Wild Obedience Man

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 31

Title: I feel peace in every part of my life for the first time ever

Description:

It’s still June 9, still raining in Cincinnati, and I’m still in my truck. After a phone call with my old friend Andrew, something shifted. I didn’t feel judged or misunderstood. I felt seen. Then, a wave of peace swept in—deep, abiding, and unfamiliar. I talk about how God has healed places in me I thought were permanently broken. This might be the most grounded I’ve ever been in my life.

I talk about:

• the call with Andrew and what it healed
• chasing validation since grade school
• being present without striving
• the joy of not needing edibles anymore
• surrendering my last withheld crumbs
• what I’d do if CRUMB blows up… or doesn’t
• how I'm finally content—no matter what happens

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Still June 9, still in the truck, and everything feels different

06:01 – A phone call that healed old fears of judgment

14:40 – I’ve chased validation my whole life—until now

25:23 – I'm not chasing the past or striving for the future anymore

38:02 – No more edibles. I don’t even want one.

52:27 – I used to be afraid of making money with CRUMB—now I’m not

1:05:44 – This might be my new normal. Peace like I’ve never known

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

Ephesians 3:20 – “Exceedingly, abundantly more than you could ever ask or imagine”

The Lord’s Prayer – “Give us this day our daily bread…”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Crumb by crumb, God will build something beautiful with your obedience—even your broken pieces.

🙏 Closing Line:

If CRUMB blows up in two years, just know I had no evidence—only faith.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 30

Title:

I don’t want my life to be a platform—I want it to be an altar

Description:

This one came just a few hours after Episode 29. I was walking the trail I used to walk back when I lived here, not far from the house I sold. Something stirred. It felt like a moment to confess a deep sense of nearing breakthrough. I talk about what it feels like when the visions God gives you are so wild, you’re scared to speak them aloud—but you do it anyway, because obedience demands it. This is not about hype. This is about surrender.

I talk about:

• Feeling like everything I’ve been chasing is on the edge of coming true
• The weirdness of calling your shot like Babe Ruth and not knowing if you’ll look like an idiot
• My lifelong sense that I’m supposed to speak truth in the public square—even on something like Joe Rogan
• The tension between ego and full surrender
• Visions of cities, properties, and missions I’ve never dared to speak aloud
• The difference between prosperity gospel and proximity gospel
• Wanting my kids to know my life was about walking by faith, not likes or followers

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

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00:00 – “OK, I don't know why I feel the way I feel… but I'm just gonna record.”

04:12 – Sharing the scary visions: Joe Rogan, Karu Tower, Colorado land

07:37 – “I don’t want my life to be a platform—I want it to be an altar”

10:49 – Walking by faith, not results; why Crumb is the proximity gospel

14:28 – Prophecy or not? Retelling signs and moments of confirmation

18:02 – “Even the dogs get the crumbs”—how small obedience nourishes me

21:33 – A direct word to my kids if I’m gone: love the Lord, chase the fruit

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

Ephesians 2:10 – “For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works…”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

I don’t need this to happen for me. I’m just testifying to what God has shown me—and if it never comes true, He’s still worthy.

🙏 Closing Line:

Whether He ever does anything I believe He's shown me or not—I'm content. God bless you.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Godwink Bonus Episode

Title: Thank you, Jesus, for the USB cord

Description:

It’s not Episode 30. It’s something different. Something special. I’m calling this a Godwink Bonus Episode—a story that unfolded in real time and felt like divine timing at every turn.

I talk about a moment where I tuned into the Holy Spirit, changed my work location, ran into a problem (dead headphones), and prayed for a solution—only to walk outside and find a brand new USB-C cord lying next to my car.

This is what I mean when I say God winked. It’s not just coincidence. It’s confirmation.

I talk about:

• What a Godwink is (and why I used to track them in a WhatsApp group)
• How I chose Starbucks over Crossroads based on a “Holy Spirit homing beacon”
• My exact process of problem-solving when my headphones died
• The literal USB cord sitting next to my car door
• Why I’m recording these now instead of texting them
• Two blue trucks and the promise of a future episode

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – What’s a Godwink? Why I had to record this

02:15 – Trying to charge my headphones without a USB cord

04:20 – The Holy Spirit prompts me: leave Starbucks

05:10 – I walk outside... and the cord is right there

06:00 – “Thank you, Jesus, for the USB cord”

07:10 – Why this was wild timing (and how I almost missed it)

08:00 – Two blue trucks and the story I’ll tell next time

🧠 Core Takeaway:

“When you walk with God, even a USB cord can preach.”

🙏 Closing Line:

Godwink #1 in the books. Thank you, Jesus. You’re too cool. You’re too good to me.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 29

Title:

Julian found me

Description:

It’s early on June 9th, and I’m sitting in the UDF parking lot about to hit the coffee shop. Last night something happened that I can only describe as God-orchestrated. A man I met nearly a decade ago, Julian Mendoza, reconnected out of nowhere and poured water on a dry sponge. I walk through the history of Foundation 513, the insane setup we had, and how last night’s call reignited something deep. This is more of a journal entry—but it matters.

I talk about:

• the story behind Foundation 513 and our holistic health commune
• living in a 100-year-old warehouse with yoga, candles, and community dinners
• meeting Julian and the message he sent after eight years
• my life philosophy I shared with him before our call
• the way he spoke life into me—spirit, courage, intent, and truth
• how encouragement at the right time can stoke a fire
• why I want a trail of crumbs for what God is doing behind the scenes

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

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00:00 – Headed to a coffee shop, reflecting on last night’s call

04:12 – The origin and vibe of Foundation 513

09:45 – Julian and his wife join us for dinner years ago

13:20 – Julian’s message out of nowhere after almost a decade

19:08 – I send him my CRUMB life philosophy before our call

24:50 – “You’ve been a light we do not forget” — Julian’s words

28:10 – Why encouragement from the right person at the right time hits so hard

33:15 – Leaf blower to the soul: how Julian rekindled the fire

🧠 Core Takeaway:

When someone sees your intent clearly—even years later—it can reignite a God-given fire you didn’t know needed oxygen.

🙏 Closing Line:

Go do it, go do it, go do it again. You never know what someone needs to hear.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 28

Title: I’m Relearning Manual So I Can Drive My Family in Freetown

Description:

It’s June 8th, 3:08 PM, and I’m on my way to my Uncle Greg’s house in Cincinnati for a manual driving lesson. I’m physically tired, mentally tired, spiritually okay but drained from a bit of drama. I learned stick half a life ago detailing cars at my uncle’s Ford dealership—but now I need to relearn it for real. When we return to Sierra Leone, I want to be able to drive my wife and kids myself instead of relying on a paid driver. This is for independence. For provision. And, according to my wife, maybe to be a little more attractive, too.

I talk about:

• Relearning stick shift after 18 years
• Driving lessons at a Ford dealership in my teens
• Preparing to go back to Freetown, Sierra Leone
• Wanting independence from relying on drivers
• Physical and mental exhaustion from the day
• My wife’s hope (and incentive) that I’ll get it right

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – June 8, 3:08PM: Heading to Uncle Greg’s for a manual lesson

01:15 – Why I need to relearn: for our return to Sierra Leone

02:00 – My first exposure to stick: age 18, detailing cars at the Ford lot

03:10 – Reconnecting with the past, prepping for the future

04:05 – “My wife said it might make me more attractive…”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Relearning something you should already know isn’t a step back—it’s obedience in motion.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #28 — she said it might make me more attractive, so I’m all for that.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 27

Title: Lose Yourself… or Let God Use You

🧩 Today’s Crumb (Question):

If God handed you 90 minutes to change everything…

Would you get to work, or waste it waiting for permission?

📍 Description:

It’s June 7th, 3:58 AM. I'm hyped. I tried to play Eminem’s Lose Yourself while recording this and blew up my phone. Classic.

But this episode is all about the gap between the moment and the move—how God sometimes opens a 90-minute window and asks,

“Will you swing?”

I talk about:

• Getting woken up by the Holy Spirit—and my son Noah
• The weird peace that comes from spiritual confirmation (even when it’s through a toddler)
• Bleaching shirts in the front yard (don’t ask)
• Old friends, old neighborhoods, and the gut-punch of impermanence
• Harvard business cases, pressure cookers, and the wild idea that God might be setting me up for a holy productivity blitz

Also… I tried to make up a song on the fly. It was bad. You’re welcome.

⏱️ Highlights & Timestamps:

00:25 — Eminem, Spotify glitches, and what the Spirit used to wake me

03:15 — My son Noah becomes my spiritual confirmation

04:50 — Bleach on a t-shirt and unpredictable CRUMB prep

06:30 — Childhood nostalgia, old houses, and sacred memories

08:15 — The Harvard business case story and divine time compression

09:45 — The prayer beneath it all: “God, help me use this window well”

📖 Scriptures Referenced or Echoed:

• James 4:14 — “You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.”
• Ephesians 5:15–16 — “Be very careful, then, how you live… making the most of every opportunity.”
• Romans 12:1 — “Offer your bodies as a living sacrifice… this is your true and proper worship.”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

God doesn’t need your full calendar.

He just needs your next 90 minutes—offered in faith.

👣 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #27 — proof that 3:58 AM, a kid’s footsteps, and one hyped-up moment of obedience can crack open a Kingdom day.

Let’s go.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 26

Title: The Hotel Room, the Funeral, and the Forest

📍 Description:

This one's a full confessional ping-pong match. Tragedy. Laughter. Conviction. Physics. Pill bugs.

We lost a 24-year-old member of the Mercy Ships community to malaria. It’s shaken a lot of us. I wrestle with the limits of healing, faith, and the reality of risk when you're living on mission with kids.

Later that night, I stared a homeless man in the face and said no to a hotel room.

Then went home and wrestled with Jesus.

Also in this episode:

• An update on my brother’s stand-up comedy show
• The question I keep asking: “What’s the line between faith and recklessness?”
• A confession about how I used to give like a wild man—and how God showed up
• A physics rabbit hole with Brian Greene
• The softest moment with my son Leo on a walk through the woods

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:35 – Tragic death on Mercy Ships, processing risk, and the mystery of healing

05:15 – When Jesus doesn’t “answer” and why I still believe

07:20 – My brother’s comedy journey & the power of long obedience

10:30 – The man named Keith and the conviction I’m carrying

16:20 – Why “faithful” doesn’t always mean “comfortable”

19:50 – My wild younger years of giving recklessly and God showing up

22:30 – Wrestling with responsible vs. radical obedience

26:15 – New book: The Hidden Reality and why I care about physics

29:40 – Final story: Leo held my hand on a forest walk, and I melted

🧠 Core Takeaway:

When the moment comes—whether it’s malaria or homelessness or your own doubt—faith has to move. Not explain. Not calculate. Just move.

📖 Scriptures Referenced or Implied:

• Matthew 25:35–40 — “Whatever you did for the least of these…”
• 2 Corinthians 5:7 — “We walk by faith, not by sight.”
• Luke 6:30 — “Give to everyone who asks you…”
• James 2:17 — “Faith without works is dead.”
• Proverbs 19:17 — “Whoever is generous to the poor lends to the Lord…”
• Galatians 6:9 — “Do not grow weary in doing good…”

👣 Closing Line:

Episode 26 — one hotel room unbooked, one deer spotted, one hand held in the woods. I'm still in this. And I want to get it right.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 25

Title: Time, Eternity, and Cracked Heels

Description:

It’s 5:37 AM. I’m walking in sandals today—my cracked heels couldn’t handle the blacktop barefoot. But even with aging feet, my spirit’s on fire.

In this episode, I wrestle with time:

How fast it flies.

How sacred it is.

And how most of us waste it like we’ll live forever.

You’ll hear about a summer memory from Overhill Swim Club, a reflection on my son Leo, a jolt from Ecclesiastes, and a plea for urgency: not in hustle, but in Heaven-awareness.

We talk about self-development, aging, hell, the afterlife, and cracked corn grilled on a grill in the '90s. It’s all here—honest, raw, hilarious, eternal.

⏱️ Highlights & Timestamps

00:00 — Cracked heels and Over-the-Hill feet

01:30 — 1 Chronicles 16:11–18 and the covenant across generations

04:10 — Remembering Overhill Swim Club cookouts

06:40 — Watching the men of my childhood become elderly

08:50 — Playing basketball with Leo and capturing fleeting moments

12:15 — Life is a vapor: Ecclesiastes, legacy, and mortality

14:30 — What are you doing with your time?

16:00 — Are you ready for death… or just joking about hell?

18:50 — YOLO, eternity, and the lights-out lie

21:40 — Stop tolerating slow suicide (physical, mental, spiritual)

23:30 — Identity, love, and spiritual wake-up calls

25:20 — Change is spiritual warfare. Don’t numb out.

28:15 — If self-development worked, you’d already be free

30:00 — Jesus > every attempt you’ve made on your own

32:20 — Eternal mindset, family focus, and pooping urgency

33:25 — [Podcast ends due to emergency bathroom sprint]

📖 Scriptures Referenced or Echoed

• 1 Chronicles 16:11–18 — Seek His presence continually… He keeps His covenant forever…
• Ecclesiastes 1–12 — “Meaningless, meaningless… everything is meaningless.”
• James 4:14 — “You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.”
• Matthew 10:28 — “Fear Him who can destroy both soul and body in hell.”
• Romans 12:2 — “Be transformed by the renewing of your mind…”

🔥 Core Takeaway:

Time is short. Eternity is long.

And every moment you waste in spiritual apathy is a lie whispered by hell.

Change something today.

Before your cracked heels and dead dreams turn to dust.

📣 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #25 — proof that cracked feet, corn cookouts, and covenant faithfulness can all collide into one sacred, sweaty walk with God.

And sometimes… you just gotta sprint home to make it to the toilet.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 24

Title: Cover-Ups, Catechism & the Cost of Truth

Description:

It’s 4:30 AM. I’m barefoot, walking through a quiet Cincinnati suburb, and something’s burning in my chest.

This wasn’t supposed to be an episode. But it became one.

What started as a peaceful morning walk turned into a full-blown firestorm—about institutional lies, religious trust, the Catholic Church, and what it means to follow Jesus when the club that bears His name looks nothing like Him.

I talk through the breaking controversy at Our Lady of the Visitation, share raw reflections on church hurt, personal disillusionment, and why CRUMB even exists. This is not anti-Catholic. This is pro-truth.

If you’ve ever wrestled with religious trauma, trust, or what it means to stay faithful in a faithless age—this one’s for you.

⏱️ Highlights & Timestamps

00:00 — Barefoot in the suburbs at 4:30 AM

02:15 — Early mornings and spiritual green lights

04:05 — The Jake McQuaide / OLV controversy explained

07:40 — The PR playbook of religious cover-ups

10:10 — Why CRUMB was born out of this exact mess

13:50 — Comparing spiritual authority vs spiritual obedience

17:00 — The weight of hypocrisy in 2025

20:25 — "You're either in mortal sin or you're not"—my Catholic upbringing

25:30 — What the Catechism never taught me

30:40 — Freedom in Christ vs Performance in Religion

34:10 — The deeper reason men are leaving institutions

38:00 — I'm not anti-Catholic. I'm anti-lie.

41:25 — Dinner with a priest I actually respect

📖 Scriptures Referenced or Echoed

• John 14:6 — Jesus said, “I am the way, the truth, and the life.”
• Luke 12:2–3 — “Nothing is covered up that will not be revealed…”
• Galatians 5:1 — “It is for freedom that Christ has set us free…”
• Matthew 23:27 — “Woe to you… who are like whitewashed tombs…”
• 1 Peter 4:17 — “Judgment begins with the house of God.”

🔥 Core Takeaway:

Truth isn’t optional for the Church.

It’s the cornerstone.

And if we cover it up, we collapse.

This isn’t about Catholic vs Protestant.

It’s about pretending vs repenting.

Jesus didn’t die for cover stories.

He died for confession.

📣 Closing Line:

If you're gonna ask men to be guided into the truth, you better be living it.

The world doesn’t need more robes or rules.

It needs sons on fire for Jesus.

Let’s go.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 23

Title: Is That the Holy Spirit or Just Me?

Description:

It’s 5:56 AM. I’m driving an F-150 down River Road toward Fernbank Park with no plan—just a whisper.

This episode wasn’t scheduled.

I wasn’t trying to be productive.

I wasn’t even looking for my phone.

But then God asked me:

“Will you walk with Me without it?”

I said yes. And guess what?

He gave it back anyway.

What followed was a raw, unscripted moment about hearing the Holy Spirit in the middle of real life—not as a metaphor, not as intuition, but as an actual presence who leads, prompts, and walks with us.

This one is for the sons asking:

How do I know it’s really God?

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 — Driving solo, no agenda, just obedience

02:10 — “Will you go on a walk with Me without your phone?”

04:00 — Letting go of routine to let God lead

05:45 — Why this wasn’t just intuition or coincidence

07:10 — Ditching New Age manifesting for real Spirit-led life

09:30 — How surrender unlocks unexpected provision

11:20 — The daily tension of faith vs. control

13:00 — Quantum mechanics and the still small voice

15:30 — The phone was there all along—but I wasn’t looking for it

📖 Scriptures Referenced or Echoed:

• 1 Kings 19:12 – The still small voice
• John 14:26 – The Holy Spirit will teach you and remind you
• Galatians 5:25 – Walk by the Spirit
• Romans 8:14 – Sons of God are led by the Spirit
• Isaiah 30:21 – “This is the way; walk in it”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

The Holy Spirit doesn’t scream.

He doesn’t compete.

He whispers—and waits for you to say yes.

📣 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #23 — one nudge deeper, one whisper louder, one walk more surrendered.