This chapter talks about the gay LGBT culture and gay sex scene dysfunctions and ways to construct new healthier meanings around identity. The start of my drinking career after getting into a dysfunctional gay relationship and moving to New Orleans

My paranoid delusions of imminent threats from my environment and investigation on religious philosophy on creating patterns in daily life that lead to happiness

The fight that turned physical and psychotic all in a matter of minutes. Funding my own company suitable over love that hurts

This details the trip to Alexandria to visit my long lost paternal family and how this was the impetus to healing negative family Karma.

Trying to break free out of family karma that hinders, by understanding my family dynamic. Reuniting with my estranged family on my father side and pulling more skeletons out the closet to my broken family.

This chapter details my indoctrination into the Buddhist faith and membership in the Buddhist organization, where i learned to chant, meditate, and reflect on those character flaws that were preventing me from growing and developing self pride.

Reckless Endangerment is about my NY nightlife party habits and how my drinking wound me in unwanted altercations and fights with strangers. Break up to Make up is about how my debauchery lead me to finding a boyfriend who turned out to be the impetus to rethinking how i was loving myself

The chapter details making a new homosexual friend who teaches me the ropes of the NY gay scene and how sex and liquor culminated a life of dysfunction and excessive licentiousness.

Real, uncut, unapologetic, uncensored, details about my journey fighting addiction, self-hate, mental illness, family trauma, identity confusion, to eventually find a spiritual guide to reconciling past hurts and ultimately loving myself