brave and fascinating discussion on the way that religion and purity culture can have a huge effect on our sexual health.

Check out Jasmin's podcast: Conscious Sexuality The Podcast. Her website is www.conscioussexuality.com.au and her Instagram @conscioussexuality

Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.

Credits:

• Joanne Helder - Producer
• Caleb Jacobs - Music
• Tash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic Partner

Please DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.

The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging.

Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Imagine hearing your mum say she wished she had an abortion. Always feeling like a burden. Always hungry because she never fed you. That was Fiona's childhood. It's so bizarre and so sad and it's affected every aspect of her life.

Content warning: this episode discusses disordered eating and pregnancy termination. Resources are linked below.

• Disordered eating assistance The Butterfly Foundation or 1800 33 4673
• Miscarriage and stillbirth support Pink Elephants www.pinkelephants.org.au and SANDS www.sands.org.au or 1300 072 637

Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.

Credits:

• Joanne Helder - Producer
• Caleb Jacobs - Music
• Tash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic Partner

Please DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.

The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging.

Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Steve was happily married with his wife and two young kids. But he was also living a lie. You see, Steve is gay. And he tried to suppress it for a long time but eventually the truth came out. We explore how Steve was able to mask this for so long and perform with women, how he discovered his sexuality and how he broke the news to his wife and kids.

Follow Steve on Instagram @______steve88

Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.

Credits:

• Joanne Helder - Producer
• Caleb Jacobs - Music
• Tash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic Partner

Please DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.

The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging.

Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Ali Kali is famous as the lactating porn star. Yep, she's known for squirting dudes in the face with her milk. But that's only a tiny part of why I wanted to talk to her. Her story is a wild ride involving addiction, sex work, child loss, and... meditation masturbation?

Content warning: this episode is very sexually explicit and contains discussions on infant loss, addiction and suicide. Support resources are linked below.

• For free and confidential advice about alcohol and other drugs, call the National Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline 1800 250 015.
• Lifeline 13 11 14
• Miscarriage and stillbirth support Pink Elephants www.pinkelephants.org.au and SANDS www.sands.org.au or 1300 072 637

Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.

Credits:

• Joanne Helder - Producer
• Caleb Jacobs - Music
• Tash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic Partner

Please DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.

The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging.

Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

As we approach January 26, this year we hand the microphone over to two amazing indigenous creators.

Matty has been sunning himself on nude beaches while Brooke has just been getting nude in the backyard!

Matty and Brooke also went on a trip last year that changed their lives forever!

And we chat with one of Australia's top First Nations performers and advocates Isaiah Firebrace, ahead of what is a very polarising day for First Nations people to find out what he thinks about the day.

Check out their podcast Not So PG

Follow @itsmattymills on Instagram

Follow @brooke.blurton on Instagram

Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.

Credits:

• Joanne Helder - Producer
• Caleb Jacobs - Music
• Tash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic Partner

Please DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.

The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging.

Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Charlie has survived extreme neglect, abuse and cruelty at the hands of his mother. At the age of 12 she dropped him off at a care home and never returned.

Charlie was thrown into the foster system like 1000's of other children. Moved 10 times in 8 years. This is his story.

Content warning: This episode deals with child abuse and neglect. For help, children can contact Kids helpline on 1800 55 1800. Adults can contact Lifeline on 13 11 14.

If you feel moved to donate to children in foster care, please visit Create - an organisation that aims to create a better life while in care.

Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.

Credits:

• Joanne Helder - Producer
• Caleb Jacobs - Music
• Tash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic Partner

Please DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.

The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging.

Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

What do you know about BDSM? Is it what you have seen in Bollywood films, read about in 50 shades of grey or have you experienced it first hand? Mistress Eva takes us deep inside her dungeon and shares the intimate world of being a mistress. We talk about who these people are that seek her services, how much it costs to worship her and how far she is willing to go to take someone to the edge of their desires. The most shocking part - this isn't "just" Eva's work, she doesn't clock off after a shift, this is her full time way of life.

Content warning: The episode is extremely explicit. It contains graphic descriptions of sexual acts.

You can check out Eva's website and follow her on Instagram @youwillplease_me.

Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.

Credits:

• Joanne Helder - Producer
• Caleb Jacobs - Music
• Tash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic Partner

Please DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.

The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging.

Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

If I told you there was a man, who said since having his "real dolls" aka sex robots- his life has never been more fulfilled would you believe me?

Brick Dollbanger has been living with real dolls for 12 years. He in fact is so deeply immersed in the community that the creators of real doll have asked him to be the sex robot test driver. This episode is mind blowing but you may want to listen to it with earphones in.

Content warning. This episode is extremely sexually explicit.

Check out Brick's website brickdollbanger.com and follow him on Instagram @brickdollbanger.

Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.

Credits:

• Joanne Helder - Producer
• Caleb Jacobs - Music
• Tash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic Partner

Please DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.

The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging.

Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.