Annnnd here we are part two. Enjoy. Oh and hey…if you have time please help me spread the word and share on your social media platforms. We’re going big this year my friends. Love you all. Thank you for all the support. 

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Hey everyone. Okay look I know I have been absent. But guess what?! It’s a new year and new me. I actually mean it this time and not just for clout on IG lol. But hey like everyone struggling with going through challenging stages in life I have dealt with it in isolation. A lot explained in this episode and a sincere apology as well. Your Payaso is back and here to stay! Also….sorry for this being a two parter. Clearly has been a minute using my technology. 

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Dude….what a messy episode BUT not in the usual way where I’m ugly crying for an hour. It’s messy because I don’t know how to use technology even until this day lol. Re-listening to it though it’s almost perfect for what it is. It simply shows you that life is a mess but it’s all part of the process. Anyways, i this episode I’m giving you an update into my life but also letting everyone see a different part of me. I shared my poems LIVE!!! That’s right I’ve actually read them in the way that they were meant to be. Let me know what you guys think. Appreciate all the continuous love and support. Until next time. 

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GUYS GUESS WHAT?! Your local Vegas payaso has been sponsored!!! I am super excited to share this with you all and that is only the beginning of this new journey and path that I am on! Not only is that going on but I am finally getting back into the positive side of all of this and my life. This part is to my good friend Kairo. I am so sorry I missed your house warming party. I feel awful and I am not going to lie I completely spaced. I love you man and very happy for you. Anyways, I love all of you. Spread the word of the podcast, spread love, spread your cheeks….you know whatever you’re into and whatever keeps you going. Thank you.

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Hey spread those cheeks like mayo….well now you guys know what my bedroom talk looks like, why don’t you hear what my real talk sounds like. I know I was supposed to record on Monday but here we are on a wackadoodle Wednesday. Life. Just in big, bold, capitol letters. Life can be a real bitch. But like always give it a listen and thank you for making it this far. You’re now in this with me. Much love. 

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A Monday episode?! What can possibly be going on with me? Well, the question is……..What ISN’T wrong with me. I was at my apartment jacuzzi and all of a sudden I had this big utter moment of weakness. I just started feeling nothing but complete sadness and depression. So I decided to turn that into a creative outlet instead of letting it control me. This episode does talk about where my mind goes when I think about suicide. I try and paint a vivid picture of what goes on upstairs. Yes, I do ramble a lot and this one is all over the place. When am I not? Thank you for listening. 

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Hello! As promised I made sure to update you guys on the meeting with her boyfriend. There were a few shockers but by this point…why am I surprised? Listen to all of that! Also I wanted to make sure I get out there again that mental health is important. How you take care of yourself really matters. Going back to my past episodes and letting you guys know once again that getting help is okay. Last, I have a few ideas of where to take this podcast. I want your guys’ feedback. Thanks for tuning in once again! Much love.

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You know…..sometimes in life you have to deal with the cards you’ve been given. EVEN if you didn’t ask to play, you didn’t ask for those said cards, or if you like it or not. Life just has a way to kick you where the sun don’t shine. This episode is just that. Previous episode I stated there were things I was dealing with that a lot of people don’t know and I finally decided to put myself all out there once again. So prepare yourself for yet another round of cutting onions. Much love. Thank you. 

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Hey guys. Okay listen…people get mad, alright? So this is me kind of ranting about recent events that have just really bothered me and make me mad lol. I can tell you that not the entire episode is like that. At the end of the day, I’m human. I feel emotions. This is my way of venting about that. Also with other updates in my life I just keep getting kicked in the chest with nonsense and I’m not sure if I’m being targeted by God because he hates me or we are in a simulation and whoever got me as their avatar is just fucked? Before I go deeper into a nonsense rabbit hole, give this episode a listen. 

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Why hello. We meet again...So this episode is a highlight into why I've been majorly slacking on releasing episodes. lol. Been going through so much and I'm just exhausted with life. However, I wanted to give you guys on some insight on some funny and interesting moments into my party days. From crazy situations, all the way to my friends being dickheads and not rescuing me. Have a listen, have a laugh. This episode does bring out more of the "payaso" side of things. Enjoy! 

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