The people trying so hard to prove or disprove God vs. the people who are actually walking with Him each day.

Faith vs Feelings and how many times I can feel doubt in my flesh and faith in my spirit at the exact same time

Examples of how money is the master of many and yet they do not know it

We must obey the written words of our Lord before we can expect Him to speak personal words to us by His Spirit

Another incredible encounter and prayer time with a young couple on the trail Dominique and Kelly

Mom offer me a summer job, but I already have a job full time working for the Lord and God shows me 919 while I was talking to my mom

Experiencing what Charles Stanley has taught about on prayer, in my actual experience

Confronting the false doctrine Charles Stanley teaches that there is a difference between "believers" and "disciples"

666 Warning and then 15 minutes later my mom screamed at me like the devil was in her

I begin to wonder if God may introduce me to Laura again on the 777th day

Increasing frustrations from my mother as God's plans for my life , and she flies into a rage against me

Realization about how leaky our hearts are and how critical daily Bible reading is

God calls me to the mountain again with a 646 and then gives me another wonderful encounter

Revelations about these divine encounters I keep having

Learning of God's perfect timing and direction and to join Him in His work by listening to His promptings

Describing how parental alienation happens and how it feels

Chelsea is afraid of being put to shame when she goes back to school because the whole class prayed that she was going to get to come to my house for the Summer

Seeing the parental alienation increase over the telephone

Asking ourselves where is the evidence from heaven's perspective that we believe God beyond just our words?

What are the evidences of your dying with Christ from heaven's perspective?

A rare recording of one of my prayers with only 7 days left until I have to move out of my parent’s house

Feeling so sad after a very disappointing call with my children

Trying to explain to Chelsea the truth about why I couldn't come get them this Summer after her grandfather lied to her

When I tell my mom I can't move in the new house she says, "Now I know you aren't hearing from God correctly"

God does a wonderful thing and gives me $150 the next day after I decided I would spend every penny of the $150 I had in my account on my children

The Lord calls me up the mountain and I have a chance encounter

Realizing God so orders my steps that when I'm supposed to meet Laura it will be easy for Him to connect us

Counsel to single friends of mine who have put themselves in a very foolish position

God warns me in a dream about one of the men in my Bible study that a companion of fools comes to ruin

The Lord shows me Scriptures to encourage me that He will deliver me, bless me, persevere and He loves me and is proud of me

I now have a final 3 weeks to go until I have to be out of my parent's house

Another man shows up at my Bible study who is there for the wrong reasons

I have a strong desire to reach out to InTouch Ministries and see if I can use Charles Stanley's teaching in my ministry to teach the principles behind my stories

So blessed to receive an anonymous check for $210 when I only had $50 in my account.

Satan uses my mom again to try to discourage me and get me to think about quit doing my videos

Feel strong doubts about my story video and the approach I'm taking

Feeling so sad after a very disappointing call with my children

Trying to explain to Chelsea the truth about why I couldn't come get them this Summer after her grandfather lied to her

When I tell my mom I can't move in the new house she says, "Now I know you aren't hearing from God correctly"

God does a wonderful thing and gives me $150 the next day after I decided I would spend every penny of the $150 I had in my account on my children

The Lord calls me up the mountain and I have a chance encounter

Realizing God so orders my steps that when I'm supposed to meet Laura it will be easy for Him to connect us

Counsel to single friends of mine who have put themselves in a very foolish position

God warns me in a dream about one of the men in my Bible study that a companion of fools comes to ruin

The Lord shows me Scriptures to encourage me that He will deliver me, bless me, persevere and He loves me and is proud of me

I now have a final 3 weeks to go until I have to be out of my parent's house

Another man shows up at my Bible study who is there for the wrong reasons

I have a strong desire to reach out to InTouch Ministries and see if I can use Charles Stanley's teaching in my ministry to teach the principles behind my stories

So blessed to receive an anonymous check for $210 when I only had $50 in my account.

Satan uses my mom again to try to discourage me and get me to think about quit doing my videos

Feel strong doubts about my story video and the approach I'm taking

Feeling temptation after meeting two other Laura "look a likes" back to back downtown and then I run from the temptation

It makes me sad to think I'm being tempted and it's getting harder and harder to wait

Feeling frustrated...asking, "Why are so many women who look like Laura showing up suddenly"

The distractions of being single

Insights I'm learning on temptation from Charles Stanley

The Lord is showing me 919's and 525's to show me I can't even move in my parent's new house temporarily

Commentary on the "Blessing of Job" being on my life, but for spiritual blessings, not temporal

I keep thinking more and more about Laura and I'm amazed I've waited this long

Parental alienation is increasing over the phone

Counseling a man in my Bible study about the obstacles to receiving clear guidance from God

I want people to see that they can go directly to God and have a relationship with Him without needing to go to a man

My main purpose in life is to get people to take God seriously

Commentary about the fulfillment of Chelsea's dream...she is being isolated from me

The Lord seems to be making it clear that I am not to move into my parent's new house

My testimony and story are coming right out of the Bible...this is amazing!

Recalling the many instances of God telling me to deny myself and to wait and do what does NOT make sense

Realizing Father doesn't want my mother to be able to take credit for bailing me out and saving me at the last minute

A friend testifies that he notices I never want to talk about myself when we are together and that it’s only me listening about him

Deep Biblical insights from a Bible study in 1 Samuel on the principles which were at work between King Saul and David and which are now at work in my own life and battle right now with my ex-wife

Realizing how much longer my waiting on the Lord has been than I expected...three years and counting and still NOTHING has changed

The fear that comes over my mind about missing out on good years with my future wife and the important years of my children's lives

The Lie of "God has not done anything for you...your situation is not changed...forget about the promise and move on."

Trying to capture as many word pictures as I can about what it has been like to walk so long through darkness, knowing these recordings will one day bless others to keep trusting in God through their long periods of waiting in the darkness

Better understanding of what it means to be "More than conquerors" in Christ Romans 8:37

The shocking similarities between Saul's false repentance towards David and my ex-wife's false repentance towards me

God uses the disobedient around us to shape us and conform us more into the image of Christ

Realizing God has blessed me with so much grace that I could even take back my ex-wife who has done so much evil to me, if she truly repented

Like Joseph, until the words of the Lord come true, the word of the Lord is testing me

The paradox of living by Faith being so easy and yet so very hard

Another divine encounter with a man I've seen and given my card too before

I went from feeling down in the dumps to elation after the Lord shows me two 955's (a wife of noble character is her husband's crown)

A major blessing of full surrender is the how the Lord blesses you in your heart

The Laura look alike drives right in front of me while I'm talking about Laura in my recording

Reasoning with my mother about fake healings and being slain in the "Spirit"

Moving in to just thanking God for what He will do rather than just always asking

Feeling very content to just wait and let Him do what He wants when He wants

He is my everything and I'm so thankful to have Him in my life and for making Himself known to me

Commentary about children of flesh and blood vs spiritual children

The parental alienation is increasing and the Lord is telling me stay put

Endure hardship as discipline from the Lord

A precious lessons to my 7 year old Ashley about what it means to "Deny yourself"

I have peace that God is going to one day make this all good

How I see the exact promise of Jeremiah 17:5-8 coming true in my life right now and God confirms it at church

Friends and family tell me that I have a legal right to get a Sheriff and see my children, but I have no peace about doing that. Jesus said, "If someone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back."

Lessons and insights on Waiting for God's very best

Commentary explaining about the house my parents bought as a "ministry" to help people like me

My mother says she hopes God changes my mind about not being able to move in the house

Feeling very very frustrated with my sinuses because I feel so sick

Feeling the pressure of my mom wanting me to move in the house

Realizing I need to go to the mountain for God's help and to repent of my grumbling out loud about my frustrations

I worry more about the condition of my faith than I do my bad circumstances

Frustrated about the small amount of subscribers and small impact I'm making

My feelings are saying just quit and be mad at God

How can you know if you are waiting on God or just waiting on nothing?

One of the darkest moments I've been through in my Christianity so far...less hope than I've ever had

Realizing my Father has backed up from me intentionally and that's how I'm growing

God blesses me in the most amazing way, showing me it was 9 months to the day AGAIN between the day I fully surrendered to God and the day my ex-wife filed for divorce.

There is nothing more strengthening to our faith walk than to see and understand the Sovereignty of God

Making a connection to Paul saying "Satan has prevented me from coming to you" to the fact that Satan has prevented me from seeing my children

My mom is more and more coming around towards the truth and I'm excited to watch it

Issues I see with the promotion of the Holy Spirit in the Charismatic church

I see a new number 19:19 that God will deliver me and people will know that He is the Lord

God is starting to open my mom's eyes to my life of faith when she reads a book about a Doctor who has had a very similar journey of faith as mine

God shows me a new number 19:19 which is 2 Kings 19:19 to show me that He will deliver me and vindicate me to everyone

The strong temptation to provide yourself with pain relief when things aren't going as well or as fast as you would like

While thanking God in advance of His deliverance He shows me another 555 (I will deliver you from page 555 in my Bible)

Tyler finally tells me how he feels about the parental alienation

My reminding Tyler how BIG God is and that He is in control of all of this

Feeling tired and tempted to look at other women and insights about the war between the wretched flesh and Spirit

What my response is when I find my sexual appetite becoming a distraction and when greater temptation comes

There are times when everything in me wants to completely doubt God and say that I have misheard Him and I don't deserve to be delivered out of the situation I am in and I'm foolish to keep waiting for God to show up and deliver me

The story of the woman in church whose husband left, moved out of the country, got a woman pregnant and yet she is still waiting for him to come back years later

God's blessings can be seen in my heart even though not in my circumstances

A friend of mine opens up about his struggle to understand my finances and my inability to see my children

The sadness of being prevented from seeing the children for the Summer finally hits me and yet my faith is growing in the fire

My parents offer me $10,000 towards my child support in hopes of being able to get my ex-wife to let us have the children for the Summer, but I am unable to take it.

Explaining to my parents why God has allowed all of this to happen to me and why He has given me this particular suffering

I don't like these circumstances, but I love my God and I love what He is doing to my heart and I hate my natural self and yearn to be more like Jesus Christ

How can I be mad at my enemy when God is using her to do so much good in my life

Against all hope, my faith has become so strong that I couldn't give up on God even if I wanted to

Disciplining myself to do what I do not feel like doing

How I get myself through those dark and trying days where I just feel like junk

My real frustration when I see someone struggling for so long to get some basic in the Christian life

The horrific thought that I have influenced people or even discipled people who are going to still burn in hell forever

One of my strategies that has kept me overcoming all that Satan dishes out is the fact that I am always in the Word of God

A man in my Bible study is confused and wants to know why I can't take the money from my parents and I explain to him the money is coming from fear not faith