Recently, when I heard someone verbalize a question from my youth, I was reminded that I have never hear anyone else answer that question the way I do. I
When I first stumbled upon the question, I kept looking until I found an answer that satisfied my doubts. I offer that answer to you. Not in hopes that you will adopt it, but as encouragement to believe that you are free to keep honestly questioning anything about God until you find an answer that truly satisfies you.