I downloaded Noom because I wanted to become healthier. I wanted to feel better, have more energy, and finally feel confident in my body.

I never thought I was starting a cycle that would eventually take me years to undo.

This episode is not about blaming one program or one decision. It’s about looking back at the small moments where “being healthy” slowly turned into restriction, obsession, and losing trust with my own body.

I didn’t wake up one day with an eating disorder. It happened little by little — through things that were praised, encouraged, and even celebrated.

This is my Noom story.

I wanted to make this episode because I’ve gotten asked this question a lot. Why did I recover without medical supervision?

The truth is, it wasn’t because I thought I knew better or because I think everyone should do the same. It was just the decision I made, and I wanted to share why.

I talk about what was going through my head, the fears I had, and what it was actually like trying to recover when I didn’t have someone telling me what was normal. There were so many moments where I thought I was doing everything wrong, but I kept going anyway.

This isn’t me telling anyone how they should recover. It’s just my experience, and maybe if you’ve ever felt scared, confused, or really alone in recovery, you’ll feel a little less alone after listening.

What actually happens to your body and brain during an eating disorder? Why does food become an obsession? Why does recovery take so much longer than most people expect?

In this episode, I’m breaking down the science behind eating disorders and recovery in a way that’s easy to understand. We’ll talk about how starvation changes the brain, why your body adapts the way it does, what happens to your hormones, metabolism, heart, and bones, and why recovery is about so much more than gaining weight.

Whether you’re struggling yourself, supporting someone you love, or simply want to better understand eating disorders, this episode separates myths from facts and explains the biology behind what so many people experience. My hope is that you’ll leave with a better understanding of why recovery is so hard, and why your body has never been working against you. It’s been trying to keep you alive all along.

Please ignore my dog whining in the background, she wanted to go outside and play!

I thought recovery would be hard, but I didn’t expect it to look like this.

Nobody prepared me for the grief of living in a body that feels unfamiliar, the frustration of doing everything “right” and still feeling stuck, or the loneliness of watching other people’s recovery journeys seem so much simpler than my own. In this episode, I’m talking about the gap between what we expect recovery to be and what it can actually feel like, the physical discomfort, body changes, uncertainty, comparison, and emotional exhaustion that often don’t get talked about enough.

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Everyone talks about deciding to recover. Everyone talks about extreme hunger. But almost nobody talks about what happens when you’re months into recovery and still don’t feel like yourself.

In this episode, I’m sharing the messy middle of eating disorder recovery, the part where the excitement wears off and you’re left navigating body image struggles, physical discomfort, grief, comparison, loneliness, and the fear that maybe recovery isn’t “working” fast enough. What do you do when your body is still changing, you don’t recognize yourself in the mirror, and you’re exhausted from waiting to feel better?

This isn’t a before-and-after success story wrapped up with a perfect ending. It’s an honest conversation from someone who’s still in it. If you’ve ever wondered if you’re the only one struggling in the middle of recovery, this episode is for you. You are not alone in asking hard questions, grieving what you’ve lost, and trying to trust the process before you have proof of where it’s leading.

When I first started recovery, I had questions constantly running through my head. Was I gaining too fast? Would the extreme hunger ever stop? Why did I feel so uncomfortable in my body? Was recovery even working?

In this episode, I’m sharing the biggest questions I asked throughout my recovery journey and answering them from the perspective of someone who has now moved through many of those difficult stages. If you’re in the messy middle, struggling with body changes, extreme hunger, swelling, overshoot, or simply wondering if you’re doing recovery “right,” this episode is for you.

I hope this conversation gives you the reassurance I needed when I was asking these same questions every day.

Everyone talks about the beginning of recovery and the freedom that’s supposed to come later. Nobody really talks about the middle. The part where you’re eating, gaining weight, doing everything you’re supposed to do, but still struggling. The part where your body feels unfamiliar, your clothes fit differently, your confidence feels gone, and you’re trying not to panic every time you catch your reflection.

In this episode, I’m talking about the messy middle of eating disorder recovery—the stage where you’re no longer actively sick, but you don’t quite feel recovered either. We’ll talk about weight restoration, body image, extreme hunger, fluid retention, identity loss, comparison, and what it’s like to keep showing up when recovery feels harder than anyone prepared you for.

If you’re in that uncomfortable in-between phase where you feel stuck, frustrated, scared, or alone, this episode is for you. Because the messy middle is real, and it’s something more people need to talk about.

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In this episode, I’m talking about one of the most overwhelming and misunderstood parts of eating disorder recovery: extreme hunger. The kind of hunger that can make you feel terrified, out of control, confused, guilty, and convinced something is wrong with you.

We’re diving into the reality of what extreme hunger actually is, why it happens, why it can continue even after weight restoration, and why your body is not “broken” for asking for more food. I also talk about the emotional side of recovery — the body changes, fluid retention, fear of weight gain, mental hunger, and the uncomfortable middle phase that nobody prepares you for.

This episode is for anyone who feels stuck between wanting recovery and panicking over what recovery is doing to their body. If you’ve ever wondered:

* “Will this ever stop?”

* “Am I developing BED?”

* “Why am I still hungry?”

* “Why does my body feel so unfamiliar?”

* “Why does recovery feel harder before it feels better?”

…you are not alone.

We’ll also talk about the science behind post-starvation hyperphagia/extreme hunger, the body’s healing process, and why honoring your hunger is not failure — it’s survival and repair. Recovery is messy, uncomfortable, emotional, and deeply misunderstood, but your body is trying to protect you, not punish you.

In this episode i explore my experience with under eating symptoms, and the symptoms of going all in. I explore the fatigue, being cold 24/7, hair loss, rapid extreme edema, and why I still choose recovery every day.

In this episode i talk about my journey during my restriction, and overexercising journey, and the damage it took not only on my body, but my life.