The Mind Stops Here

Being cheated, seeing the matrix is essential, grace and the white knight, allowing success, drop idea of flatness, too affected by outcome of sports, knowing the unknowable, trust your gut, what's wrong with illness, be a rag doll, illness breaks resistance, be totally honest with yourself, pain in the body, aversion, drop desire to control, enough cracks in the ego, go into feelings after an incident.

Stories take me away, trying drugs, Santo Daime, equanimity, what will be will be, the unreality of the character, no way out, daughter's health problems, disapproving of son's girlfriend, energy shift in the body, depressed son

Spiritual superiority, attached to womanhood, it's so simple, self-inquiry ceases of itself, self-realization, honesty the best virtue, what presents as real, cause and effect, solidity of things, bi-polar, depression, dying is another scene in the movie, not afraid to disappear, don't want to seek anymore.

Afraid of nothingness, detach from believability, how time perception works, it's going nowhere, mind sets up goal, waking up doesn't make the movie better, beyond or prior, consciousness gets rarified, acceptance of fear, stop the labeling, must we undo concepts?, identification with pain-body, fear around loss, let the fear have you, use Byron Katie

Powerlessness, specified pain must be experienced, it's not happening to you, concept-making machine, knowing you're all of it, what you are can't be localized, mind is a ball of energy, ego isn't real, mind will always present questions, don't have time to practice, the movie is an echo, when caught in the movie

I know it's just a story, sucked into story, only enjoying an idea, body throws off the old energy, desire and labeling and ego are the same, desire and sex, how Jac got married, hanging on to self-image, mom/daughter issues, back pain, male authority, tenderness for yourself, what are you without concepts, waiting for grace.

Unease in nature, what makes you buy into the story, no signposts, let it have you, fear and resistance, powerlessness, being a dad, trace the feeling and alter it, smothering children, overwhelmed by responsibility, play at being mother, can't be who parents want me to be, individuals must have space, the body does its thing, accepting or rejecting life.

Advaita feels cold, love your neighbour as yourself, it shows itself as an illusion, claiming your authority and body, I hear avoidance!, safe and unsafe, go into your body, emotional response, remembering abuse, changing some bad for good, don't care about the illusion, everything is neutral, I'm a human being, misunderstanding Jac, trust, follow the inner movement, acting without concepts

Craving for affection, experience needs to be had, mind will say it's boring, inner child, core wound, sexual abuse, rejection, critical parents, neo-advaita, honored wound, dying to be me, fuck the consequences, let seeking be easy, access sadness, don't believe mind, when there's no I, I'm all of it

Impulse to serve, choice comes from ownership, who do I trust? manifesting, mindless job, thoughts just appear, hang out in the background of consciousness, getting things done, a playful approach, be your own authority, body feeling heavy, detox.