An honest exploration of what happens when competence collapses, control stops working, and action becomes the only path back to healing, connection, and self-trust.The themes of proving and performance have followed me around for yonks. After arriving in Brisbane it came time to confront them. Today I discuss my rather measly tenure as a battle dancer and how it became a doorway to stand up comedy, which more or less saved my life. Sorry chat gpt, I’m not calling it ‘The Shape of Waiting’.

Incredible psychologist: https://www.spathiswellbeing.com/about

As mentioned in the episode, here you can watch gift horse, my beginner comedy special: youtube.com/watch?v=GW_ou_UgowE&feature=youtu.be

The themes of proving and performance have followed me around for yonks. After arriving in Brisbane it came time to confront them. Today I discuss my rather measly tenure as a battle dancer and how it became a doorway to stand up comedy, which more or less saved my life. Sorry chat gpt, I'm not calling it 'The Shape of Waiting'.

Watch gift horse, my beginner comedy special: youtube.com/watch?v=GW_ou_UgowE&feature=youtu.be

Incredible psychologist: https://www.spathiswellbeing.com/about

Stay up to date with the pod via Substack: https://jessicagoodfellow.substack.com/

A tender exploration of attachment, grief, and meaning-making through the story of a childhood doll; tracing how unexpressed loss, family silence, and care displaced onto objects shape who we become.

I have perpetually wrangled with the meaning of my Cabbage Patch Doll, Bubby, who I was gifted when I was born. Over the years she held a lot for me, just like I did for my family. Today I navigate the corners of my mind and my odd family constellation, and consider possibilities around why I have obsessively searched for meaning in my life. This episode is a three bagger; yes sir, yes sir, it is three bags full on the ‘emotionally heavy baggage’ scale.

I considered it apt to share some visuals. Below you can hear my sister practising piano after high school on my 4th birthday. A pretty accurate depiction of the contrast in the house.

Me and my confidant. Shoutouts to Bubby.

I hope you enjoy this episode. It’s been surprisingly difficult to work through these stories and decide how I finally want to ‘put them to rest’. The process has been transformative and I thank you for joining me.

I have perpetually wrangled with the meaning of my Cabbage Patch Doll, Bubby, who I was gifted when I was born. Over the years she held a lot for me, just like I did for my family. Today I navigate the corners of my mind and my odd family constellation, and consider possibilities around why I have obsessively searched for meaning in my life. This episode is a three bagger; yes sir, yes sir, it is three bags full on the 'emotionally heavy baggage' scale.

If you'd like to stay connected, sub to my substack, home of the pod, where I also write loose essays on art, myth and energetics: https://jessicagoodfellow.substack.com/

You can also check out my Youtube channel, Goodfellows Garden:https://www.youtube.com/@goodfellowsgarden

A darkly funny, unsettling meditation on avoidance, indecision, and truth-withheld. Tracing how unclear endings, symbolic attachments, and inherited identity fractures shape the way we belong, love, and speak.Today I venture into the uncomfortable tale of how I ended up with a tattoo on my arm that now represents a friendship breakup. After trying three times to record this episode, I arrived at a profound conclusion and a very satisfying decision. In true number 8 fashion, this episode touches on infinity and feels like a trippy springboard for the next chunk of the season. It might be my favourite episode so far.

Today I venture into the uncomfortable tale of how I ended up with a tattoo on my arm to represent a friendship breakup. After trying three times to record this episode, I arrived at a profound conclusion and a very satisfying decision. In true fashion of 8, this episode is somewhat different to the others and feels like a trippy springboard for the next chunk of the season.

If you'd like to stay connected, sub to my substack, home of the pod, where I also write loose essays on art, myth and energetics: https://jessicagoodfellow.substack.com/

You can also check out my Youtube channel, Goodfellows Garden:https://www.youtube.com/@goodfellowsgarden

A reflection on how small, unexpected human encounters can quietly alter a life’s trajectory and how kindness, seen late, can reframe years of hardship.

In today’s episode I discuss my early days in Barcelona, getting bullied by Spaniards and other inconvenient karmas. I focus on the unexpected magical encounters that occurred along the way. Blessings to two angels starting with A who redirected my path for the better. A multitude of meandering jaunts in this zero bagger.

In today’s episode I discuss my early days in Barcelona, getting bullied by Spaniards and other inconvenient karmas. I focus on the unexpected magical encounters that occurred along the way. Blessings to two angels starting with A who redirected my path for the better. A multitude of meandering jaunts in this zero bagger.

If you'd like to stay connected, sub to my substack, home of the pod, where I also write loose essays on art, myth and energetics: https://jessicagoodfellow.substack.com/

You can also check out my Youtube channel, Goodfellows Garden: https://www.youtube.com/@goodfellowsgarden

A humorous account of an unbelievable seven-year high school love saga. Tracing how anxiety, fantasy, and half-presence can wire lifelong relational patterns, and how the body signals truth long before the mind can name it.Today we trot into the hills to explore an unbelievable experience I shared with my young counterpart aka my high school sweetheart between the ages of 12-19. This connection laid me a strange foundation for relational and social connection but holds an everlasting place in my heart. So does John Mayer, and his song Wheel.

A reflective elegy for a childhood friendship that ended without drama. Tracing how comparison, difference, and unspoken resentment can slowly erode intimacy, and what it takes to forgive both yourself and the past.

Today I venture into my childhood to explore a close friendship that came to an abrupt and curious end. This friendship continues to shape me, and has offered profound insights into concepts of truth, mirror and belonging.Enjoy here or on your regular podcast platform; Spotify, Apple pods etc. If you enjoy, leave a review!