This week’s episode isn’t about trends, trolls, or gear. It’s about something quieter — the part of you that refuses to give up, even when the work feels impossible.

We explore the idea of creative resistance, the myth of “falling behind,” and why showing up (even in small ways) is its own kind of creative power. There’s a story about trees, Biosphere 2, and why life’s “wind” might be shaping you more than you think.

We also talk about:

• The reality of trying to make work while making rent.
• How surviving is creative.
• Why creative seasons matter (even the dormant ones).
• Lessons from Toni Morrison, Gregory Heisler, and Joe McNally.

This one’s for anyone who’s tired, unsure, or just needs a reminder that still being here — still caring, still seeing — is enough.

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You’re not missing a magic lens. There’s no course, preset pack, or algorithm trick that’s secretly holding you back. The truth is less glamorous — but way more powerful.

In this episode, Patrick peels back the myth of overnight success and calls out the industry’s obsession with shortcuts. Through stories from world-class kitchens, overlooked jazz clubs, and forgotten film sets, he explores why consistency beats charisma — and how real careers are built, not handed out.

If you’ve ever wondered when your “break” is coming, this one’s for you.

What You’ll Hear

1. Why the most successful creatives aren’t the flashiest
2.  Five habits that actually move the needle (and none of them involve reels)
3. The story of a chef who listened — and made a memory
4. What it means to show up when no one’s watching
5. How invisible work becomes your reputation

Creative Challenge

Audit your last 5 shoots. Did you…

• Show up fully?
• Solve problems?
• Listen?
• Bring kindness into the room?

No shame. Just an invitation to recommit. This isn’t about perfection. It’s about muscle memory.

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In this raw and unflinching episode, Patrick explores the psychology behind creative self-doubt and why your inner critic might be the biggest obstacle to your growth. Drawing from neuroscience research and brutally honest personal stories, this episode tackles the uncomfortable truths about self-criticism that most creative podcasts won't touch.

Warning: This episode contains frank discussions about mental health, financial anxiety, and the psychological realities of creative work. It's designed for mature audiences who want real talk, not feel-good platitudes.

Key Topics Covered

The Neuroscience of Self-Sabotage

• Why your brain is wired to focus on negativity (5:1 ratio)
• How rumination hijacks your mental bandwidth
• The evolution from dramatic self-torture to quiet resignation

The Economics of Self-Doubt

• How class background affects creative confidence
• Why self-doubt gets worse when money is tight
• The hidden costs of financial insecurity on artistic judgment

Uncomfortable Truths About Creative Culture

• Client enablement of perfectionism
• The "natural talent" myth exposed
• People-pleasing as disguised fear
• Why suffering doesn't equal depth

Practical Damage Control

• The 10-minute suffering limit technique
• Evidence-based reality testing
• How to separate creative concerns from financial anxiety
• The 10-10-10 rule for perspective

Personal Stories Featured

• The automotive campaign that Patrick assumed was a failure (spoiler: it wasn't)
• Why he had to hire an editor to select his own portfolio images
• The year-long assumption of client disappointment based on radio silence
• The self-fulfilling prophecy of boundary issues and burnout

Research Referenced

• Dr. Peter Grinspoon (Harvard Health): Rumination as "counterproductive brooding"
• Dr. Manju Antil: The psychology of "mental masturbation"
• Neuroscience findings: Amygdala processing speeds and negativity bias
• Default mode network: How your brain rehearses failures during downtime

Quotes from This Episode

"Your inner critic isn't sharpening you. It's using you. It doesn't want better art. It wants blood."

"Sometimes we choose misery because it's familiar. Because if we fail while already hating ourselves, at least we saw it coming."

"The critic doesn't need to scream anymore. It just quietly assumes the worst, and you've stopped arguing with it."

"You're not short on skill. You're short on the courage to suck long enough to get good."

Episode Challenge

Pick a project you've been avoiding because it scares you. Set a timer for one hour and work on it without judgment. When the inner critic starts up, acknowledge it and keep moving. When the timer goes off, stop—no evaluation, no spiraling.

Bonus challenge: Reach out to a client who went radio silent after you delivered work. Ask how they liked it. You might be surprised by the answer.

Content Warnings

• Frank discussions of mental health struggles
• References to financial anxiety and class issues
• Honest examination of self-destructive thought patterns
• Brief mention of suicide (Kurt Cobain reference)

Resources Mentioned

• Lessons From a Terrible Photographer (Patrick's book)
• Harvard Health Publishing articles on rumination
• Research on repetitive negative thinking and creativity

Who This Episode Is For

• Photographers struggling with perfectionism and self-doubt
• Creative professionals dealing with imposter syndrome
• Anyone who's ever spent hours "fixing" work that was already good
• People who want honest conversations about the psychological side of creative work

Who This Episode Is NOT For

• Anyone looking for surface-level motivation or feel-good content
• Listeners uncomfortable with discussions of mental health
• People seeking traditional business or technical photography advice

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If this episode resonated with you, share it with someone who needs to hear it. Mental health in creative industries matters, and these conversations save careers—and sometimes lives.

Website: http://terriblephotographer.com
Instagram: @terriblephotographer
Book: Lessons From a Terrible Photographer — https://www.terriblephotographer.com/the-book
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Episode Photo by David Matos | Unsplash

Note: This podcast is obviously not a substitute for professional mental health treatment. If you're struggling with persistent negative thoughts or depression, please consult a qualified mental health professional.

Patrick calls out the toxic gatekeeping culture that's suffocating creativity in photography — and offers a better way forward for anyone tired of comment-section warriors and gear snobs who've confused being an asshole with having standards.

Episode Summary

From unsolicited critique bros to insecure middle-aged men treating Instagram like academic journals, photography has a gatekeeping problem. This episode explores why photographers can be unnecessarily cruel, how it stems from fear and insecurity, and why the most successful photographers are actually the most generous.

Patrick shares his own experience of being publicly torn apart for a simple business post, reveals his moments of being "that guy" himself, and introduces a framework for filtering feedback that could revolutionize how you handle criticism.

Key Topics Covered

The Gatekeeping Problem

• Why photography culture has become toxically hierarchical
• How fear and insecurity drive cruel behavior online
• The difference between constructive critique and ego-driven attacks

The Psychology Behind Photographer Dickishness

• Callback to Episode 1's "Mount Stupid" concept and Dunning-Kruger effect
• Elizabeth Gilbert's "hungry ghost" — the insatiable ego that feeds on diminishing others
• Why problem-solving instincts can turn toxic without self-awareness

The Feedback Filtering System

• Industry experts: When to listen and take notes
• Peer review: Valuable insights vs. armchair quarterbacking
• General audience: Gut reactions are gold, technical opinions are noise
• Your inner critic: The giant prick who sees flaws invisible to everyone else

What Successful Photographers Actually Do

• Why the most talented photographers are the most generous
• How kindness and collaboration build sustainable careers
• The difference between confidence and cruelty

Key Quotes

This Week's Challenge

Say something kind. Find a photographer whose work you genuinely admire and tell them why — specifically, thoughtfully. Offer encouragement to someone newer than you instead of unsolicited advice.

And if you catch yourself about to post that clever criticism, that technical correction, that snarky observation — pause. Ask yourself: Is this making the photography community better, or am I just trying to feel superior?

Resources Mentioned

• Elizabeth Gilbert (Author of "Big Magic" and the "hungry ghost" concept)
• Dunning-Kruger Effect (Psychological phenomenon from Episode 1)
• "Mount Stupid" (Framework introduced in Episode 1)

Connect

• Website: http://terriblephotographer.com
• Instagram: @terriblephotographer
• Book: Lessons From a Terrible Photographer — https://www.terriblephotographer.com/the-book
• Newsletter: Sign up for Field Notes and get access to "The Darkroom" — exclusive resources and extra content —  https://www.terriblephotographer.com/darkroom-download

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Episode Photo by Brando Makes Branding | Unsplash

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Choose the kind of photographer you want to be — choose the one who lifts others up.

Welcome to the first episode of The Terrible Photographer — a podcast for working photographers and creative humans who are done with fake positivity, influencer bullshit, and pretending they have it all figured out.

Episode Summary

Patrick shares the brutal Clubhouse critique that sparked this entire podcast, explores why "terrible" might be the most important phase of your creative development, and introduces the psychological framework every photographer needs to understand: Mount Stupid vs. The Valley of Despair.

This episode sets the foundation for the entire series — examining the messy, honest, human side of making art while trying to survive.

Key Topics Covered

The Clubhouse Origin Story

• How a pandemic-era app became a creative lifeline
• The 22-year-old photography student who delivered the harsh truth
• Why sometimes brutal honesty is exactly what we need

Creative Confidence vs. Competence

• The motorcycle metaphor that explains everything
• "Mount Stupid" — when ego outpaces ability
• "Valley of Despair" — when taste develops faster than skill
• How to navigate both phases without losing your mind

Building Authentic Confidence

• Master your tools until they become extensions of your vision
• Put in the hours — there are no shortcuts to mastery
• Study the masters, ignore everyone else's noise

The Psychology of Creative Growth

• Why the journey isn't a straight line from beginner to master
• How to embrace "terrible" as a necessary phase
• The difference between copying others and finding your voice

Key Quotes

This Week's Challenge

Make something you're not sure about. Not something you know will perform. Make something that's unfinished, too personal, a little uncomfortable. Then sit with it and ask yourself — what am I actually trying to say with this?

You don't have to post it. You don't have to show anyone. But make it. Because that's the muscle you need to build — the willingness to be terrible in service of something true.

Coming Up This Season

• The psychology behind creative growth phases
• Learning from masters vs. learning from peers
• When gear becomes a creative crutch vs. a creative tool
• Navigating burnout without losing your creative voice
• Why "terrible" photographers often become the most authentic ones

About Patrick Fore

Patrick is a commercial photographer who shoots brands, portraits, and campaigns. He's also someone who spends an embarrassing amount of time questioning whether what he's making actually matters. Previously lead photographer at Taylor Guitars, Patrick has experienced both the creative highs and soul-crushing lows of working in the photography industry.

Resources Mentioned

• Clubhouse (the pandemic-era audio app that started it all)
• Jeff Lipsky (photographer whose versatility across genres inspired the original comment)
• Dunning-Kruger Effect (the psychological phenomenon behind "Mount Stupid")

Connect

• Website: http://terriblephotographer.com
• Instagram: @terriblephotographer
• Patrick's (The Host) Instagram: @patrickfore
• Book: Lessons From a Terrible Photographer — https://www.terriblephotographer.com/the-book
• Newsletter: Sign up for Field Notes for free resources and extra content — https://the-terrible-photographer.kit.com/223fe471fb

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If this episode hit somewhere between doubt and inspiration, share it with a fellow creative who's out there trying to figure it out too. We're just getting started — and we're glad you found it.

A show about creativity, survival, and making work that actually means something.

Hosted by commercial photographer and reluctant philosopher Patrick Fore, this podcast isn’t about gear, presets, or going viral. It’s about the tension of making honest work in a curated world — and what it means to stay inspired when you're burned out, broke, or creatively adrift.

Every episode blends storytelling, creative coaching, and just enough sarcasm to keep it human. You’ll find tales of test shoots and client chaos, deep dives into visual identity and artistic voice, and unexpected detours into topics like burnout, authenticity, failure, and the science behind creativity.

This show is for working photographers, half-working photographers, and anyone who’s ever wondered if they’re too late, too tired, or too weird to make something great.

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