A warning up front that this episode contains mentions of suicide, if you need support contact Lifeline: 131114. At his lowest moment, Shaun O'Gorman spent three nights with a loaded glock pistol by his side in bed trying to think of reasons not to end his life. On the outside, he was a tough, thick-skinned cop, but on the inside, the job was getting to him.

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