This week, we are doing something a bit different. I am talking about me. Why did I, at 41, decide to start a podcast… and start sharing stories about myself, revealing insecurities, and basically how despite now being an adult for over half my life I have no idea how to adult.

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Why Aren’t We Talking About This? is a series of honest conversations about the stuff we rarely discuss but probably should - big feelings, weird thoughts, life, death, and all the messy, beautiful parts of being human.

Hosted by me, Carly Osman-Holme, on a quest to dodge a full-blown existential crisis. I’ve reached that point in life where I’m asking the big questions: How did I get here? What do I actually want? And why didn’t they teach us any of this in school?

Stories are how we make sense of what’s happening to us.

But when something hard hits, most of us go quiet. We tell ourselves we’ll share it later- when we understand it, when it feels less raw, when there’s a neat ending.

So we carry it alone. But silence has weight. And it makes heavy things feel heavier. Because there’s something that happens when someone tells the truth in real time. Not to fix it. Not to package it. Just to say: this is happening, and it’s really hard.

It creates recognition. And recognition creates relief. Today’s conversation is about sharing while you’re still in it.

In today’s episode I’m joined by Kyara Bentley, who opens up about her recent stage 4 endometriosis diagnosis- the uncertainty, the fear, and the impact on her future. And what happened when she chose to speak before she had the answers.

This is a conversation about being witnessed. And why sometimes, the bravest thing you can do is press “post.”

If anyone would like to speak with Kyara about anything covered in the episode you can find her on Instagram on Hope Beyond Endo on her personal page 

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Why Aren’t We Talking About This? is a series of honest conversations about the stuff we rarely discuss but probably should - big feelings, weird thoughts, life, death, and all the messy, beautiful parts of being human.

Hosted by me, Carly Osman-Holme, on a quest to dodge a full-blown existential crisis. I’ve reached that point in life where I’m asking the big questions: How did I get here? What do I actually want? And why didn’t they teach us any of this in school?

We’ve normalised something quite strange.

We take photos of our children constantly. First steps, first days of school, the in-between moments that feel too important to lose. And then we share them. Not always widely, not always publicly, but enough that those images start to exist beyond us.

And on the surface, it all feels harmless. It feels like love, like connection, like a way of holding onto time as it moves.

But underneath that, something else is happening.

We are building digital records of our children before they have any awareness of it. Before they can decide what parts of their lives are public and what parts are private. Before they can say no.

We tell ourselves it’s safe. That it’s just friends, just family, just a small circle. But once something is posted, it doesn’t stay there. It becomes part of a system that can store it, copy it, move it, and use it in ways we don’t fully see.

And then there’s the part that’s harder to sit with. That those same images can be taken, manipulated, repurposed. That they can surface years later, in contexts we would never have chosen. That the idea of “control” online is, at best, partial.

So this episode is really about that discomfort. About what we’re doing when we share our children online, and whether we’ve fully understood the implications of it.

In this episode of Why Aren’t We Talking About This, I’m speaking with Lisa Ventura MBE, a cyber security expert, about children’s images and social media and what happens to them once they’re posted, and what we need to understand about safety in a digital world.

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Why Aren’t We Talking About This? is a series of honest conversations about the stuff we rarely discuss but probably should - big feelings, weird thoughts, life, death, and all the messy, beautiful parts of being human.

Hosted by me, Carly Osman-Holme, on a quest to dodge a full-blown existential crisis. I’ve reached that point in life where I’m asking the big questions: How did I get here? What do I actually want? And why didn’t they teach us any of this in school?

Everywhere you turn there’s judgement - do less, do more, be thinner, be softer, be stronger, be quieter, be grateful, be better. Society hands women a script and calls it choice, and we follow it: staying in careers that drain us, making life decisions to avoid criticism, having children or not having them based on what will be easiest to explain. At this point, so many of our choices aren’t even ours anymore; they’re crowd-sourced, pre-approved, run past everyone else before we dare to trust them ourselves. We don’t listen to what we want; we listen to what will be accepted. 

In today's episode of ‘Why Aren’t we Talking about this’ with Heidi Cullip we are delivering into why. This isn’t a conversation about neat answers, it’s a confrontation with the questions we avoid: whose life am I living, who taught me this was success, and what would I choose if I stopped asking for permission?

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Why Aren’t We Talking About This? is a series of honest conversations about the stuff we rarely discuss but probably should - big feelings, weird thoughts, life, death, and all the messy, beautiful parts of being human.

Hosted by me, Carly Osman-Holme, on a quest to dodge a full-blown existential crisis. I’ve reached that point in life where I’m asking the big questions: How did I get here? What do I actually want? And why didn’t they teach us any of this in school?

Grief. There is no one way to do it.

And yet, when you’re in the thick of it, it’s so easy to feel like you’re getting it wrong - too much, too little, too emotional, too functional. Carrying on when you think you shouldn’t. Falling apart when you think you should be coping better.

Grief is messy. Layered. Multifaceted. No two versions look the same.

It isn’t always sadness. Sometimes it’s anger. Sometimes it’s relief. Sometimes it’s resentment. Sometimes you are not just grieving for the person but the idea of the person or what could have been.

Emotions that don’t fit neatly into the very narrow cultural script of what grief is “supposed” to look like.

So in today’s episode of Why Aren’t We Talking About This, I’m talking to grief coach Kate Nudds and we are shinning a light on grief - not the neat, sanitised, five-stages version we’ve all been taught, but the real, lived, complicated way it actually unfolds.

We talk about how grief changes you.

We unpack the silent “shoulds” and “should nots.”

Because grief doesn’t follow a formula. It moves. It shifts. It reshapes you. And maybe the most important thing to say- however yours looks, it’s not wrong.

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Why Aren’t We Talking About This? is a series of honest conversations about the stuff we rarely discuss but probably should - big feelings, weird thoughts, life, death, and all the messy, beautiful parts of being human.

Hosted by me, Carly Osman-Holme, on a quest to dodge a full-blown existential crisis. I’ve reached that point in life where I’m asking the big questions: How did I get here? What do I actually want? And why didn’t they teach us any of this in school?

Infertility is a complex topic. And while conversations and support around it have come a long way in the 9 years since I went through IVF, there’s still one side that remains largely closed off. Male infertility.

It’s often framed clinically. Numbers. Tests. Procedures. Analysis.

But emotionally, it hits something much deeper.

For many men, fertility is tangled up with identity. We live in a culture shaped by toxic masculinity- one that links a man’s value to strength, competence, and legacy. Virility becomes a marker of worth. Of power. Of being “enough.” So when infertility arises, it doesn’t just feel like a medical problem, it can feel like a personal failure.

There’s often shame, silence and avoidance. As most men do not have the language for this kind of vulnerability.

In today’s episode, I’m speaking to Alex Wortley about his experience male infertility. We dive into feelings, perceptions, why we really need to talk about this more. This is a must listen for anyone in a fertility journey or has friends going through it, as whilst the lens on male infertility much of what we talk about is the importance of open, honest conversations.

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Why Aren’t We Talking About This? is a series of honest conversations about the stuff we rarely discuss but probably should - big feelings, weird thoughts, life, death, and all the messy, beautiful parts of being human.

Hosted by me, Carly Osman-Holme, on a quest to dodge a full-blown existential crisis. I’ve reached that point in life where I’m asking the big questions: How did I get here? What do I actually want? And why didn’t they teach us any of this in school?

We live in a world overflowing with health advice. Protocols. Hacks. Blueprints for the “perfect” routine. Everyone seems to have a plan, a stack, a morning routine that promises optimisation and longevity.

And yet, most of us (and I raise my hand here) are still exhausted, disconnected, inflamed, wired, under-fed, over-stimulated, under-rested.

We’re not short on information. We’re short on self-knowledge.

Somehow, the most unsexy, foundational elements of health have become the most neglected:Sleep. Hydration. Light. Movement. Food. Rest. Nervous system safety.

We know them. We talk about them. We measure them obsessively on apps and devices, yet we seem to have lost the ability to actually embody them.

In todays episode of Why Aren’t we talking about this, I speak with Brigid Fox, an integrative health and performance coach about what happens when we stop treating health as a performance  and start treating it as a relationship. 

Why Aren’t We Talking About This? is a series of honest conversations about the stuff we rarely discuss but probably should - big feelings, weird thoughts, life, death, and all the messy, beautiful parts of being human.

Hosted by me, Carly Osman-Holme, on a quest to dodge a full-blown existential crisis. I’ve reached that point in life where I’m asking the big questions: How did I get here? What do I actually want? And why didn’t they teach us any of this in school?

I’d guess around 70-80% of people are somewhat miserable in their jobs.

Many have done well - climbed the ladder, earned the big title,  but sit there day after day, quietly hating everything about it. 

Dreaming of a slower pace. Of finally exploring the hobby that makes them feel alive. Of that startup idea they can’t stop thinking about; the one they’re convinced could change everything.

But most of them won’t do anything about it. They’ll spend the next 20 years in the same roles they once thought were a good idea, still dreaming on the side.

Why? Why are we so willing to settle for “good enough” in our careers? If this were a marriage, people would be shouting, “Get out! Leave! Put yourself first!” But when it comes to jobs and drastic career changes, the advice flips - you have to stay, you can’t possibly leave.

In today’s episode of ‘Why aren’t we talking about this’ I’m speaking with Gilly Ridley Whittle about the midlife pivot. Gilly had the big job, the big title, and then said fuck it to the system. In her 40s, she set out to build a lingerie brand Peachaus, that, I genuinely believe, will change the industry forever.

Why Aren’t We Talking About This? is a series of honest conversations about the stuff we rarely discuss but probably should - big feelings, weird thoughts, life, death, and all the messy, beautiful parts of being human.

Hosted by me, Carly Osman-Holme, on a quest to dodge a full-blown existential crisis. I’ve reached that point in life where I’m asking the big questions: How did I get here? What do I actually want? And why didn’t they teach us any of this in school?

“Grieving people don’t need wise words. They need lasagna.”

Death. It happens to all of us -  and to everyone we love -  but no one wants to talk about it.

In Western society, death is hidden away. Out of sight. Out of polite conversation. As a result, many of us simply don’t have the language to talk about it.

Several of my dear friends have recently had loved ones die, and I find myself not knowing what to say. And then the worse thing happens, I say nothing at all.

And then there is the practical side. We’ve built a formulaic approach to funerals -  one that often strips away the person’s personality, their story, their identity. And compassionate leave. Three to five days to “get over” the death of someone you love. What utter BS. 

Grief doesn’t work like that. It’s not linear, it’s not tidy, and it doesn’t fit into a policy.

Two weeks into 2026, the resolutions are in the bin, the fresh faced unstoppable January energy has faded, and you are now right back in the treadmill of life. Plodding on, doing the same old thing.

Two weeks into 2026, the resolutions are in the bin, the fresh faced unstoppable January energy has faded, and you are now right back in the treadmill of life. Plodding on, doing the same old thing.

Why Aren’t We Talking About This? is a series of honest conversations about the stuff we rarely discuss but probably should - big feelings, weird thoughts, life, death, and all the messy, beautiful parts of being human.

Hosted by me, Carly Osman-Holme, on a quest to dodge a full-blown existential crisis. I’ve reached that point in life where I’m asking the big questions: How did I get here? What do I actually want? And why didn’t they teach us any of this in school?