I like to think of myself now as a programmable robot.
Thinking like this helps explain the depth of getting what you give. The same as with a computer, all of what I let into my mind, body, and soul impacts what I get back out. When I listen to negative news and energy, I get negative feelings, fears, and awful thoughts. When I eat too much, I feel tired, irritable, and disappointed. When I skip exercise, I feel lazy, unmotivated, and useless. When I say something hurtful, I immediately feel bad inside.
While I am no expert on my own feelings now, watching how my body reacts is pretty easy.
Once I am aware my body is feeling pain, seeing the changes in my mood is a lot easier. I first noticed this at my friend’s wedding. I had been sober just long enough to feel vulnerable at a place where most of my friends were drinking and regretful that I had not been a good enough friend to be in the wedding party. To escape some of these feelings, I went hard at eating but not as hard as I might have in the past. I had a couple of tacos, some salad, and several desserts. The problem was I had been overeating all weekend before this and my body was just about fed up with it. Just a few minutes after finishing the last dessert, my body felt really uncomfortable. I felt overly full and like I had eaten too much rich food. Just a few more minutes after I noticed my body was disgusted with me, I started feeling really depressed. The rest of the night I was frustrated with myself and had a hard time keeping it together. At the time, I saw no connection between these two.
The next week, I suddenly realized what had happened. After not getting any exercise and eating much more than usual all weekend, my body was feeling ill. The more discomfort my body felt, the more it communicated that to my mind resulting in bad moods. For most of my life, I never would have realized that the feeling I had resulted from exactly what I did before that.
Most of us think our lives are so compartmentalized. What we do at work is separate from home which is separate from how we are with our friends. What we eat is separate from working out which is separate from sleep. What I have learned is that for me, nothing is separate. Every single thing I do is related to everything else I do. Knowing this has been like a superpower and has encouraged me to watch every detail of my life each moment. In knowing that the little things add up, I have the power to modify all of the little things I do every day to fit the life I want.
With figuring out the power of all the little things in my life, I discovered how easy it is to reprogram myself.
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