Vanessa’s Lack Thereof

Me speaking to young girls on why I believe it would be ideal to be extremely picky about whom she chooses to have sexual encounters. Pregnancy is too late so prepare on your own as best you can while also remembering you don’t have to hate all men and be a total bitch about it to them. Your body your choice? Exactly. That’s why you strategize, prepare and consider variable changes so you can be adaptable. By refusing to plan for success, you are setting yourself up to fail. Just because we hold the majority of the power with the whole pregnancy doesn’t mean it’s our right to deny the man in the equation any and all rights. Also, yeah it’s more work for us. Also means it’ll make us better in the long run. Think better thoughts — make better decisions overall 😉💥

Been envisioning the latest King Arthur with that actor from that Sons of Anarchy show. If you don’t like movie spoilers and you haven’t watched King Arthur then don’t listen to this. I will ruin it for you with details

I’m constantly striving for excellence, protection and to be my truest self fully

All I wanna do is make me proud ⚡️🔥

Ya know?

Just getting used to my inadequacies and trying to make the most of my story and journey. Every day I want to quit and run away in my cave/hole of darkness and feel sorry for myself but I have to fight myself to stay in the game. Everything I want wants me. Everything I desire desires me 🤞🏾🫦

Just scrambling with words, thoughts and feelings again.

Not all men are garbage 🗑

“I’ve been trying to get down to the heart of the matter but my will gets weak & my thoughts seem to scatter” (Don Henley, Heart of the Matter). It’s been a minute and I am NOT holding it together well but at least I’m not putting up a front 🧞‍♀️🧚🏽‍♀️🧟‍♀️🧝🏽‍♀️

Bitch you’re scared to be vulnerable and emotional?!! Shut the fuck up you whining ass bitch 🙄🎻 (this is about a week later since recording this and Jesus Christ why am I so goddamn aggressive & intense in general but especially if I’ve been drinking 🤔🫣🙄🫠)