We all feel taken advantage of, used, abused, ignored, not valued, or just hurt. It’s embarrassing, humiliating, shameful, and frustrating. We all want the moment that comes around and they get theirs.
Always in his heart, kind of sounds like David’s relationship to God. As David writes a song of Ascents, of “going up” to church, he includes his feelings about his own relationship to God and likens himself to a child clinging to its mother.
David is looking back because he is in a tight spot. Life is hard, the enemy is big, the wall won’t fall, and he needs God desperately. So he remembers. I hear David saying, “Look how far we have come.”