Unprocessed

I rather eat the couscous off the floor than own the desire to eat couscous at the beginning of the meal.

This episode is about the denial of satiety, the feeling that comes with having a need fully met. I explore why fullness is triggering, and how our relationship with being fully fed plays out on our relationship with food.

How does the food we eat/not eat become SO powerful? How does restricting our needs help us to feel less deprivation and why is having a full cup sometimes more painful then having an empty one?

Listen in to look at the science of how our punishment and reward systems get wired on food and how to differentiate between our cravings and our desires. Sit with me while I sit with the question:

How gratuitous can I let myself be?

How big can I let my hunger be? 

This episode is about the relationship between control and rage.

I share about how I took up late night Swiffering when I wanted to contain the mess, when I really needed to get messier instead.

Constriction feels safest when it’s the norm.

How can your body experience freedom and unleash, when that’s so unfamiliar to it?

This week I talk about how I learned to gain power and strength to self-denial, how that led to my over-functioning in relationships, which in turn enabled others to under-function (making me mad).

We will learn together what makes it so hard to own our needs and develop a language around them—how painful it is to finally acknowledge them, and then risk them not being met. Restriction can be a good way to not feel in the face of big wanting.

When my husband said he "just wants me to be happy," I wanted to pin the responsibility on him, but I knew I couldn't, it wasn't his work, it was my work to create space for more joy.

This episode is about the complex work of figuring out what needs must be met by the relationship, and which ones to be met outside of it.

It's also a story of connection hunger and anger about that lack of connection--for those of us that didn't have major connection needs met, we can put that voracity onto our partners. How do we normalize women flipping out about all we've carried emotionally, have our men witness it, but not do all the work of healing it?

This is a question I contemplated for nearly a year after my 3rd baby was born. I stopped being able to orgasm vaginally, my 2 year old commented on how my vagina was different from hers, and I began to fear that pleasure and vitality, as I knew them, were gone.

In this episode, you will hear me share how shifting the question from "what is wrong with me?" to "what went wrong for me?" allowed me to find what was really underneath the broken vagina predicament.

You will hear a feminist psychotherapeutic perspective on comparing the body to molds outside of it, in order to avoid feelings within it.