I often feel that for every two steps forward I take with my money mindset, I am still taking one step back.
Which IS progress, despite how challenging that step backward feels as I realise I'm doing it.
The backwards steps are often sneakily disguised by my ego as advancement in other areas of my life.
Take our desire to travel in an RV indefinitely.
I kept pushing for that freality thinking it would >insert future paced feeling here< (i.e. make me happy/successful/accomplished/free).
And it wasn't until we were THIIIIS close to handing over a wad of cash for a fixer upper RV that I realised I'd been ignoring a far greater and more important (to me) freedom: financial.
By busying myself with the pursuit of other types of freedom, I've kept myself in a state of denial, tricking and convincing myself that money is always coming to me and therefore our achievement of our travel goals is solely dependent on how deeply I believe in that.
This type of thinking only works to a point.
That point, I unfortunately found out, is only when my mental health is paramount.
At the first sign of mental discomfort, anxiety or depression, you better bet that money ain't coming.
It also blew wide open a realisation that in believing money is always coming to me, I don't believe I need to save it.
Thus, I don't save.
And as Shelsey reminds us, if you can't feel free without money, you won't feel free with it.
So, it's back to the drawing board.
The trip is on hold, Rory's investigating returning to the workforce and we're setting down roots again to help us feel safe and secure.
Our travel will happen, and when it does, it will feel ALL the better and freer for us having dealt with these limiting money beliefs.