Prayers are powerful and flowing effortlessly but also filled with sorrow for the lost

Feeling so lonely in my zeal for the Lord

More and more light on how blinded Christians are to the teachings of Jesus Christ

People get lost and frustrated struggling with the effects in their life rather than the cause

I woke up with negativity, doubt and some fear that tempted me again to give up

I have so much proof now that you don't have to give in to the feelings

Trusting God by putting down your own will vs trusting God when you have no other choice

The main purpose of the pain that comes from denial of self

I went from being a person who people said, "Man, I can't have faith like that, to man, "I don't want faith like that!"

Where are the men who will trust God? Where are the Christians who will trust God like this?

One day people will be lined up to see what God did in my life, but now they say I'm a fool

People are afraid of the trust and surrender I have in my life so they discredit me

I often wake up feeling negative and I see that faith is almost like a habit that must be cultivated and practiced

Convicted about how poorly training most of us Christians are after watching a movie about two Mormon missionaries

The desperate need for understanding among so many Christians

The companion of fools comes to ruin hence why so many Christians come to ruin

Inquiring of the Lord as to how I should respond to another legal letter I receive about the music license legal threats

Many Christians play the fool and spend thousands to sue others in the court of man rather than fighting the real battle which is spiritual

Father shows me back to back 525 and 919 regarding how I should respond to the legal threats

More torment from another Laura lookalike

Two of the main guys in my Bible study turn against me on the same day and say I'm misguided and not hearing from God

Perseverance is making me much stronger than Michael Chriswell has ever been

The only thing that matters to me any more is obeying and doing God's will

I have lost my life and thus I have found it in Christ

Inquiring of the Lord as to how I should respond to another legal letter I receive about the music license legal threats

Many Christians play the fool and spend thousands to sue others in the court of man rather than fighting the real battle which is spiritual

Father shows me back to back 525 and 919 regarding how I should respond to the legal threats

More torment from another Laura lookalike

Two of the main guys in my Bible study turn against me on the same day and say I'm misguided and not hearing from God

Perseverance is making me much stronger than Michael Chriswell has ever been

The only thing that matters to me any more is obeying and doing God's will

I have lost my life and thus I have found it in Christ

The missing teaching of what it takes to find your identity truly in Christ

More painful parental alienation as my ex-wife dodges me being able to have calls with the children

Increasing gratitude for the sufferings of Christ flowing into my life

While watching the Passion of Christ I realize, even if I never seen my children again in this life, if we all overcome in Christ, we will be together forever in heaven.

Satan and our flesh always wants to think, "It's Now or never!" Yet, by the Spirit, we must learn to fix our hope fully on the grace to be given us when Christ returns

My entire ministry is shut down by another copyright strike

An important divine encounter with a brother stuck in sin who can't forgive himself

An encouraging meeting with two elderly ladies, one of which is a widow and her husband's name was Mike and he died the same year that Laura's husband died

God uses an Oswald Chambers devotion to confirm all this suffering is from Him for my sanctification

Confront my friend about the Egyptian relics he has all over his house and how they make God jealous

People compare God's speaking voice to me, but they don't compare their suffering and obedience to mine

Realizing how so many "Christians" are ignorant in their daily lives of the things God finds detestable or dishonorable in their life

Conceding defeat to my "enemy" the music composer who has successfully taken down my entire ministry

Extraordinary moment of prayer in the middle of a tall corn field where heaven felt so close

The greatest evidence that God is everything He says He is is what He has done in my heart in the face of losing everything, not when He gives me some of that back

The men in my Bible study are becoming increasingly fearful of the suffering they see in my life

God continues to bless me beyond measure using me in the lives of people while I'm homeless.

My life now proves to me when God is all you have, you find out God is all you need and you can be happy and content with God alone.

I come under strong temptation after watching the story video I did for my friend in his business and seeing the Laura look alike again

Praying that God would never allow any future circumstances good or bad that would prevent me from having the closeness I have with Him.

Finally getting to the place where I want God Himself far more than I want any of His blessings

A man in my Bible study opens up about a life changing encounter of brokenness he had before the Lord and then he attributed it to our Bible study

I continue to have great joy during my homelessness as I continue to obey and do the work God asked me to do

In spite of my increasingly bad circumstance I am experiencing an incredible increase in peace and joy in my heart

People notice that I'm not interested in talking about myself, but only interested in them

The men in my Bible study are asking, "What does it mean for us, if God doesn't come through for Michael?"

Everything in my life which I acquired outside of His will has turned to ashes

How easy it would be to manipulate my life right now with either a dating website or even starting my old business

I feel above all things that I am fighting for God's glory...the impact of other trusting Him through my example

Not allowing myself to be overwhelmed by how long God's deliverance might take, but taking it day by day

What could my faith walk mean to my children's children one day?

Extraordinary signs with the numbers to confirm my wife when I needed it

Commentary: When God has something better planned

Crying over the initial reality of being homeless as it hits me hard

It looks like God has forsaken me, but by faith, I know that He has not

I can finally identify with the homelessness of my Lord Jesus Christ who had no place to lay his head

Commentary: There will be a famine after the promise of blessing

A very bizarre encounter with a strange man at Panera Bread

My friend lets me spend the night in his office after spending one night in my car

Filled with joy the second morning of being homeless

When asking the Lord if I can get a job, He immediately shows me a 909 and 919

I have a dream that my ex-wife admitted to me that she had an affair with our old boss

My routine is gone and it brings suffering. I respond by thanking God for what I do have.

Realizing in a sad moment how far away I am from my wife of noble character now.

Thinking of how many friends and family could say of me, "Where is his God now?"

Feeling such a temptation to save myself, but my faith is greater than my doubt.

See 919 three times in the morning and then later my mom asks me to sleep in the new house

See a book by a theologian that says God approves of Homosexuality in the New Covenant

Link mentioned in Part 5 regarding Homosexuality:

Feel down and icky after my mom blows up at me and it's now affecting my mood and my faith with only a few days left

I'm having to really fight to keep my faith encouraged right now

Being shown an offensive joke on the internet that causes me to laugh and then violates my conscience afterwards

Striving to be mindful of my holiness in inappropriate situations

Enduring another one of those Satanic attack days that you just have to persevere and get through

There are days when you feel like the promises of God are a million miles away or not even real

How I feel and how I deal with these kinds of days

July 8th, 2014 The last day I have to find a place to live before I'm homeless

Remarkable peace in the face of a desperate situation

Reflecting on the mistakes of Abraham and Sarah with Hagar in my last hours of having a place to live to keep me from trying to save myself

Commentary: How important it is to pass the Lord's tests

God's timing is never too later and never too early. His timing is perfect!

Encouraging myself in these final hours of this epic test of my faith

I found myself thanking the Lord again this morning for the suffering

I am unwilling to disobey the Lord no matter how much discomfort I face

Taking my struggles and negative thoughts about my mom to the Lord in prayer

It is pride that wants to defend itself

I'm losing my need to be apologized to and to be vindicated

How do I honor my mom when she's not living in a way that's honorable?

Asking the Lord for wisdom on how to respond to this

It becomes so evident to me why the Lord has allowed me to go so long with no money

Commentary: Enmity between the children of God and the children of Satan and learning to distinguish between the two

No one who is born of God will continue to sin

The difference between falling into a sin vs living in and practicing sin

Letter: "I love my spouse enough to die for them, but am I willing to go to hell for them?"

Commentary continued on getting free from all sin in the Lord Jesus Christ

See 666, 15 min later my mother attacks me.

What joy I feel knowing that the Lord is still guiding me and speaking to me and how this lets me know that God is aware of and OK with all the other bad circumstances going on in my life, like being behind on child support.

The things that are happening which are making my mother so mad at me

UNBELIEVABLE peace and faith, in the face of DIRE last minute circumstances

Many thoughts and lessons on all the adversity I've been through

Thoughts on knowing the Lord like I do now

Many instructions to the Chriswell children about how to Know God