You don't need to do it all yourself. You can ask for help. Ask for help from your family, friends, spouse, a coach, etc.
When you do this, you will see and feel all suffering subside.
You need to tap into your truth essence, where all the flow is. You are supposed to be happy! You are supposed to feel love! You don't need to choose suffering.
Find out what happens when you choose a different way Here!