Utar Chadhav

eric and raji met in the summer of 2009 at a party. For raji meeting eric changed the course of their life. eric brought an intentionality that raji always craved for. They started having candid conversations about pleasure and desire. Last year raji asked eric if he would want to record a conversation about pleasure and inspiration the next time they met. 

And so in May of 2025, they went camping and recorded this conversation over the course of two days. 

What does infusing joy and intentionality in our day to day lives, in our relationships look like? What does the journey look like and what does looking back at our younger selves, teach us and/or remind us about what we have always valued? How do we discern purpose that is imposed on us vs. purpose that grows from learning from experiences and influences we are open to?

Here’s to the joys of loitering and time traveling!

Let us know where this conversation transports you in your own journey. Listen with a friend, and engage with these questions:

Who taught you how to have fun? What is your pleasure lineage? (borrowed from Pleasure Activism by amb). 

Something you used to believe about pleasure and desire that doesn’t serve you any more? (borrowed from we are not really strangers XXX)

What does sober joy look like when we are talking about pleasure?

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This season we are diving into conversations on pleasure and inspiration. We are excited to show you the process of how different conversations become one complete episode. 

Join us as we bring to you raw snippets with a lot of ummm-hmmm you would otherwise not hear from our conversations, straight from our new studio space for your auditory pleasure.

Co-Hosts: eric and raji

Production, Audio, Mixing: raji and Saru

Follow @UtarChadhav on social media for more information:

www.utarchadhav.com/jabwemet

Music is a source of pleasure and inspiration but what does the उतार चढाव of inspiration and pleasure look like, feel like, for a singer and songwriter? In this conversation SJ speaks with their friend Sajen who is a musician and a singer releasing their first song “Kaalpanik Fulbaari” tomorrow, Friday June 20th!

The conversation takes us through Sajen’s journey of many becomings--

becoming a singer, a song writer, an artist. Listen to this heartfelt conversation about a journey of many discoveries.

From UC को process loving team to all of you who listen and support us, we hope you enjoy this wonderful conversation. We hope it moves you to find joy in the different ways you love to create. 

Let us know where this conversation transports you to!

Listen/Watch Sajen’s music on: ⁠https://www.youtube.com/@SajenShresthaOfficial⁠

Listen to the full episode here: https://www.utarchadhav.com/

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This season we are diving into conversations on pleasure and inspiration. We are excited to show you the process of how different conversations become one complete episode. 

Join us as we bring to you raw snippets with a lot of ummm-hmmm you would otherwise not hear from our conversations, straight from our new studio space for your auditory pleasure.

Co-Hosts: SJ and Sajen

Ep. Art, Production, Audio, Mixing: Utar Chadhav

Follow @UtarChadhav on social media for more information:

Website: ⁠www.utarchadhav.com⁠

Music is a source of pleasure and inspiration but what does the उतार चढाव of inspiration and pleasure look like, feel like, for a singer and songwriter? In this conversation SJ speaks with their friend Sajen who is a musician and a singer releasing their first song “Kaalpanik Fulbaari” tomorrow, Friday June 20th!

The conversation takes us through Sajen’s journey of many becomings--

becoming a singer, a song writer, an artist. Listen to this heartfelt conversation about a journey of many discoveries.

From UC को process loving team to all of you who listen and support us, we hope you enjoy this wonderful conversation. We hope it moves you to find joy in the different ways you love to create. 

Let us know where this conversation transports you to!

Listen/Watch Sajen’s music on: https://www.youtube.com/@SajenShresthaOfficial

Listen to the full episode here: https://www.utarchadhav.com/

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This season we are diving into conversations on pleasure and inspiration. We are excited to show you the process of how different conversations become one complete episode. 

Join us as we bring to you raw snippets with a lot of ummm-hmmm you would otherwise not hear from our conversations, straight from our new studio space for your auditory pleasure.

Co-Hosts: SJ and Sajen

Ep. Art, Production, Audio, Mixing: Utar Chadhav

Follow @UtarChadhav on social media for more information:

Website: www.utarchadhav.com

The love for letters, discovering our favourite writers and sharing our collective rage and grief, we have come to realize pleasure is not a linear feeling, nor inspiration a one way street . Listen to Navin in conversation with raji as they talk about how words, poetry and literature inspire us. The conversation loiters into many tangents as घत लाग्दो conversations often do. Intentional गफिने प्रयास as you know UC को लक्ष नै हो। So here’s a conversation for you to engage with. Here’s to the love of tangents and intentional गफ!

Let us know where this conversation transports you to!

#utarchadhav #mentalhealthmatters #invitingrage #ilovereading #griefandpleasure

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This season we are diving into conversations on pleasure and inspiration. We are excited to show you the process of how different conversations become one complete episode. 

Join us as we bring to you raw snippets with a lot of ummm-hmmm you would otherwise not hear from our conversations, straight from our new studio space for your auditory pleasure.

Co-Hosts: Navin, Raji

Production, Audio, Mixing and Ep. Art by: Saru

Follow @UtarChadhav on social media for more information:

Website: www.utarchadhav.com

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Language and the written word are powerful. 

Listen to a conversation between SJ and Akh, besties and co-conspirators coming together to talk about the dating scene, sharing ज्ञान  that they have learned from experience which you will surely resonate with. As you listen, think about people in your life you can start these conversations with. 

Here at UC, in our own exploration of sex, intimacy, touch, consent we thought साथीहरुको साथ ले नै यो conversation अगाडि बढ्छ। 

Enjoy this heartfelt, funny conversation that centers letting in all sorts of pleasure and making sure shame and guilt never get an upper-hand. 

#pleasure #bdsm #kink #onlinedating #friendship #utarchadhav #asmr #goodconversations #notoshame #queeringdesire

Listen to this fun, musical and inspiring conversation between Saru and Suneeta Regmi, senior advocate who has been part of the Utar Chadhav journey from the very very beginning!

Our lives are multi-storied and we are transported to many possibilities of inspiration and pleasure when we come from a place of curiosity and tentativeness. What is revealed then is a knowing of what moves us, what helps us notice the little-little things that makes our life inspiring to reflect upon. 

As a facilitator, as a mother, teacher of law and whose comfort space is litigating in court, listen to suneeta share her journey and Saru witnessing and reflecting back in what is a beautiful testament to the pleasure in reliving and learning from each other's experiences. 

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This season we are diving into conversations on pleasure and inspiration. We are excited to show you the process of how different conversations become one complete episode. 

Join us as we bring to you raw snippets with a lot of ummm-hmmm you would otherwise not hear from our conversations, straight from our new studio space for your auditory pleasure.

Co-Hosts: Saru & Suneeta

Audio and Mixing: Saru

Logo: Supriya

Ep. Art: Raji

Follow @UtarChadhav on social media for more information:

Website: www.utarchadhav.com
#Experiences #PleasureAndInspiration #MentalHealthMatters #UtarChadhav

गफ गाफको rehearsal गरौँ, नयाँ studio सँग familiarize हौँ भन्दै सुरु भएको संवाद तपाई माझ टक्र्याउँदै छौँ ! के के न हो यो शव्द chronobiopolitics बाट things your sex-ed teacher should have talked about but probably didn’t देखी talking about sex without making it sexual गर्दा खेरी निस्कने conversation to importance of basic respect to question “is separating art from artist valid?” to many more. हामीले यो ep.लाई समेट्न ठ्याकै शव्द भेटेनौँ त्यसैले राखिदियौँ, “अलिकति फुरुनदाना types”.

Ep. सुन्दै गर्दा ओहो यो नाम त गज्जबै सुहाउँछ जस्तो लागे खबर गर्नुस् है।

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This season we are diving into conversations on pleasure and inspiration. We are excited to show you the process of how different conversations become one complete episode. 

Join us as we bring to you raw snippets with a lot of ummm-hmmm you would otherwise not hear from our conversations, straight from our new studio space to your earholes. 

Co-Hosts: Raji & Sj

Audio and Mixing: Saru

Logo: Supriya

Ep. Art: Saru

Follow @UtarChadhav on social media for more information:

Website: www.utarchadhav.com

#MixedBagsOfPleasure #PleasureAndInspiration #MentalHealthMatters #UtarChadhav

Often we are told that there is a right time for everything - a time to turn into an adult, a time to understand our sexuality, a time to mature into our desires, a time to figure out ourselves and our bodies, a time to grow up. The society we live in has decided a timeline in our life for when things are appropriate; a chronological timetable to live life the right way. 

But what happens when we challenge this notion? When we do not grow into who we are supposed to be right away? When do we take our time to learn our likes and dislikes? When we do not fall into place according to our age? When we want to forge a new path for ourselves? 

What happens when some of us do not abide by this unwritten rulebook? 

Join us as we contemplate various terminologies, concepts, conversations and phenomenologies from the societal manual of living and how it often crashes on our journey of pleasure and inspiration.

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This season we are diving into conversations on pleasure and inspiration. We are excited to show you the process of how different conversations become one complete episode. 

Join us as we bring to you raw snippets with a lot of ummm-hmmm you would otherwise not hear from our conversations, straight from our new studio space to your earholes. 

Co-creators & Hosts: Raji, Saru & Sj

Audio and Mixing: Saru

Logo: Supriya

Ep. Art: Sj

Follow @UtarChadhav on social media for more information:

Website: www.utarchadhav.com

#CoolOrUncool #PleasureAndInspiration #MentalHealthMatters #UtarChadhav

Navigating autistic journey can be tricky. Sometimes there are roundabouts, other times there are days of JOYs. Here we have come up with a map that shows our journey after and during the course of diagnosis and exploration of autism. 

During April - Autism Awareness/Acceptance month on year 2024, Meraki Chhen along with Utar Chadhav got together in an attempt to deepen the understanding of Autism in Adulthood. This is our follow-up 2nd episode on autism. What have been some helpful know-hows or resources in your autistic joy-rney?

Listen to Part I here: https://www.utarchadhav.com/Adult-Diagnosis-Part-I

In the 1st part audio of two part series on “Autismका कुराकानी” you will find Meraki Chhen and Utar Chadhav conversing on Neurodiversity and adult diagnosis. 

Meraki Chhen is a space for the celebration of nuances of human lived experiences in terrains of gender, sexuality, neurotype and sociocultural pluralism. It aims at furthering discussions and expressions surrounding queerness, adult neurodivergence, asexuality and aromanticism, care and mental health, and embodied indigenous knowledge and practices. 

This first part tries to understand what neurodiversity and being diagnosed as autistic as an adult means in the context of Nepal. Content discussed in the episode serves as a snapshot of anthropologically evolving scenarios and understanding of the complexity of human nervous system and human diversity and in no way is synonymous to the medical understanding of Autism and Neurodivergence. Autism is a spectrum and all autistics do not present the same way, this is our attempt at understanding the nuances of the spectrum.

Stay Tuned for the 2nd part which will be about lived experiences from folks. 

Co-creators: Meraki Chhen & Utar Chadhav

Audio and Mixing: Irina and Rajan

Logo: Supriya

Episode Art: Aastha (https://www.instagram.com/achanhere)

Follow @meraki.chhen on instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ 

Follow @UtarChadhav on Instagram:⁠ ⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/utarchadhav/⁠  Or Www.utarchadhav.com 

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#UtarChadhav #MentalHealthMatters #UpsAndDowns #Autismकाकुराकानी #MerakiChhen