Recorded April 18, 2024

Today, I just wanted to show up. Space for grace.

Life happens & grace fills in those gaps. 

Sometimes, we do our best and it is not enough for the other person. 

I have continued to grow through it all. I have so much appreciation for each version of myself that continues to show up anyway. 

Something I have had to learn is that I cannot control the way other people are feeling & it is not my responsibility to navigate those that are not mine.

I need a lot of grace in my life. 

Knowing that I do not have space for EVERYTHING at one time. 

I love you unconditionally, 

ABSD

Recorded April 12, 2024

Spring often brings blooms. 

In this episode, I have many downloads that take my life experience, embodiment, and the gifts of the Universe to the next level. 

I get into the intricacies of up-leveling in your life and what that could feel like. 

Blooms want to enter your life - this is a great episode to listen to if you are not sure how to allow them to. 

I channeled light language for the first time in this space at minute 30 for about 2 minutes. If you have never heard or experienced light language, this may be very different for you! 

Use your discernment and listen to what feels aligned when listening to this part of the episode. 

I love you, 

ABSD

Recorded April 2, 2024

My preferred name is ABSD. My preferred pronouns are they / them. 

This episode is all about gender. My gender. My journey up to date uncovering my gender expression.  

My gender identity and how it has been and felt to show up in the world as a nonbinary human being. 

Finding safety within myself and in the relationships that I have inside of my new identity. 

I am using my inner dialogue to speak my truth. That is what this space is for.

I have so much grace to give in the learning process of this transition in my life. For myself and for the humans I surround myself with. 

I love you, 

ABSD

Recorded March 29, 2024 

Chantel has a gift as a sound healer. She uses this gift of nurturing others and creating a safe space for integration. 

During our conversation we talk about:

✨ Hustle culture 

✨ Deep meditation 

✨ The tendency of nature to lead towards harmony vs chaos argument 

✨ Enlightenment in healing and growth 

✨ Living life through the lens of love 

✨ Mirror work 

✨ Love, safety, and trust 

✨Passion of opening the doorway for others 

Join us for laughs, love, and inspiration!

I love you, 

ABSD

CONNECT WITH CHANTEL: 

On Instagram: @wild_mandala_alchemy

RESOURCES: 

Brene Brown’s Book: Daring Greatly 

Recorded: March 28, 2024 

Sitting in the Inner Dialogue space today with a beautiful human - my cousin Kevin. 

Becoming our own people and growing within that. Reflecting on where we came from and all the growth we have made in our lives. 

“Single tear for my single life” 

Common Sense Kindness

& a whole lot of dialogue between two humans who have known each other their whole lives. 

I love these types of conversations because they really are just us BEING. 

It was such a joy and pleasure having Kevin in this space and sharing our inner dialogue together. 

I love you, 

ABSD

Connect with Kevin: 

@kevinbarker_ 

@barker_music 

Recorded: March 26, 2024 

Being held and safe by my sisters brings me such gratitude and grounded feeling in my being. 

I am in an interesting place in my embodiment right now. Beginning to shift in each place I am in and learning how to be fully me in all the spaces I am in. 

Navigating being ABSD in my nannying & babysitting life. 

Finding my boundaries and what I am comfortable with around my name. 

Navigating my gender and changing my pronouns to they/them. 

How to move through uncomfortability to have the courage to get to a place where you can be fully seen & safe. 

Abundantly blessed!!!

I love you, 

ABSD

RESOURCES: 

Paige’s Instagram: @paigetornow 

Recorded: March 10, 2024 

This episode went in a totally different direction than I expected it to go. 

The real reason took me a minute to get to LOL 

I talk about processing around the dependency I had created around the habit of smoking. 

The Universe is amazing. I was connected with a friend who brought forth an idea and concept that we are both are incredibly passionate about it. 

This episode, although it took me a little while to get to the meat of it all - this is a great one.

I love you, 

ABSD

Recorded: March 8, 2024

As I have begun building my tattoo sleeve, I have had to take some time to process this further.

Processing and healing is just a constant up-leveling journey. 

I had to do some tapping on the topic around tattoos in order to process through the limiting beliefs I was experiencing with my new piece. 

I was uncomfortable processing this round. I was carrying the fear around what other peoples opinions might be. 

Shopping for new clothes in the mens section exclusively for the first time. This brought a lot up for me that I had to sit with and allow time for integration in my body. Combatting the masculine feeling of these new clothes and allowing myself to feel what it is like inside of them. 

I love you, 

ABSD

Recorded April 27, 2024

Wow, wow, wow!  

ONLY TWO DAYS AGO: this one is in real time! 👀

Celebrating one year with the podcast. 

On April 29, 2023 - I posted my first podcast episode in secret and one year later I am posting a surprise episode to celebrate 🥳

Posting this episode brings up a new level of vulnerability. Posting in real time with my life and letting all of you see a piece of where my journey is currently to celebrate this space. 

I met myself with grace and I grew through it every moment of this last year.

A little sneak preview of what has been developing inside of me around our social movement: A Better Standard Direction. 

ABSD has really developed inside of me. I share more about this story of how I got to where I am today with it.

I love you, 

ABSD

Thanks for all your love and continued support for this podcast and my life journey!

Recorded: March 1, 2024

My love for Big Brother shines bright inside of the episode. I recorded this right after I sent off my 5th year application to be a cast member. 

The Divine desires that are placed inside of us are there for a reason. Big Brother has been a Divinely placed desire in my life since 2018. 

My authenticity really shines through my inner dialogue. I am proud of myself for showing up in this way! 

I love you, 

ABSD 

& happy 40th episode!!